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angelgirl · 12-29-2005, 04:46 PM

I am heading to Urgent Care right now,, because I cant breathe well..
It's been going on for a while now.. I always think the worst right away..
But, please, please. If you would, would you say a prayer for me right now??
I don't mean to ask you to do this right now,, but I do need it, and I do so believe in the power of prayer..

Thanks SO much!!

Love,
Becky

splendra · 12-29-2005, 04:50 PM

(((angelgirl)))

Of course prayers going out right now...feel better sweetie..

KatieRose · 12-29-2005, 04:52 PM

Becky,

Prayers are being said. Let us know what is going on when you can.

KatieRose

Justme57 · 12-29-2005, 04:52 PM

Youv'e got it becky , take care luv
Thinking of you

HUGX
Lee

KelKel · 12-29-2005, 05:01 PM

**51anna** · 12-29-2005, 05:01 PM

Prayers coming your way Angelgirl! Try to relax and stay positive if you can.

Be sure to let us know how you're doing when you get time.

nocellphone · 12-29-2005, 05:02 PM

We'll be right here when you get back...

**Phinneas** · 12-29-2005, 05:16 PM

Prayers surrounding you, Becky.

Blake · 12-29-2005, 05:28 PM

Prayers going out...

My billybob jinglebunns be with you

T1 · 12-29-2005, 05:49 PM

Our prayers are with you.

<3

Cindi R · 12-29-2005, 05:49 PM

Prayers going up

**DesertEyes** · 12-29-2005, 06:26 PM

Praying for ya ((((Becky)))))

angelgirl · 12-29-2005, 06:50 PM

Well,, it is put on hold,, for tonight.. My husband did not get home on time to take me, and I will not go alone. I am far to afraid of what they could tell me.
I know I am a big chicken, but after watching my mom go into the hospital, at 46, and them tell us she would be lucky to leave the hospital alive, and there was nothing at all they could do for her,, and when she did leave the hospital, she died 5 or 6 weeks after.,, I am just so, so frightened of hospitals.

Anyway,, I have done this to myself. That is another reason I am carrying alot of guilt. I have smoked for many years. Many. I have smoked since puberty, LOL.. 9 years old.. So anyway,, I am having much trouble breathing, and there is alot more to it.. They told me for a couple of years, everytime I was in treatment, that I had a spot on my lung. It was "probably" asthma..
well, I doubt that now. Because of all the smoking, and how I feel..

But, regardless, my dad is taking me tomorrow, at 2:00. So, one more day for prayers

Please, would you pray for me tonight?? I would really appreciate it, mor ethan you can imagine..

I will let you all know what happen..

I love you all,
Becky

12-29-2005, 07:15 PM

Oh sweetheart, don't worry about nothing, k! We all are here for you whenever and where ever. I wish I could give u one of those smilie hugs that done it has but you'll have to settle for an invisible one right here Did you see it? I think it is the best one I have ever seen. And by the way you are on my prayer list and so many other peoples so don't worry about no thing! So lay down and take alittle rest, then you'll feel much better. Also make a list for you doctor tomorrow so you don't forget nothing, k! Well, I am off to see Emily Rose! Love yas!

12-29-2005, 07:16 PM

I had an invisble space for the smilie that I carefully went around but this puter fixed it I guess, Sorry I tried!!

sugarssweetpea · 12-29-2005, 08:42 PM

Continuous prayers for you.

bella · 12-29-2005, 08:54 PM

i will get the circle going around here.

angelgirl · 12-29-2005, 11:00 PM

Thanks so much to all of you.. I can tell you, that all of this love, has really made me very weepy.. I have been extremely depressed.. I have been crying all night.. I am just so afraid. I just so dislike doctors.. I don't want to go.. I know very well, that I could be making a huge mountain out of a mole hill, and I really hope I am,, I will be happy to come back, and report that I did..
But for now,. I am extremely frightened, and very angry with myself,, that I have smoked all these years, and caused myself any of these problems.. Maybe I just can't get past that.. I guess it's an addiction,, just like the drugs have been.. I guess I had just done the same thing with the pain killers,, I put myself, and my family at risk, so many times,, it sure makes me sad.. But,, I am doing very well with the opiate addiction. I only pray my nicotine addiction goes as well.. I am tired of battling addictions..

