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08-06-2005, 08:26 AM
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| Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: lakeme
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Today is day seven.. I am still finding it hard to get out of bed each day ..and I still do not have an appetite for food. I have been doing alot of reading .. I have like 7 books on recovery and I keep going from book to book and reading a lil i should probally just concentrate at one at a time. I am also spending alot of time reading the forums. Sometimes I think i might be doing to much reading but I think its helping me from wanting to get high. I also dont know if im going to go to a meeting until monday. I dont really like the meeting around me..it might be that i feel like im to young I dont know. Im not going to stop going to meetings but I dont think I will ever be able to make 90 in 90. Right now I have no way of getting drugs or alcohol now that I am away in a differnt enviroment. I think I will not use as long as I stay here and keep focusing on getting better. I wish this was something I could just snap out of..its really hard. Wish me luck because im going to need all that I can get.
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08-06-2005, 08:44 AM
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Hey...!!!! 7 days.. !!! I know what a huge thing that is... and I'm rejoicing with you.. I laughted when I read about your reading habits... I do the same thing... But.. it gets so heavy sometimes.. and it's like I'm taking little bites and digesting them and then trying a different plate... Don't matter though as long as I am getting sustanence.. ;o) I have to admit that I don't like my meetings sometimes either... Sometimes I dread going... But.. that is my disease talking.. and when I am being truthful with myself... I know what it is I need to do to continue my path on the higher road... Believe in yourself.. and continue to reach out for help... Together we can.. ;o) Blessings on your 7 days of freedom |
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08-06-2005, 09:09 AM
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Im starting to find out the my grandparents are great enabelers. My two uncles where drunks all their lives and every time something bad happened they would try to fix it. They both lost their lives too addiction..one suicide and the other a car accident. I have not had a job since I lived here.. I dont want one just yet because im barley getting by not getting high. My granpda gives me money, I try to refuse it, but he wont stop. Everytime I get a bill her trys to help me pay for it. It hurts me deep inside because I know they dont got the money and I really want to be independent. I need to get out of this and do it on my own but its to hard and I feel like I keep fumbling. Sometime it makes me feel so guilty and I hate myself for it but I dont have the energy to do anything about it.
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08-06-2005, 09:26 AM
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| help123  Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: winona, Mn
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i would sugguest that when u get a job, leave money in places the would find it...hehe, thats what I did for someone. Right now u need the help, take it, help them when they need it. That is what a family is so dont worry
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08-06-2005, 11:06 AM
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Hey Better... That's awesome that you acknowledge what your grandparents are doing... !!!!! And that you are being careful to not fall into the enabeling web... Because.. sometimes.. they need you to be sick so that they can fulfill THEIR perceived destiny.. to be caretakers and enablers. Getting through the crap to a walkable road can be hard Better... but.. your not fighting the crap alone.. I am so glad to see you again... and I am praying for you... for balance.. and strength.. and the desire to remain your own person... that wonderful child of the universe that you are meant to be... It's a quest... But.. I think it's worth it. Your in my thougths.. |
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08-06-2005, 12:27 PM
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He thinks he needs to help me with everything I do..and it hurts them to see im not getting any better..and I just feel worse inside. I explained to him I am depressed and im trying everything I can do to get out of it but he can not really help me right now.. it going to take time.. My grandpa look like he wants to cry. How long do you think it will take for me to feel normal and feel like doing things? Cause right now I have no engergy and my spirits are really down.
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08-06-2005, 12:34 PM
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7 days is awesome.Just take it one day at a time.Try and keep hitting those meetings.If there is a meeting you dont like,find another one if possible.And if you dont have a sponsor get one ASAP.
__________________  "Jack and Diane" painted a picture of my life and my dreams, Suddenly this crazy world made more sense to me Well I heard it today and I couldn't help but sing along Cause everytime I hear that song...  |
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08-06-2005, 05:38 PM
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Hey B... How long...?? Well.. that depends on a lot of things... But.. you can only do the best you can today.... If we just stay out of the using... then life will get better by itself... Sweetie... you are lucky in a sense cause you don't have years of shyte piled up behind you from using... Sometimes... that takes years to get rid of all the unfinished business... So... If it were me... I'd be putting that on my gratitude list... ;o) My mom is always laying trips on me too... and they can really mess with my head... But.. I have to constantly remind myself that her values... perspective... and goals are different than mine... and she doesn't have a program to help her... and I do.... But.. you just use us as your filter on anything that gets you going.. or gets you feeling bad... I'm here for you... |
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