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Old 12-02-2008, 11:02 AM   #26 (permalink)
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I was on oxy contin, morphine, and methadone for a lil over 2 years and I remember having to take hydros when I couldn't get anything else. It would take me 15-20 10mg hydros to keep me from being sick and it only last 6-8 hours. I finally quit, and it was the hardest thing i've ever had to do. I stayed in bed for 2 weeks, it hurt to move. I had the shakes, couldn't sleep, and was on the toilet constantly. Even after I stopped being sick it took me 3 months to get my energy back up. Xanax can help, but remember that xanax is another controlled substance and they are also addictive. Trust me I know, I got them prescribed for 4 years. A lot of people will detox under a doctor's care and that is a gread idea!! You can take unisom for sleep, and ibuprophen for the aches and pains. Stay in bed and drink plenty of water. Also,Vitaman C and B12 dots helped me alot, you can get them at a vitamin store like vitamin world or GNC, maybe even WalMart, but I'm not sure about the B12 dots there. Also, if you are under a doctors care, ask your doctor about suboxin. It works great. I know it's hard but you can do it! Good luck and God Bless. You are in my prayers.
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Old 12-02-2008, 11:10 AM   #27 (permalink)
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I didn't see the posts about suboxin. I used it for a while and it worked great. I had no problems detoxing from it, I'm not sure of the mg but they were orange. N8? My ex used them as well and he loved them. Just be thankful you're not on methadone. When I finally got clean I used it and I was sick for a long time. Suboxone is nowhere near as bad as methadone. Just follow doctor's orders and you'll be fine. It'll take time and patience but don't push it. You'll get there if you really want it.
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Also,Vitaman C and B12 dots helped me alot, you can get them at a vitamin store like vitamin world or GNC, maybe even WalMart, but I'm not sure about the B12 dots there. .
Just a comment on the Vit B12. I'm not sure what B12 "dots" are but you can get B12 either as a pill that you swallow or you can get ones that you dissolve under your tongue (called sublingual or SL in case you didn't know). The SL ones are 'supposed' to be 'better' than the ones you swallow, but either way, B12 is good to start. It helps you get a little more energy plus it is a vitamin and very natural. Definitely drink as much water and other fluids (pedialyte, gatorade, etc) as you can--you have to stay hydrated or you will be in the hospital with dehydration. You can do this!! Vitamins are definitely an important part of recovery in the long term. I also recommend Calcium Pyruvate as that adds a little extra energy as well. Calcium and your B-complex vitamins are the most important for anyone. You can also take some Fish Oil (make sure to get the odorless ones or you'll never take one again!)
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Old 12-04-2008, 06:13 AM   #29 (permalink)
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I didn't read much into this post. I just wanted to let the thread starter know that I was just like you at one point. I would get on these forums searching for how long it would take to get rid of withdrawal. The worst part to me was the restless leg syndrome.

The psychical stuff will end in about 4 days give or take. I was afraid to stop because I was sure that it would go on for ever. Sure enough in less than a week you will be feeling a lot better.

The sleeping is hard for me now but the worst is over. I'm on day 11. Good luck with recovery. And remember one pill, will have you back to day 1.
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So I guess it's my turn. I know my problem isn't as severe as many that I have read on here so far. I'll give you a little background. I started smoking weed on and off.. It didn't interfere with my job and it was a nice way to relax. I quit weed for as much as 8 months at a time, and right now I am two months clean on that. I started eating Roxi 50mg on Nov 4th. My brother takes them for back pain and I was swiping them off him just for a little nice high here and there.. until I started eating 2 a day then 3... then 4 or more. I guess thats just how it goes. Well I decided to put an end to it. I was only eating them regularly for about a month at 4 a day or so. But Saturday afternoon at 4:00 pm was my last pill. I slept ok Saturday night.. and Sunday I woke up feeling the same way I do every morning after eating pills. Like crap. So I decided I wasn't going to take anymore. I had cravings to bust into the medicine cabinet on Sunday night but I didn't. And let me tell you last night was a whopper of a horrible time. I felt fine at around 7pm last night, which was weird so I decided to eat some macaroni. At around 9pm I was feeling tired so I laid down to go to sleep.. then I felt something weird in my throat and I began vomiting profusely. I was leaking out from both ends. Every two hours last night I would get up to vomit.. Could hardly sleep. I think I slept maybe an hour or two MAX.