I have been so depressed lately,, I have had even more trouble than normal sleeping.. I feel like my life is spiraling out of control to an extent.. Like I said, I am not using, so that is great,, but so many others things are out of control right now. I just needed someone to talk to.

My kids are fighting. I have 3 teens. 2- 13 yr olds, and a 16 yr old..

Yep, they do battle a bit. Quite a bit. My husband and I haven't been getting along, even a little bit. Tonight, I just laid my head on him, and cried. I apologized for being the bad wife and mother that I have been in the past. I need to straighten out my life. He is tough to live with,, but I know that if I were a better wife, then he would be a better husband. It does work like that sometimes.. I love my kids so much,, but I have to be a better mom, and get this all under control better. I need to control the fighting a bit better. Geez,, I must have been sleeping when god handed me the parenting brochures,, because it has been live and learn in this house.. I am going to make a counseling session, with the kids. I just plain need an over haul.. Life needs to get better. We also need to get more involved in church. i love that. It also gives me a really good feeling..

Well,, thanks again to all of you for listening, and replying. I really needed this tonight. I have really been a mess.. I hope I can ccome here tomorrow, and say,, it was all good.. I was so wrong. I am just a big baby. That is my prayer,, or that god healed me tonight..

Love ya all,
Becky

**Phinneas** · 12-29-2005, 11:24 PM

Sleep well, Becky, knowing that prayers surround you.

:sleeping:

Justme57 · 12-29-2005, 11:43 PM

Take care Becky and have a good sleep.

I will be thinking of you LUV

HUGX
Lee

KatieRose · 12-30-2005, 06:37 AM

Becky,

Still praying for you.

KatieRose

shestruggles · 12-30-2005, 08:48 AM

Love you Becky!

Prayers and hugs headed your way!

roadie58 · 12-30-2005, 08:57 AM

Special prayers going out for you Becky. Hope your Dr. visit locates something that you can do for relief and that you don't suffer undue anxiety with the visit.

Be at peace, breathe in, breathe out.....repeat if necessary....

Michale

Wolfstarr · 12-30-2005, 09:10 AM

(((((Becky))))))

Prayers for you now, and good healing thoughts.
You will be in my thoughts all day today
Bless,

**Done-With-It** · 12-30-2005, 01:40 PM

She is very good at praying
She's been praying since she read that last night.

I could relate to what you are saying about fixing up your life to
a better place. I think that the better we get the more we require
from ourselves and our life. You ARE getting better and the things
that weren't such a big deal are now ready to move to the place
of being a big deal. It's okay, it's just time to fix those problems now.
You are much stronger than before.
I love ya girl, Stay Strong through this, and let us know what the doc says.

12-29-2005, 04:46 PM	#1 (permalink)
angelgirl You're never alone!! Join Date: May 2003 Location: Wisconsin Posts: 2,194	Please everyone!!! Please... I am heading to Urgent Care right now,, because I cant breathe well.. It's been going on for a while now.. I always think the worst right away.. But, please, please. If you would, would you say a prayer for me right now?? I don't mean to ask you to do this right now,, but I do need it, and I do so believe in the power of prayer.. Thanks SO much!! Love, Becky __________________ ™ Don't tell God how BIG your addiction is, tell your addiction, how BIG our GOD is!! Jesus is our teacher and he is our Savior, who takes our prayers and makes them his own.

12-29-2005, 04:50 PM	#2 (permalink)
splendra the girl can't help it Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: splendraville Posts: 4,771 Blog Entries: 3	(((angelgirl))) Of course prayers going out right now...feel better sweetie.. __________________ nice has a hisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

12-29-2005, 05:01 PM	#6 (permalink)
51anna Forum Leader Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 11,020	Prayers coming your way Angelgirl! Try to relax and stay positive if you can. Be sure to let us know how you're doing when you get time. __________________ Anna "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Maya Angelou

12-29-2005, 05:02 PM	#7 (permalink)
nocellphone Cruelty-Free Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Body: South Florida Heart: Yosemite National Park Posts: 916	We'll be right here when you get back... __________________ Oh, yeah!!! Recovery is not a mysterious process. The only mystery is why it took some of us so long to get here... and why some choose not to stay.

