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07-05-2005, 06:40 PM
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| Doube-Edged  Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Albuquerque, NM
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| "did it" :)
Hello people. I just wanted to say thanks--for the inspiration. I'm having a go at it. I went to my friends house over the weekend (she actually helped me which I wasn't expecting), and I detoxed and everything. I just got up this evening, and I still feel kind of like death, but I feel sort of proud too--and I wanted to thank you guys, and say to someone that I really am going to keep trying. Hell, I don't know if I could do this again if I wanted to. Peace. --magda |
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07-05-2005, 08:34 PM
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I'm so happy that you are doing this! You are gonna feel so much better-- just hang in there through the rough parts and keep believing that things will be better. Keep the faith and keep doing what you're doing. I know you can do it! |
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07-05-2005, 09:48 PM
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| Member  Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: western canada
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Magda.... I just read your past posts... The one about you wondering if you would be able to do life after giving up using... Made me cry.. I remember wondering that so many times.. I just want to tell you that my life today is not the one I imagined when I thought about what it would be like to be ... "normal.." It's better. I am worried though that you are going to try to do this alone... Unsteady willpower is not a good support system... ;o) Have you given any thought to finding any meetings... or maybe coming here daily for a while... ? I'm praying for you... That God lift your cravings... and calm your spirit... that you may allow your mind to clear... and your body to heal... |
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07-06-2005, 07:21 AM
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Great job, Magda! Now comes the hard part. Be sure and surround yourself with as muhc support as possible. Keep checking here, I'd love to hear more about your recovery journey. Much Love: SS
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07-06-2005, 07:31 AM
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i'm happy for you. congratulations on a new start. it's hard but we all started the same way. good luck!
__________________ "If life is a bowl of cherries; what am I always doing in the pits" - Erma Bombeck   |
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07-06-2005, 07:35 AM
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| Member  Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: The Mohave Desert
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Magda Welcome I know you are probably going to get sick of hearing this...but It does get better. I found it was too hard to take on alone... I needed the support of other extreme drunks who had experiences similiar to mine. Best part... hopefully you will never have to feel like this again. it is a choice we get to make everyday. |
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07-06-2005, 11:11 AM
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| Doube-Edged Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Albuquerque, NM
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|  thanks again guys. to bikewench--i am def planning on meetings--as soon as i can sit/stand for a reliable period. god i feel so sick. i haven't been able to eat/drink anything except some gatorade and chicken broth which was still an effort. i want water so bad but it makes me sick--this normal? i've done this before and i don't remember having such a strong water aversion after so many days. i can't really sleep or get up. cant write anymore sorry more later.
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07-06-2005, 11:43 AM
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| In Memory Of  Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Connecticut.
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| ((( Magda )))
I have been where you are today, many times. The worst was over for me in about 7 days if I remember correctly. No way you can get to a Doctor? I got some non-narcotic drugs that helped me with sleep and anxiety. There where also times I did it with nothing. I feel for you. This too shall pass. I havent picked up again and I havent had to do it for awhile. I am pulling for you! Can you get some Pepto or Immodium? Those help too. Bless, Trish
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07-07-2005, 01:30 PM
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mmm the silence in my mind is deafening. everythign hurts. i feel like i've been lifting eight times my body weight for a week. i'm so tired it hurts to move. the cable is out--i think i'm going to loose my mind. i think maybe its already gone. i can't stop crying like a little girl and my throat is so swollen it hurts. assholes keep calling me asking me if i have anything and i'm going to scream--i put a message on my cell sayinbg im dead and to go away--but my friend took it the wrong way and got worried so i changed it. i keep trying to distract myself but i really just want to go to sleep. if i could just go to sleep everything will be okay. i don't want all this to be for nothing but i swear to god the next person who walks up my stairs with ANYHTING that will make this stop is getting the fity dollar prize. dont listen to me im crazy. type and read and read and type and no thinking. i just wanbt to lie on my couch and die!!!!
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07-07-2005, 02:46 PM
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((((Magda)))), Is there someone YOU could call and talk to? Maybe your local NA helpline or something. Otherwise, don't answer the phone! Or the door. You are going to be OK. It will pass! Just don't use and you never have to go through this again. And get to a meeting as soon as you are well enough. You're in my thoughts! Love and hugs, Eddie  |
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07-07-2005, 02:59 PM
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Hey gurl... Nothin wrong with stickin your face in a pillow and giving a good scream of rage and frustration.. ;o) Yes.. your body is detoxing... and your mind is stuck in user warp... But.. every minute that nothing bad goes in the bod... it is recouping and renewing. And.. it loves you for it I'm sure.. ;o) Praying for you sweety.. for strength.. for lessening of your pain.. and for determination... to walk the hard road for a bit till you get to the paved part.. |
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07-07-2005, 06:47 PM
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Hnag in there, it will pass. Show that destructive disease that you are not letting it control your life any longer. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Mendingheart
__________________ PEACE. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in you heart. TODAY IS A GIFT....  |
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07-07-2005, 07:30 PM
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| Doube-Edged Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Albuquerque, NM
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| just talked to jlost who is sooo cool and awesome. made me feel pretty good. it's good to see you guys who have actually done this and apprently are okay. i feel like i'm waiting for the sky to fall down or the world to explode--but it doesn't i suppose. i made it through the day...except i just took all kinds of cold medicine--i need to sleep so bad its not funny. if i stay awake for another night i'm going to die. oh well. mayebe it will all be better tomorrow. i really am going to do this. i'm not just going to say that and always go back for the rest of my life. so many people in my family and my friends have died of this THING and i hate it. i'm not going to be one of them.
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