Day 5!! - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

betterdayz · 08-04-2005, 06:59 PM

It day 5 clean from drugs!! I finally been able to eat something. My stomach is happy it is no longer roaring at me! I talked to my counseler about why I was so sick and could not sleep from just one pill and he said it could be possible a pyscological withdraw. What ever it was, it was hell and I do not ever want to feel that way again! Now that I am feeling better I am probally going to go to a AA instead of NA tommorow because that what they have. I know my mind is going to try to talk me out of it though. I guess I got to do whatever even though I do not feel like doing nothing. Well anyways thank you everyone for being so kind. bye.

In memory of miracle · 08-04-2005, 07:01 PM

Glad your feeling better! That meeting is a great idea!

betterdayz · 08-04-2005, 07:04 PM

I wish I could get this social anxiety under control though..i feel all shaky when i go to meeting. I guess i gotta think this too shall pass. I keep thinking that I am going to say something that dont sound right or people will not like me. Have a hard time opening up I guess.

08-04-2005, 07:34 PM

dont worry about anything else except urself...I know it is hard...I still have problems with that
love

recoveringaddic · 08-04-2005, 07:40 PM

wow 5 days clean happy birthday what a blessing you are well on your way.

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Originally Posted by betterdayz

It day 5 clean from drugs!! I finally been able to eat something. My stomach is happy it is no longer roaring at me! I talked to my counseler about why I was so sick and could not sleep from just one pill and he said it could be possible a pyscological withdraw. What ever it was, it was hell and I do not ever want to feel that way again! Now that I am feeling better I am probally going to go to a AA instead of NA tommorow because that what they have. I know my mind is going to try to talk me out of it though. I guess I got to do whatever even though I do not feel like doing nothing. Well anyways thank you everyone for being so kind. bye.

betterdayz · 08-04-2005, 07:52 PM

Man sometimes I do not think I can do it..or im too young I dont need to be going to AA. Life is going to be hard trying to start over. To bad I can not live life over if so my mind would of been good. Im at my grandmas house now away from old friends..I should be happy im with clean folks but im not really. God this recovery stuff is a hard bullet to swallow. I know I can not live like i used too..the only thing left was to go back to jail or die.

betterdayz · 08-04-2005, 08:29 PM

Do you think its possible for me to stay clean and only go to one NA meeting a week? There is this place i go to that has meeting all week but only na meeting once a week. The NA meeting I went too was allrite I did not like the rest.

**Alera** · 08-05-2005, 01:39 AM

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Originally Posted by betterdayz

Do you think its possible for me to stay clean and only go to one NA meeting a week? There is this place i go to that has meeting all week but only na meeting once a week. The NA meeting I went too was allrite I did not like the rest.

I had the same problem with my NA meetings, so I shopped around some AA meetings. Now one of my favorite meetings is an AA meeting! You need the meetings, so just keep plugging away until you find what you need.

betterdayz · 08-05-2005, 08:03 AM

Im going to go today dont matter what I tell myself. Im not going to let anyone scare me out of getting my recovery.

Blake · 08-05-2005, 08:12 AM

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Originally Posted by betterdayz

Man sometimes I do not think I can do it..or im too young I dont need to be going to AA. Life is going to be hard trying to start over. To bad I can not live life over if so my mind would of been good. Im at my grandmas house now away from old friends..I should be happy im with clean folks but im not really. God this recovery stuff is a hard bullet to swallow. I know I can not live like i used too..the only thing left was to go back to jail or die.

Hey dude, congrats on the 5 days and the WD's subsideing.

I was your age when I first went to treatment and I let someone tell me that I was too young to go to AA, I still had partying to do, or "I spilled more than you drank" I used that as an excuse to go back out and do the things that I hadn't done yet in my addiction. Now I'm 23 and I'm getting clean all over again. I wish I would have just stayed clean last time and told those guys in AA to **** off, but I didn't.

You're right, recovery isn't easy. Any one that tells you it is easy is a jackass. On the other hand it is simple, go to meetings, follow suggestions, don't pick up no matter what. Simple, but not easy.

I dropped all my old friends when I got clean too. The cool thing is that from going to meetings early and staying late and becoming a part of the NA fellowship, I have made new friends that like me for being me. My new friends are such better friends than the ones I left behind, they care about how I'm feeling and what is going on in my life, not how much dope I have or want to buy.

You said "I know I cannot live like I used to" That's not entirely true. You can allways live like you used to, but my question would be, would you really want to live like that again? My sponsor asked me the same question when I was bitching one night about how I couldn't go to the club anymore or hang out with my old friends. For me I had to realize that me staying clean was my choice and I didn't have to if I didn't want to. Today, staying clean means more to me than anything else.

Keep on trucking dude,
Blake

MagdaM · 08-05-2005, 11:11 AM

good job kid. and good on ye going to meetings.

keep it up.

"they care about how I'm feeling and what is going on in my life, not how much dope I have or want to buy" wow that hit home hard...wow.

***Time2Surrender*** · 08-05-2005, 11:13 AM

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Originally Posted by betterdayz

Im going to go today dont matter what I tell myself. Im not going to let anyone scare me out of getting my recovery.