This morning I felt terrible. Had cold sweats etc. I found this forum last night at around 4 in the morning.. I needed advice. I found alot here which is why I felt I needed to post and thank you all for the sound advice. I'm doing this cold turkey.. And I know again I've only been eating those pills for roughly two months.. but man it kicks your behind when you want it out of your system.

Worst thing is.. I have a job interview in one hour.. and my stomach still feels sour. But I feel a lot better than I did 12 hours ago. Hopefully tonight I can sleep better. I've been drinking tons of water, taking antacid for my upset stomach and I had some immodium for the leakyness.

Pain killers are no good. If I make it to tomorrow which I know I will god willing I won't ever touch those again. I know my story is peanuts to some.. but the way I was spazzing out last night just goes to show you.. its a poison and the body wants it out. By any means necessary.

Well wish me luck on my interview.. I Hope i don't barf up in his face. lol


Warm Baths, video games, toast when I can eat it. Hopefully i feel 100% better tomorrow. 4pm today will be 48hrs without a pill.
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Old 01-05-2009, 04:06 PM   #31 (permalink)
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how do i get my mind off of these things?

I want to quit my 60 mg/day oxycodone habit. every time i try to quit and allow myself to start going through withdrawal the thoughts and the loud screaming addiction voice in my head wins out and i take a pill to shut it up.

the physical symptoms are annoying. its my mind i can't escape from.

keeping myself busy and occupied is hard as i'm a stay at home mother, stuck home most days with not much to do except care for the kids, which is very difficult when i'm tired and on the toilet and having hot and cold sweats. i know i should probably send them to my mothers for a week and go somewhere and detox. it's just too difficult for me to ask for help, to admit that i am in fact powerless.

a friend of mine suggested i go get xanax from the doctor to help ease my mind so i can sweat these oxys out of my system. i don't know if that would be any help at all.

any suggestions for me?

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Old 01-05-2009, 05:39 PM   #32 (permalink)
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I hate the way xanax makes me feel, but they did help with the restlessness. I don't think I'd do that with children under my care. Ambien helped for sleep, and immodium D was great for the diarrhea. Clonopin is something I haven't tried, but will be on my list when I come off of the suboxone I'm on now.

I tried c/t off of a 150mg a day oxycodone habit, made it to day 5 and wasn't feeling any better, so gave up. I hadn't scheduled enough days off work. Most people are over the worst of it by day 3.

If you can do the c/t, do that. Suboxone is great for breaking the cycle of using, kills the cravings, eliminates the w/d. But, a worse habit than oxycodone. I couldn't do c/t, so had to do the suboxone.

I'm now on suboxone, trying to slowly detox. I did a quick detox, got to .75mg and was consistently in mild w/d, doctor put me back up to 4mg and now going to try to detox again, more slowly.
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Old 01-05-2009, 05:52 PM   #33 (permalink)
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Why is it that when you 'think' you're feeling better, nighttime comes and you start getting the runny nose again and the queezy feeling in the stomach returns.

I actually got to eat something more than bread at dinner time today. I didn't think I would be able to hold it down.. but that was three hours ago now and I haven't vomited since this morning.

It was really awkward at the job interview too.. I had to wait 20 minutes which felt like an eternity.. and I started sweating.. the chair was uncomfortable because my rear was still sore from the constant going from last night.

Well It's almost 8pm on day 2..50+ hours no pills. And I asked my brother today to keep the pills locked up so I couldn't get to them. GET THEM OUT OF THE MEDICINE CABINET!!

Baths felt great.. been drinking water like a fish and taking ibuprofen every 8 hours cause I am sore all over. I can't imagine what this is like for people who have been taking it for years.. I've only been eating Roxi's for like a month and a half daily and it's very rough.

Right before dinner I was feeling anxious so I went for a walk. That was nice. Sweating some of this poison out.

It's weird when I sit down and try to play some video-games I just don't want to. I am delirious from not sleeping well. I don't have the luxury of some Xanax or even tylenol PMs. So I have to try try try to sleep tonight. It's weird. I am so tired but can't just settle my mind down to sleep. And when I do it doesn't last long. 30 mins here.. maybe an hour there.