12-29-2005, 05:16 PM	#8 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,596	Prayers surrounding you, Becky. __________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson

12-29-2005, 04:52 PM	#3 (permalink)
KatieRose Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: Indiana Posts: 162	Becky, Prayers are being said. Let us know what is going on when you can. KatieRose

12-29-2005, 04:52 PM	#4 (permalink)
Justme57 Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Melbourne victoria Posts: 1,980 Blog Entries: 7	Youv'e got it becky , take care luv Thinking of you HUGX Lee

12-29-2005, 05:01 PM	#5 (permalink)
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12-29-2005, 05:28 PM	#9 (permalink)
Blake I'm an addict. Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Hyde Park, NY Posts: 1,201	Prayers going out... My billybob jinglebunns be with you __________________ Warning: I'm a sick person so take any advice I may be spewing with a grain of salt, but it's what has worked for me, so far.

12-29-2005, 05:49 PM	#10 (permalink)
T1 sparkly clean Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Right Behind You! Posts: 121	Our prayers are with you. <3

12-29-2005, 05:49 PM	#11 (permalink)
Cindi R Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Anywhere,USA Posts: 512	Prayers going up __________________ There's no gram like the program

12-29-2005, 06:26 PM	#12 (permalink)
DesertEyes Starting over Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Skin city Posts: 2,123	Praying for ya ((((Becky))))) __________________ Sunsets are not endings. If I have enough faith, they are beginnings.

12-29-2005, 06:50 PM	#13 (permalink)
angelgirl You're never alone!! Join Date: May 2003 Location: Wisconsin Posts: 2,194	Well,, it is put on hold,, for tonight.. My husband did not get home on time to take me, and I will not go alone. I am far to afraid of what they could tell me. I know I am a big chicken, but after watching my mom go into the hospital, at 46, and them tell us she would be lucky to leave the hospital alive, and there was nothing at all they could do for her,, and when she did leave the hospital, she died 5 or 6 weeks after.,, I am just so, so frightened of hospitals. Anyway,, I have done this to myself. That is another reason I am carrying alot of guilt. I have smoked for many years. Many. I have smoked since puberty, LOL.. 9 years old.. So anyway,, I am having much trouble breathing, and there is alot more to it.. They told me for a couple of years, everytime I was in treatment, that I had a spot on my lung. It was "probably" asthma.. well, I doubt that now. Because of all the smoking, and how I feel.. But, regardless, my dad is taking me tomorrow, at 2:00. So, one more day for prayers Please, would you pray for me tonight?? I would really appreciate it, mor ethan you can imagine.. I will let you all know what happen.. I love you all, Becky __________________ ™ Don't tell God how BIG your addiction is, tell your addiction, how BIG our GOD is!! Jesus is our teacher and he is our Savior, who takes our prayers and makes them his own.

12-29-2005, 07:15 PM	#14 (permalink)
help123 Guest Posts: n/a	Oh sweetheart, don't worry about nothing, k! We all are here for you whenever and where ever. I wish I could give u one of those smilie hugs that done it has but you'll have to settle for an invisible one right here Did you see it? I think it is the best one I have ever seen. And by the way you are on my prayer list and so many other peoples so don't worry about no thing! So lay down and take alittle rest, then you'll feel much better. Also make a list for you doctor tomorrow so you don't forget nothing, k! Well, I am off to see Emily Rose! Love yas!

12-29-2005, 07:16 PM	#15 (permalink)
help123 Guest Posts: n/a	I had an invisble space for the smilie that I carefully went around but this puter fixed it I guess, Sorry I tried!!

