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Eagle1 · 01-31-2006, 12:16 PM

The anxiety is killing me.....Why not use? life sucks? right?
Tough hours ahead, but I think i will just relapse and get it over with instead of all this typing...

agent alias · 01-31-2006, 12:26 PM

Go out for a walk or something that raises your heart rate. That will help reduce the anxiety for awhile.

No relapse or you will be back to square 1.

Good luck.

agent alias · 01-31-2006, 12:27 PM

Go out for a walk or something that raises your heart rate. That will help reduce the anxiety for awhile.

No relapse or you will be back to square 1.

Good luck and be strong! You can do it!!!

I completely understand the anguish there.

Blake · 01-31-2006, 12:50 PM

Eagle,

Withdrawals suck, there is no getting around that. You have to be willing to deal with the suckiness in order to get through it b/c it eventually goes away, if you don't use.

It all comes down to, how much of a desire you have to stay clean. If your desire is strong enough, you'll be willing to do whatever it takes to stay clean.

Don't use, it'll pass and it's worth it.
Blake

**Alera** · 01-31-2006, 10:04 PM

I had really bad anxiety today. It helped to do the SMARTRecovery worksheet Copy with Anxiety about Anxiety.http://www.smartrecovery.org/resourc...statements.htm

bdjenkins03@yah · 01-31-2006, 10:42 PM

I had bad anxity dduring my recovery and take time to do breathing techniques. give yourself a count in your head for five sec while breathing in deeply. then try practicing tension release. start with your fist. ball your hand into a fist and for as tight as you can for five sec. then release. do all areas of the body by making your muscles tense then relaxing. Include your neck and legs. it really helps. make sure are noise level is down and your in a peaceful envoriment. good luck man its hard when one seems helpless but you can get throught it. you can do these excerisies anywhere also. I still do them to this day.

TRISH1011 · 01-31-2006, 10:56 PM

Would you rather be sick for a week or two or sick for life?

**Done-With-It** · 01-31-2006, 11:36 PM

Ahh (((Eagle))) what your going through right now is one of the hardest parts of it all. It ALL feels bad, using feels bad, thinking about getting clean feels bad, getting clean feels bad, and thinking about NOT using for ever feels BAD.
The stuff we takes helps us to push back the inevitable of life for awhile and then while we are pushing it back, it stacks up and keeps stacking higher and higher......

The more we use, the higher it gets. It may feel easier, but in reality all that is happening is the hole we are in gets deeper.

No one told us life would be easy, we just want it to be that way. Go through all the motions of being sick, feel them and remember that feeling so that you never want to use again. All the crazy stuff you are going through is a journey.... It's your journey of life. You've got to make better choices to get better things. Keep making bad choices and you keep getting bad things.......

I'm sorry if I just made No sense, I'm exhausted and brain dead, but I wanted to post to you and hope that you didn't relapse...........

If not, please hold on. If you did, START OVER....... ;-) Either way, let us know what's up.

DWI

**Done-With-It** · 01-31-2006, 11:38 PM

P.S. When you use the "C" word, you take your power away from yourself. Your telling your brain something that isn't true. Reality and the truth is, You choose.
You choose to go forward, or you Choose to relapse.

Don't give your power away to anyone. ;-)

Eagle1 · 02-01-2006, 04:28 AM

Thanks all. No use of drugs. Cleaned the entire basement. sorry to whine so much but this is doudle hard because my wife and I split 3 weeks ago. So I am going threw this alone.

**Done-With-It** · 02-01-2006, 04:33 AM

Ohhh!!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! Don't ever be sorry about expressing your emotions! They are what makes you, YOU!!

You are doing AMAZING! Keep up the great work!

**Done-With-It** · 02-12-2006, 01:27 PM

Eagle, How ya doin?

golf99 · 02-13-2006, 08:22 AM

I feel your pain. I'm having full blown aniexty right now. Shaking like a tree. Hang in..IT WILL PASS.

**Done-With-It** · 02-13-2006, 10:14 AM

Eagle,

Where'd ya go? You doin okay? ;-)

DWI

manuka · 02-13-2006, 10:15 PM

I statred seeing a new counsellor yesterday. Drink a glass of water, have something small to eat and breathe deeply. there's a recovery treatment I just found recovery.org i think, it's called rational recovery by Jack Trimpey.
Its about addiction voices and learning the nasty tricks that voice can do and what to do to fight it. Im not clean yet but im looking forward to trying it. Give it a google and you'll find it no sweat

Buzz Kilowatt · 02-14-2006, 06:05 PM

I share your anxiety. I moderate it sometimes with very small amounts of Xanax (e.g. 0.125 mg) and that has helped. I don't take it regularly and benzos haven't been a problem for me, opiates were.