Can't wait for 4pm tomorrow! 3 days off this nonsense.
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Old 01-05-2009, 06:46 PM   #34 (permalink)
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Game Over,

Here's a technique that sometimes will help me slow my mind down for sleep. Get into your comfortable sleeping position. Close your eyes and focus on reciting a poem or story you know by heart. Tell it to yourself and focus on each word. I use the poem "The Jabberworky" by Lewis Carroll as it's nonsense words.

Hope this helps.

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I slept on and off last night..not a full 8 hours or anything. But I did sleep. And its an amazing feeling when you haven't slept for a while what just a few hours feels like.

Thanks for your help.

Today I feel much much better. Gonna go get a hot shower and get outside and do something.

I'm glad I found this site.

-I might have to go check out 'Jabberwocky.
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Good job GO, and welcome to the boards. Can't believe you made a job interview whilst detoxing off of roxy's ... when you had some in the med cabinet. Very impressive my friend Keep up the good work, you're almost there!
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Just a quick question.. How long does it take for the amount of time I was taking these roxi's does it last in your system for drug tests? A month and a half..

Anyway 4 more hours till 72 hours of no pills

Feeling alot better too.. I am able to eat I am happy and in a lot better mood. The further I put this behind me the better I feel.

After I got out of the shower this morning, I opened the med cabinet out of habit and there they were.. a full bottle of Roxis.. I had to catch my breath for a second. I guess thats just how it goes. Shut the cabinet and walked away. I gotta remind my brother to lock those up. I guess he forgot to.

And thanks for the welcome to the boards. I'll be around for a while

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Ech.. sleeping is rough.. I wanna get back to sleeping on the regular so bad. Grrrr
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First off, unless you get a pretty thorough (i.e. expensive) drug test, roxys don't even show up at all. Your average job-interview style drug test is usually a bargain affair, which tests for opiates (morphine, codeine, heroin, basically) and not for opioids like oxycodone.

Secondly, unless you're talking about a hair test, the stuff remains detectable for *maybe* one week, and most likely, less than that.

Congrats on your 3 days, and for staring down those babies and walking away! You're doing great, honestly
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yea, wow, that is amazing. I dont think i'd have the willpower to have any in the house or anywhere near me. absolutely wonderful.

i've made plans for this weekend, the kids are going to grandma's. i'm going to see if i can do this on my own. maybe i'll feel better by monday? i plan to sleep and drink water and take tylenol and immodium. i found these restful leg pills at walgreens which I pray to God willl work. restless leg syndrome is probably the worst part of w/d for me.

i'm so sick and tired of thinking about these pills. i hope and pray we all escape this hell.
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I am in day 2 of oxy withdraw

Well I don't know what to say other than I feel like **** and I can barely get out of bed. I wish I had some weed to take the edge off the withdrawal.
I am shaky and cold all of the time and I am not sure whether I want to quit or find a way to get pills.

My husband is a straight shooter so I can see that it hurts him that I am like this.

I have a herniated disk in my back and degenerative disk syndrome in my spine I have been on percocets for over a year and a half straight. I didn't even get high off them just got to function like a normal person and now I can't function at all. I don't want to be around my family and it kills me because I have this beautiful baby boy that just looks up to me and it tears me apart that without the pills I feel like I have no joy in this world and no one should feel like that. I have been a prisoner of the bottle for so long. I didn't know it would be this bad getting off of it. I don't want to be alone but I feel like my husband is disgusted with me. He wont even look at me and I have no one but me and the pills. I am almost through it but I still feel like crap and I cant eve move or get out of bed or feel. I just want to be normal or get some pills to be normal. I just wanted to get this stuff out of my head.

Am I some kind of monster or something.

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No, Gwendy. You aren't a terrible person. You are a victim of these horrible pills, of a merciless addiction, just like I am. I am a mother as well, with four beautiful growing children, who have watched me go from tired and lethargic on the couch to happy and energetic when the pills get here.

Its got to be confusing for them. Consider yourself lucky, if you will, that your husband is against you taking the pills. My boyfriend is also addicted. The blind leading the blind.

I haven't had a pill since 6:00 last night. I'm not feeling so hot. I am also going back and forth with whether I want to quit or not. I know it's not MY voice in my head, its the addiction playing with me.

Please know, if nothing else, that you are not alone. There are many of us going through the same thing, at the same time.