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sugarssweetpea Growing, Learning, Living Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Vacationing on earth Posts: 837	Continuous prayers for you. __________________ But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well. ~ Matthew 6:33 Sugarssweetpea

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12-29-2005, 08:54 PM	#17 (permalink)
bella Member Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Hog Country Posts: 167	i will get the circle going around here. __________________

12-29-2005, 11:00 PM	#18 (permalink)
angelgirl You're never alone!! Join Date: May 2003 Location: Wisconsin Posts: 2,194	Thanks so much to all of you.. I can tell you, that all of this love, has really made me very weepy.. I have been extremely depressed.. I have been crying all night.. I am just so afraid. I just so dislike doctors.. I don't want to go.. I know very well, that I could be making a huge mountain out of a mole hill, and I really hope I am,, I will be happy to come back, and report that I did.. But for now,. I am extremely frightened, and very angry with myself,, that I have smoked all these years, and caused myself any of these problems.. Maybe I just can't get past that.. I guess it's an addiction,, just like the drugs have been.. I guess I had just done the same thing with the pain killers,, I put myself, and my family at risk, so many times,, it sure makes me sad.. But,, I am doing very well with the opiate addiction. I only pray my nicotine addiction goes as well.. I am tired of battling addictions.. I have been so depressed lately,, I have had even more trouble than normal sleeping.. I feel like my life is spiraling out of control to an extent.. Like I said, I am not using, so that is great,, but so many others things are out of control right now. I just needed someone to talk to. My kids are fighting. I have 3 teens. 2- 13 yr olds, and a 16 yr old.. Yep, they do battle a bit. Quite a bit. My husband and I haven't been getting along, even a little bit. Tonight, I just laid my head on him, and cried. I apologized for being the bad wife and mother that I have been in the past. I need to straighten out my life. He is tough to live with,, but I know that if I were a better wife, then he would be a better husband. It does work like that sometimes.. I love my kids so much,, but I have to be a better mom, and get this all under control better. I need to control the fighting a bit better. Geez,, I must have been sleeping when god handed me the parenting brochures,, because it has been live and learn in this house.. I am going to make a counseling session, with the kids. I just plain need an over haul.. Life needs to get better. We also need to get more involved in church. i love that. It also gives me a really good feeling.. Well,, thanks again to all of you for listening, and replying. I really needed this tonight. I have really been a mess.. I hope I can ccome here tomorrow, and say,, it was all good.. I was so wrong. I am just a big baby. That is my prayer,, or that god healed me tonight.. Love ya all, Becky __________________ ™ Don't tell God how BIG your addiction is, tell your addiction, how BIG our GOD is!! Jesus is our teacher and he is our Savior, who takes our prayers and makes them his own.

12-29-2005, 11:24 PM	#19 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,596	Sleep well, Becky, knowing that prayers surround you. :sleeping: __________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson

12-29-2005, 11:43 PM	#20 (permalink)
Justme57 Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Melbourne victoria Posts: 1,980 Blog Entries: 7	Take care Becky and have a good sleep. I will be thinking of you LUV HUGX Lee

12-30-2005, 06:37 AM	#21 (permalink)
KatieRose Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: Indiana Posts: 162	Becky, Still praying for you. KatieRose

12-30-2005, 08:48 AM	#22 (permalink)
shestruggles Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: waysouth Posts: 394	Love you Becky! Prayers and hugs headed your way! __________________ "Things do not change; we change" (Henry David Thoreau)

12-30-2005, 08:57 AM	#23 (permalink)
roadie58 "The BAND" workshop ROCKS! Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: Indianapolis, Indiana Posts: 1,489	Special prayers going out for you Becky. Hope your Dr. visit locates something that you can do for relief and that you don't suffer undue anxiety with the visit. Be at peace, breathe in, breathe out.....repeat if necessary.... Michale

12-30-2005, 09:10 AM	#24 (permalink)
Wolfstarr Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Deeeep South Posts: 744	(((((Becky)))))) Prayers for you now, and good healing thoughts. You will be in my thoughts all day today Bless, __________________

12-30-2005, 01:40 PM	#25 (permalink)
Done-With-It InAButtonKindOfWay. Seriously? Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Hollywood Posts: 8,250 Blog Entries: 15	Good Luck Today She is very good at praying She's been praying since she read that last night. I could relate to what you are saying about fixing up your life to a better place. I think that the better we get the more we require from ourselves and our life. You ARE getting better and the things that weren't such a big deal are now ready to move to the place of being a big deal. It's okay, it's just time to fix those problems now. You are much stronger than before. I love ya girl, Stay Strong through this, and let us know what the doc says. __________________ Living in fast forward Hollywood RockStar outta control Need to rewind real slow Alwys Runin Time to take control Oh yeah ...