Clean Days off Pain Meds
RIP Maria
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Day 205!!!
Still Here! Still Opiate Free!
While sleeping today? I had a dream! Figured this was the place to share it!
I walked into my bedroom and saw this pill laying on the corner of the bed. Right beside the headboard. It was where a guy friend had been sitting talking with me and my mom in the room earlier! I picked it up, not thinking anything about it, just figured it was my friends tylenol. Yeah well it was a pain pill. OMG!
My hand started shaking and my mind started racing! I then saw there were more pills shoved into the corner of the headboard. WTF? I snatched them all up and shoved them into my pocket! I pulled one of the pills out and halved it. I was thinking of taking just a half. That's all it would take to make me feel good for awhile.
But then I got to thinking about this Thread! How was I going to come here and say I had another clean day if I took that pill? I couldn't! And I wasn't going to lie about it either. OH decision, decisions! Well needless to say! I handed all the pills over to my guy friend and told him to get them out of my house!
I also wanted ppl struggling with their daily DOC to know it's okay to "SAY NO TODAY!"
205 Days off the opiates and I still have the thoughts about using! Don't beat yourself up if the thoughts come to you in a dream or in person! It happens!
TOD
Still Here! Still Opiate Free!
While sleeping today? I had a dream! Figured this was the place to share it!
I walked into my bedroom and saw this pill laying on the corner of the bed. Right beside the headboard. It was where a guy friend had been sitting talking with me and my mom in the room earlier! I picked it up, not thinking anything about it, just figured it was my friends tylenol. Yeah well it was a pain pill. OMG!
My hand started shaking and my mind started racing! I then saw there were more pills shoved into the corner of the headboard. WTF? I snatched them all up and shoved them into my pocket! I pulled one of the pills out and halved it. I was thinking of taking just a half. That's all it would take to make me feel good for awhile.
But then I got to thinking about this Thread! How was I going to come here and say I had another clean day if I took that pill? I couldn't! And I wasn't going to lie about it either. OH decision, decisions! Well needless to say! I handed all the pills over to my guy friend and told him to get them out of my house!
I also wanted ppl struggling with their daily DOC to know it's okay to "SAY NO TODAY!"
205 Days off the opiates and I still have the thoughts about using! Don't beat yourself up if the thoughts come to you in a dream or in person! It happens!
TOD
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Originally Posted by AliceInTheRain 
Hey TOD, you are great and so are these threads - make me smile every time I check in 
We can all stand strong together!
TOD
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Originally Posted by jmag
Congrats TOD. At 33 myself and was quite happy with 30 - I can't wait to be happy at 200
I was panting, dragging, pushing and pulling myself to my 30 day mark. In my mind I just had to get to that 30 days. Then after I got there? I was like - Okay? Now TOD just count the days as they happen. And here I am! 200+ days later.
You'll get there jmag! You will have thoughts along the way of wanting to use. Let them slide thru your brain like water flows thru your fingers. We can't stop our thoughts from happening. We can stop ourselves from using because of those thoughts!
TOD
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With a heavy heart from losing one of my pet chickens, Martha Mae, earlier this morning! I'm here to add another day to my clean time. Grief sure is different when I'm clean. It's damn hard, but it's part of life I have to deal with! CLEAN!
Day 208!!
Still Here! Still Opiate Free!
May we all continue Freedom from our DOC!
TOD
Day 208!!
Still Here! Still Opiate Free!
May we all continue Freedom from our DOC!
TOD
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