Tell your little child that mom isnt feeling well, she must have caught a flu. Hang in there.
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im now on the first day of withdraw from the pill oxycodone and i wanted to ask some questions what would help me get through it.I am taking xanex for the anxiety that goes along with the withdrawal and wanted to know if its an good idea?Also taking valium 10mg for the insomnia issues that go along with the withdrawl. please help i have already tried to go through it once before but it seems as if the withdrawl never stops! please post back your ideas if this is a good idea or should i try to quit cold turkey again?
you have to call a clinic and get a doc to write a script for subutex it will make you feel fine as soon as you desolve it under your tongue you will feel better instantly
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My long babbing story about my W/D and life....

Well I am now on Day 4 of W/D from Oxycodone. I still can't sleep through the night and I am still cold all of the time. My husband doesn't get it and still turns off the heater. Although on a positive note now the need for the pill is gone. The crying has stopped and I can actually get out of bed and function. Like clean my house and take care of child. I will admit though that if I don't keep myself busy that my mind starts to wander to the pill. I was so happy taking them and I can remember being happy no matter what I was doing. Now it seems like if I am not doing what I want to do that I can't even be content with doing it. Anyway I am now battling with my own mental addiction and not the physical anymore. I remember feeling good and functional and that is the part that bothers me the most, thinking I cannot function by myself. Those pills had become my happiness receptors for so long my body doesn't know how to make happiness by itself and that bothers me. However I will admit that smoking a little bit of weed did stop all the withdrawal pain I had, made me laugh and I didn't even think of being on pills not once. I was able to eat a little more since my appetite had been erased. I still do have bad back problems so I take a soma or two a day to help me relax and since it is not my drug of choice I have no thoughts of abusing them. I am still waiting for the "normal feeling" to return to me too.

However twist and positive note to my sharing. I have been in plans for the past 6 months I have been involved in a surrogacy program. I had been on the Percocet for almost two years straight at about 8-10 pills a day.

I was so convinced that I needed them for back that I just kept taking them. The truth is that I did need them for back, I just didn't need as many as I was taking.

So my husband kept asking me..."How are you planning to do this surrogacy thing and take those pills everyday"?

Mmh I replied I guess I will just quit. Well the day came that I ran out of pain killers before the date I was supposed to get this refilled and I was forced to stop cold turkey. (another reason that I have second thoughts about staying clean...because the only way to stay clean is to want to do it FOR YOURSELF) I would still be doing them if I had timed my pills better.

However now that the contract is signed and the surrogacy is coming to a pass, I feel conflicted to get them refilled because I really am in a lot of pain and the Doctor said that while I am pregnant taking pain killers occasionally wont make any harm toward the child. So I guess my thoughts are....

Can I do it? Can I take them sparingly? Can I know that they are in the house and not abuse them? Should I take a chance.

If I do use them as directed this time...because of my past and past W/D episode will that happen again?

Well these are my thoughts and I post them because I know that reading these entries really do help me know that I am not alone and I hope that all my babbling will help someone relate to my situation.

I have always been subjected to the drug scene throughout my whole life. My mother was an addict and my father was an addict. My father slammed Meth and my mother was a big Meth addict. I started smoking weed at an early age and tried a few drugs. I did a three year stint of smoking and snorting Meth. I weighed 98 pounds and made my BF at the time sick. (even though he was an alcoholic). Anyway I quit Meth cold turkey the day I smoked an entire 8ball to myself and didn't even get high because my tolerance was so high. I just quit. It wasn't hard at all. I quit smoking weed shortly after because I joined the AF. Weed was a little harder to quit since it was so harmless and made everything feel great. However I served 6 years in the military. I want to say drug free but I guess the pain killers were technically drugs since I did them for fun on top of the need for them.

I remember visiting my mother at rehab and having to stay with all of my mothers drug addict or recovering drug addicts friends houses. They all had no kids and I was forced to spend my years up until age 6 with just adults (seasoned adults...if you get my drift) Anyway this caused me to grow up way to fast. By 24 I have already had two kids and two marriages and still trying to hold. When I was younger I was invincable and now the thought of leaving my kids for rehab makes me sick... I mean don't take it the wrong way people have to do what they have to do to get clean for themselves and their families. I respect my mother for taking the time to make a better life for me. As a mother though I now know how much it broke her heart to have me cling to her legs and cry for her not to leave me with strangers or to leave me period. I now know how that broke her heart and I know how it would break mine.