Thats good to hear.Let us know how it goes.

hopealwayz · 08-05-2005, 11:38 AM

You're doing the right things. get to as many meetings as you can and do this for you. Hang in there and you will see much better things happen in your life. I enjoy following your progress. Proud of you.

betterdayz · 08-05-2005, 02:17 PM

WOW. That was some meeting. For one thing I almost had a heart attack it was a very small group and I would say most of them were bikers that used to be in gangs and that sort of stuff. Man I thought to myself they are going to ask me what the heck I was doing there but everyone seemed cool. I actually said some stuff this time I was nervous though. One thing that was not cool about half way throught the meeting the lights got really bright and I felt like i was in a big fog. Then at the end I tryed to say bye to someone and my voice was all screwed up. Has anyone experinced anything like this during there first few meetings?

**Alera** · 08-05-2005, 02:25 PM

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Originally Posted by betterdayz

WOW. That was some meeting. For one thing I almost had a heart attack it was a very small group and I would say most of them were bikers that used to be in gangs and that sort of stuff. Man I thought to myself they are going to ask me what the heck I was doing there but everyone seemed cool. I actually said some stuff this time I was nervous though. One thing that was not cool about half way throught the meeting the lights got really bright and I felt like i was in a big fog. Then at the end I tryed to say bye to someone and my voice was all screwed up. Has anyone experinced anything like this during there first few meetings?

My two favorite meetings are one full of business men and a gay/lesbian group. I am neither, I'm a straight, female returning college student LOL. Whatever works, thats my motto.

I have had my voice do that, for me it was part anxiety at being in a group of people, and part anxiety at the fact of what NA meant--that I really did have a problem. Talk about anxiety inducing.

The fog thing, yeah I still get that sometimes. Again, for me its anxiety and I hear something too close to home, my mind zones out.

Keep going, keep working. One second/minute/hour/day at a time.

Andygirl · 08-05-2005, 03:26 PM

I go to an NA meeting that is full of Deadheads. And I hate the Grateful Dead! But, the people are really nice and a meeting is a meeting. As long as they don't make me listen to their music I'll be alright.

betterdayz · 08-05-2005, 09:56 PM

Is it allright to take a couple days break from meetings. It does not mean I will not still be comming here and reading about my addiction. I just want to wait till go to the one on monday. I know your supposed to make 90 in 90 but I wont give up I know I wont.

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betterdayz Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: lakeme Posts: 27	Day 5!! It day 5 clean from drugs!! I finally been able to eat something. My stomach is happy it is no longer roaring at me! I talked to my counseler about why I was so sick and could not sleep from just one pill and he said it could be possible a pyscological withdraw. What ever it was, it was hell and I do not ever want to feel that way again! Now that I am feeling better I am probally going to go to a AA instead of NA tommorow because that what they have. I know my mind is going to try to talk me out of it though. I guess I got to do whatever even though I do not feel like doing nothing. Well anyways thank you everyone for being so kind. bye.

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08-04-2005, 07:04 PM	#3 (permalink)
betterdayz Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: lakeme Posts: 27	I wish I could get this social anxiety under control though..i feel all shaky when i go to meeting. I guess i gotta think this too shall pass. I keep thinking that I am going to say something that dont sound right or people will not like me. Have a hard time opening up I guess.

08-04-2005, 07:34 PM	#4 (permalink)
help123 Guest Posts: n/a	dont worry about anything else except urself...I know it is hard...I still have problems with that love

08-04-2005, 07:52 PM	#6 (permalink)
betterdayz Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: lakeme Posts: 27	Man sometimes I do not think I can do it..or im too young I dont need to be going to AA. Life is going to be hard trying to start over. To bad I can not live life over if so my mind would of been good. Im at my grandmas house now away from old friends..I should be happy im with clean folks but im not really. God this recovery stuff is a hard bullet to swallow. I know I can not live like i used too..the only thing left was to go back to jail or die.

08-04-2005, 08:29 PM	#7 (permalink)
betterdayz Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: lakeme Posts: 27	Do you think its possible for me to stay clean and only go to one NA meeting a week? There is this place i go to that has meeting all week but only na meeting once a week. The NA meeting I went too was allrite I did not like the rest.

08-05-2005, 08:03 AM	#9 (permalink)
betterdayz Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: lakeme Posts: 27	Im going to go today dont matter what I tell myself. Im not going to let anyone scare me out of getting my recovery.

08-05-2005, 11:11 AM	#11 (permalink)
MagdaM Doube-Edged Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Albuquerque, NM Posts: 162	good job kid. and good on ye going to meetings. keep it up. "they care about how I'm feeling and what is going on in my life, not how much dope I have or want to buy" wow that hit home hard...wow.

08-05-2005, 11:38 AM	#13 (permalink)
hopealwayz Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: somewhere Posts: 3,514	You're doing the right things. get to as many meetings as you can and do this for you. Hang in there and you will see much better things happen in your life. I enjoy following your progress. Proud of you.

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betterdayz Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: lakeme Posts: 27	WOW. That was some meeting. For one thing I almost had a heart attack it was a very small group and I would say most of them were bikers that used to be in gangs and that sort of stuff. Man I thought to myself they are going to ask me what the heck I was doing there but everyone seemed cool. I actually said some stuff this time I was nervous though. One thing that was not cool about half way throught the meeting the lights got really bright and I felt like i was in a big fog. Then at the end I tryed to say bye to someone and my voice was all screwed up. Has anyone experinced anything like this during there first few meetings?

08-05-2005, 03:26 PM	#16 (permalink)
Andygirl Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: Indianapolis, IN Posts: 104	I go to an NA meeting that is full of Deadheads. And I hate the Grateful Dead! But, the people are really nice and a meeting is a meeting. As long as they don't make me listen to their music I'll be alright.

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