Just one of those dayz......

hello everybody,
today has been a horrible day. My 6yr old is about ready to get kicked out of daycare cuz he is hurting kids, my kids dad says I keep the boyz away from him, my bf claims that I am trying to change him (he's trying to change me and my kids, controling...) and doesn't want to see me anymore. Which is fine but in 2 days, he'll claim it was my fault and we didnt break up. I have to have the power to not go back to him but I am carring his child, he also says he hates my kids. oh well, life goes on....I was on my way to my new meeting, na. My kids babysitter didn't come so I asked my neighbor so I was out the door, late but going and my car wouldn't start...some things are not meant to be, hopefully I'll go next week. One good thing is another day of being clean. tomorrow will always be better. I just wish I could find a drug free guy who will love my 3 boys and take care of us. Now I wonder, who will want somebody with 3 kids and is a drug addict. I know that I shouldn't care about anybody else but myself right now. My family wont come to see my baby in the hospital when hes born cuz of who his father is. They say he brought me down and now they want nothing to do with me. I wish I could move to a different town far away but I own a house, beatiful one, through habitat so that never will happen...It feels good to get everything out, though. Sorry to bore u guys, atleast I have my boys and SR.
love lots,
alycia

[51anna]

Hi Alycia,

I'm sorry that your family has turned against you because they don't like the father of your baby. It sounds like you want to break up with him and I'm sure you could use some family support right now. I hope your family will reconsider and come around when your baby is born. And, yeah, taking care of yourself is the most important thing.

Wow, you have a Habitat for Humanity house - that's fantastic!

Love, Anna