I share my first son with my first husband and we take turns sharing him every other four months. He lives in NY and I live in CA and I give him up for four months at a time to my ex then I get him back for my four months.

Having my child scream for either me or my ex hubby at the Airport everytime we do the transfer is heart breaking he is only going to be 4 and can't even say goodbye to anyone he hates it so much. My child already has separation issues from everybody leaving him all the time. Two different families and two different states he cries mommy don't leave me please I want to stay with you and vise versa with his father. It breaks my heart so I know that I have to clean up my act while it is still small enough to handle on my own.


Well I guess I have babbled on enough... sorry if this was too long and annoying.
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Day 4!!!!!!

So last Saturday was the end of the party. We woke up on Sunday, feeling hopeful, and got through the day, tho mentally it was torture. Smoked cigarette after cigarette, and I dont even smoke. To be completely honest we smoked pot all day, and we're not pot smokers, but it helped get our minds off of the pills and took away the physical craving a lot. We don't plan on continuing pot, it isnt really our cup of tea. But it did help. It improved our moods and we didnt feel the jones.

Monday I woke up a hundred times drenched in sweat. I didnt have much cramping or diarrhea but I did take immodium at the first sign so I might have staved it off. Monday was hard, I was so tired and couldnt really do anything but lay around and doze off and on. Nothing to eat, couldnt even imagine eating, but I drank a lot of water. The RLS pills worked. Restful Legs at Walgreens. I had no restless legs or arms, at all. My boyfriend called out of work and was a lot of help although he was going thru the same exact thing. I think because he's so much bigger than me and we were taking the same amount it affected me more, so I suffered a bit more than he.

Monday night was another disgusting sweat fest. I sweated through three shirts. Hold and cold, hot and cold. But I think I got a lot of it out of my system because Tuesday after a few hot cups of coffee I got movin, cleaned up everything I'd neglected the past two days, did laundry, made dinner, tho still couldnt eat anything until right before bed.

So it's Wednesday, and I feel ok physically except for excess underarm sweating, but the depression is starting to kick in, the enormity of the time lost to this addiction of mine, the hours and opportunities missed, oh it's just so sad. I think Im over the hump, I can't ever imagine putting myself through day 1 and day 2 again.

Maybe I should go to the doctor and get something for the depression? I hate how it all goes back to medicating myself tho.
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Good for you Ames. You're right, keep the thoughts of days 1 and 2 in mind at all times, w/d's are actually your friend, in a way ... without that effect, you might never be able to stay quit off of opioids. Being totally depressed on day 4 is completely normal. If I were you, I would avoid taking meds to combat it ... pretty damn decent chance that nothing will work, aside from dope, anyways. You need to just let yourself heal for the time being, and just deal. Don't focus or dwell on the past, nor worry about things that may be in the future. Worry about the NOW. One foot in front of the other, try to focus on doing the next right thing and nothing more.

And if I were you, I'd seriously think about checking out some meetings at this point. Now is a GREAT time to start going to AA/NA or somethign of that nature. You won't be sorry you did, I promise you ...
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oxycontin hell

i just stopped 3 days ago and went from 200mg a day of oxycontin to 10mg of generic percocet just to get me thru the day. ive been having so much diariah... im only 20 and i feel like i want to die. this evil little pill has had me hooked for 7 months since surgery. my muscle aches cold sweats are unbearable. i doint know what to do.... i feel so stupid to think that "i couldnt get hooked". i have no support. i dont want to tell me family nor my sons father. i dont want to be looked at differently. i cant eat cant do anything and i have to be somewhere important friday. i feel like im going to have a nervous breakdown. i dont have any xanax or valiums to help. just low dosage 5mg generic percocet. its not like those do anything at all its just like going cold turkey. its just like i feel lonely once the drugs are done, i just want to die. please help me with any advice anythingggg.....please let me know if ill be able to function atleast by friday. i just miss being sober. i want to be sober... thats the natural high i crave the most.
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Although my screen name is SoCalTeen....it should be XanaxTeen.

Whatever you do....do not take the Xanax for getting of pain killers. Xanax is very addicting...I have first hand experience! I am still addicted, but I'm getting help. Xanax is very, very powerful. It makes you very relaxed and euphoric. It is also very addicting physically and mentally and it messes with your sleep patterns....DON'T DO IT!
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