vicodaniel

I used to be a regular poster , when I had my first run on opiates that ended in 2008 . Had 41/2 years clean and started taking Oxys for bone on bone hip. Had a hip replacement stayed on Oxys and started snorting Heroin as well . I was doing amounts of both that were off the charts . Finally got myself off to a Detox in California , they tapered me for a week Gave me some comfort meds . It sucked of course , but I did it I will be 60 in Feb. it's been about 30 days I just don't feel I'm bouncing back , I even did IVs of NAD ( touted as miracle addiction cure ) for 5 days out there . Mentally I feel pretty sharp physically it's like 60 is the new 80 . Thankful I have zero cravings seeing a therapist that specializes in addiction . I have osteoarthritis. So pretty stiff and sore . But just so blah and empty ! Before I smoked a little weed and drank socially after I had kicked the opiates for a while . This time I'm all in Can pee clean for first time since like age 15. Just tired of feeling like crap . I'm a person who is used to getting things done . I changed a light bulb put some clothes away and had to lay back down . WTF !

sugarangel

Welcome back. Glad you are here!!

Dee74

Glad you're back vicodaniel. All in is the only way it works for me too

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finaltime

vicodaniel how are you doing?

sugarangel

Yes, how are you?? I hope you are feeling better.
We are here for you.

teatreeoil007

Hi Vico-I don't remember you, but am pleased to make your aquaintance if you are still around. I hope all is well with you and you have a good Christmas. Take care...

vicodaniel

after almost 9 months opiate free I 've had a couple days where I took a couple vicodin. Obviously helped immensely with my pain . Got stuff done , had no problem stopping the next day , but seemed even more blah , than I had been recently . Too bad some of us cant use them normally for pain . Dont feel like Im going to get addicted , but reminded me how goodI felt at first . I guess you just learn that you just cant mess with them ! Does anybody have a similar experience of using a little and going backwards in how well they feel. I still dont think Im 100% after 9 months ?

Dee74

Not to be that guy but I've seen you post that before Dan.
I reckon I said it myself a few times too with my drugs of choice.

I think long term use of drugs can change the way our brain is wired.

It makes sense to me that even a little bit of our drug of choice can make us unsteady on our feet again.

I reckon you'll feel better the more time you put between yourself and that little relapse.

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Wantingit

Any chance you can have someone hold them for you and give when needed? Just a though...I know you don't want to fall back in that black hole