The very best treatment for me is to go swimming 1/4 - 1/2 mile. That fixes a lot of problems.

Good luck - hang in there!

northbelle · 02-14-2006, 10:08 PM

Way too EASY....it takes alot of courage to get through this stuff.....I am right there myself tonight BUT..I like this saying...." When god shuts a door ,he opens a window...but the hallways are a real B***H"...Maybe you are just in the hallway right now??? I know I am...waiting to get to the open window....hang in there ...we are here for you and with you...northbelle

**Done-With-It** · 02-14-2006, 10:15 PM

Eagle where are you?

01-31-2006, 12:16 PM	#1 (permalink)
Eagle1 Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Up in a Big Tree Posts: 56	I can't deal... The anxiety is killing me.....Why not use? life sucks? right? Tough hours ahead, but I think i will just relapse and get it over with instead of all this typing...
	__________________ " All These Things, Washing Away....Like Tear Drops In The Rain"

01-31-2006, 12:26 PM	#2 (permalink)
agent alias Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: cyberspace Posts: 139	Go out for a walk or something that raises your heart rate. That will help reduce the anxiety for awhile. No relapse or you will be back to square 1. Good luck.
	__________________ Take care~ Agent

01-31-2006, 12:27 PM	#3 (permalink)
agent alias Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: cyberspace Posts: 139	Hang in there Go out for a walk or something that raises your heart rate. That will help reduce the anxiety for awhile. No relapse or you will be back to square 1. Good luck and be strong! You can do it!!! I completely understand the anguish there.
	__________________ Take care~ Agent

01-31-2006, 12:50 PM	#4 (permalink)
Blake I'm an addict. Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Hyde Park, NY Posts: 1,201	Eagle, Withdrawals suck, there is no getting around that. You have to be willing to deal with the suckiness in order to get through it b/c it eventually goes away, if you don't use. It all comes down to, how much of a desire you have to stay clean. If your desire is strong enough, you'll be willing to do whatever it takes to stay clean. Don't use, it'll pass and it's worth it. Blake
	__________________ Warning: I'm a sick person so take any advice I may be spewing with a grain of salt, but it's what has worked for me, so far.

01-31-2006, 10:04 PM	#5 (permalink)
Alera SR's SMART Goth Mod Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: SoCal Posts: 1,863	I had really bad anxiety today. It helped to do the SMARTRecovery worksheet Copy with Anxiety about Anxiety.http://www.smartrecovery.org/resourc...statements.htm
	__________________ Copyright © 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008 Alera The addiction will protect itself ... AT ALL COSTS.

01-31-2006, 10:42 PM	#6 (permalink)
bdjenkins03@yah Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: GOLDRIVER Posts: 10	I had bad anxity dduring my recovery and take time to do breathing techniques. give yourself a count in your head for five sec while breathing in deeply. then try practicing tension release. start with your fist. ball your hand into a fist and for as tight as you can for five sec. then release. do all areas of the body by making your muscles tense then relaxing. Include your neck and legs. it really helps. make sure are noise level is down and your in a peaceful envoriment. good luck man its hard when one seems helpless but you can get throught it. you can do these excerisies anywhere also. I still do them to this day.

01-31-2006, 10:56 PM	#7 (permalink)
TRISH1011 Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: SYDNEY NSW Posts: 158	Would you rather be sick for a week or two or sick for life?
	__________________ SOBERING UPSOBERING UPSOBERING UP Hugs to all that suffer from addiction and for those who are affected by addicted loved ones

01-31-2006, 11:36 PM	#8 (permalink)
Done-With-It Seriously? Seriously.. Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Hollywood Posts: 8,188	Ahh (((Eagle))) what your going through right now is one of the hardest parts of it all. It ALL feels bad, using feels bad, thinking about getting clean feels bad, getting clean feels bad, and thinking about NOT using for ever feels BAD. The stuff we takes helps us to push back the inevitable of life for awhile and then while we are pushing it back, it stacks up and keeps stacking higher and higher...... The more we use, the higher it gets. It may feel easier, but in reality all that is happening is the hole we are in gets deeper. No one told us life would be easy, we just want it to be that way. Go through all the motions of being sick, feel them and remember that feeling so that you never want to use again. All the crazy stuff you are going through is a journey.... It's your journey of life. You've got to make better choices to get better things. Keep making bad choices and you keep getting bad things....... I'm sorry if I just made No sense, I'm exhausted and brain dead, but I wanted to post to you and hope that you didn't relapse........... If not, please hold on. If you did, START OVER....... ;-) Either way, let us know what's up. DWI
	__________________ Living in fast forward Hollywood RockStar outta control Need to rewind real slow Alwys Runin Time to take control Oh yeah ...

01-31-2006, 11:38 PM	#9 (permalink)
Done-With-It Seriously? Seriously.. Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Hollywood Posts: 8,188	P.S. When you use the "C" word, you take your power away from yourself. Your telling your brain something that isn't true. Reality and the truth is, You choose. You choose to go forward, or you Choose to relapse. Don't give your power away to anyone. ;-)
	__________________ Living in fast forward Hollywood RockStar outta control Need to rewind real slow Alwys Runin Time to take control Oh yeah ...

02-01-2006, 04:28 AM	#10 (permalink)
Eagle1 Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Up in a Big Tree Posts: 56	Thanks all. No use of drugs. Cleaned the entire basement. sorry to whine so much but this is doudle hard because my wife and I split 3 weeks ago. So I am going threw this alone.
	__________________ " All These Things, Washing Away....Like Tear Drops In The Rain"

02-01-2006, 04:33 AM	#11 (permalink)
Done-With-It Seriously? Seriously.. Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Hollywood Posts: 8,188	Ohhh!!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! Don't ever be sorry about expressing your emotions! They are what makes you, YOU!! You are doing AMAZING! Keep up the great work!
	__________________ Living in fast forward Hollywood RockStar outta control Need to rewind real slow Alwys Runin Time to take control Oh yeah ...

02-12-2006, 01:27 PM	#12 (permalink)
Done-With-It Seriously? Seriously.. Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Hollywood Posts: 8,188	Eagle, How ya doin?
	__________________ Living in fast forward Hollywood RockStar outta control Need to rewind real slow Alwys Runin Time to take control Oh yeah ...

02-13-2006, 08:22 AM	#13 (permalink)
golf99 Member Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: MIDCOAST NH Posts: 329	I feel your pain. I'm having full blown aniexty right now. Shaking like a tree. Hang in..IT WILL PASS.

02-13-2006, 10:14 AM	#14 (permalink)
Done-With-It Seriously? Seriously.. Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Hollywood Posts: 8,188	Eagle, Where'd ya go? You doin okay? ;-) DWI
	__________________ Living in fast forward Hollywood RockStar outta control Need to rewind real slow Alwys Runin Time to take control Oh yeah ...

02-13-2006, 10:15 PM	#15 (permalink)
manuka Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Wellington New Zealand Posts: 2	I statred seeing a new counsellor yesterday. Drink a glass of water, have something small to eat and breathe deeply. there's a recovery treatment I just found recovery.org i think, it's called rational recovery by Jack Trimpey. Its about addiction voices and learning the nasty tricks that voice can do and what to do to fight it. Im not clean yet but im looking forward to trying it. Give it a google and you'll find it no sweat

02-14-2006, 06:05 PM	#16 (permalink)
Buzz Kilowatt Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Terminus, GA Posts: 474	I share your anxiety. I moderate it sometimes with very small amounts of Xanax (e.g. 0.125 mg) and that has helped. I don't take it regularly and benzos haven't been a problem for me, opiates were. The very best treatment for me is to go swimming 1/4 - 1/2 mile. That fixes a lot of problems. Good luck - hang in there!

02-14-2006, 10:08 PM	#17 (permalink)
northbelle Dopeless Hope Fiend Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: anchorage Alaska Posts: 1,467	Way too EASY....it takes alot of courage to get through this stuff.....I am right there myself tonight BUT..I like this saying...." When god shuts a door ,he opens a window...but the hallways are a real B***H"...Maybe you are just in the hallway right now??? I know I am...waiting to get to the open window....hang in there ...we are here for you and with you...northbelle

02-14-2006, 10:15 PM	#18 (permalink)
Done-With-It Seriously? Seriously.. Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Hollywood Posts: 8,188	Eagle where are you?
	__________________ Living in fast forward Hollywood RockStar outta control Need to rewind real slow Alwys Runin Time to take control Oh yeah ...