I need guidance
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I need guidance
Hello everyone!
I have suffered with Fibromyalgia since I was 14. I am 18 years old now. I've been prescribed Hydrocodones, Tramadol, and have tried Kratom. I need guidance because I think I am lost.
I became addicted to hydrocodones and when I felt like I needed to get away from the drug I asked my doctor to switch me to Tramadol because I did not want to be an addict...
that did not help.. Tramadol became a habit and I developed an unaware addiction.. I did not receive a high from the drug, I just was pain free and did not feel any withdrawals while on it... but once I started taking it more and more (as prescribed, I never took my medication over the limit of prescription) I began to notice I felt disgustingly sick if I didn't take the pills every 6 hours.. I became a slave to a prescription.
Once, I decided enough is enough I went onto Kratom and decided to slowly get off of the medication and all herbs... it hasn't worked out and I'm still using Kratom as a natural herb to help me cope.. if i don't take the kratom i feel really sick like a heavy flu feeling and get this pain of like anxiety and sadness in my mind..
I do not know what to do.. I think, my body is dependent on opiates. I am not sure what to do.. do i stop cold turkey?? I feel like I would be in aganizing pain for a week..
I just need guidance.. I'M TOO YOUNG. I do not want these medications anymore I want to be off of everything.. I don't even think my fibro would be bad if I stopped my meds all together..
I'm just scared
I have suffered with Fibromyalgia since I was 14. I am 18 years old now. I've been prescribed Hydrocodones, Tramadol, and have tried Kratom. I need guidance because I think I am lost.
I became addicted to hydrocodones and when I felt like I needed to get away from the drug I asked my doctor to switch me to Tramadol because I did not want to be an addict...
that did not help.. Tramadol became a habit and I developed an unaware addiction.. I did not receive a high from the drug, I just was pain free and did not feel any withdrawals while on it... but once I started taking it more and more (as prescribed, I never took my medication over the limit of prescription) I began to notice I felt disgustingly sick if I didn't take the pills every 6 hours.. I became a slave to a prescription.
Once, I decided enough is enough I went onto Kratom and decided to slowly get off of the medication and all herbs... it hasn't worked out and I'm still using Kratom as a natural herb to help me cope.. if i don't take the kratom i feel really sick like a heavy flu feeling and get this pain of like anxiety and sadness in my mind..
I do not know what to do.. I think, my body is dependent on opiates. I am not sure what to do.. do i stop cold turkey?? I feel like I would be in aganizing pain for a week..
I just need guidance.. I'M TOO YOUNG. I do not want these medications anymore I want to be off of everything.. I don't even think my fibro would be bad if I stopped my meds all together..
I'm just scared
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Hi NV, Thanks for posting. I don't have much knowledge of your condition or the drugs you mention myself, but just wanted to welcome you. If you have been reading you will know that you will get lots of support and good advice here. Can you see another Dr, maybe a specialist? I don't know much about your situation, but I would definitely recommend you get a Doctors opinion before attempting cold turkey, if that's what you're thinking of doing.
I'm so glad that you are here at 18 and working towards making a better life for yourself. You demonstrate great self awareness which will be a boon to you in coming times. All the best to you!
I'm so glad that you are here at 18 and working towards making a better life for yourself. You demonstrate great self awareness which will be a boon to you in coming times. All the best to you!
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NV, why not see a Dr (make it a different doctor perhaps) and get some professional guidance.
Opiates are not like alcohol in that withdrawal is not life threatening - people usually report something like a heavy flu - but only a Dr could look at your entire clinical history and give you a treatment plan, not only for withdrawal but perhaps your pain as well?
I have no personal experience but others will be along.
The good thing is you're young -there no reason why you can't put this behind you, find an effective non addictive treatment for your pain and leave all this behind you
D
Opiates are not like alcohol in that withdrawal is not life threatening - people usually report something like a heavy flu - but only a Dr could look at your entire clinical history and give you a treatment plan, not only for withdrawal but perhaps your pain as well?
I have no personal experience but others will be along.
The good thing is you're young -there no reason why you can't put this behind you, find an effective non addictive treatment for your pain and leave all this behind you
D
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Dont be scared. There are way worse things than wds. We have all done it and lived.
Your strength is your youth. You can get out of this now and be finished with it while you are STILL young. Right now is the easiest time you will ever have with this so do it NOW.
Your strength is your youth. You can get out of this now and be finished with it while you are STILL young. Right now is the easiest time you will ever have with this so do it NOW.
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I have known many who have had their pain become the source of the addiction and as you suggested the pain was significantly less when the reason to have it be bad was gone.
Pain becomes its own problem as the driving force to get pills. If it goes away then the only legitimate reason you have to take pills goes away and you have to face the possibility that you are taking the pills for a different reason - like to get high.
I also took Tramadol and anything else that would get me where I wanted to go. I never got high from it but felt a little swagger and found that if I took it before I had to give as talk I could talk all day and never feel any anxiety about it. I guess it loosened my tongue.
I never thought it would be difficult to get away from but it had withdrawals similar to everything else. I found, like everything else, that it helped me sleep and without it I didn't sleep.
Cold turkey withdrawal is nothing to be afraid of. It is a couple days or so of not feeling the best but as suggested by TiredEnough you will live. You obviously see that you can easily become addicted so the dilemma we all face is what about the rest of your life.
You can face pain without serious or really any meds. I personally have been known to do anything to get a prescription and had terrible unrelenting pain while in seeking mode. Once I cleaned up my act I found that pain was quite tolerable and lessened significantly when I stopped obsessing about it.
I am not bragging and only stating that I have survived shingles and a moderate surgery as well as dealing with diabetic neuropathy on a daily basis with no need or desire for pain meds.
Pain becomes its own problem as the driving force to get pills. If it goes away then the only legitimate reason you have to take pills goes away and you have to face the possibility that you are taking the pills for a different reason - like to get high.
I also took Tramadol and anything else that would get me where I wanted to go. I never got high from it but felt a little swagger and found that if I took it before I had to give as talk I could talk all day and never feel any anxiety about it. I guess it loosened my tongue.
I never thought it would be difficult to get away from but it had withdrawals similar to everything else. I found, like everything else, that it helped me sleep and without it I didn't sleep.
Cold turkey withdrawal is nothing to be afraid of. It is a couple days or so of not feeling the best but as suggested by TiredEnough you will live. You obviously see that you can easily become addicted so the dilemma we all face is what about the rest of your life.
You can face pain without serious or really any meds. I personally have been known to do anything to get a prescription and had terrible unrelenting pain while in seeking mode. Once I cleaned up my act I found that pain was quite tolerable and lessened significantly when I stopped obsessing about it.
I am not bragging and only stating that I have survived shingles and a moderate surgery as well as dealing with diabetic neuropathy on a daily basis with no need or desire for pain meds.
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Hey NV
I can't say anything better than liv1ce said above. Really read his words, they are gold. Especially this:
Just wanted to pop in to show some support. I know it's scary, but you can do this, you really can 
I can't say anything better than liv1ce said above. Really read his words, they are gold. Especially this:
Originally Posted by liv1ce 
Pain becomes its own problem as the driving force to get pills. If it goes away then the only legitimate reason you have to take pills goes away and you have to face the possibility that you are taking the pills for a different reason - like to get high.
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Hello! I have decided to stop all medications today.. I have not medicated in over 10 hours. I am about to sleep thanks to melatonin. I will update this forum daily or every couple hours...
I want to thank everyone for their advice! I am going to take back my life and I am done with pills. I want my life back.. I'm too young for this.
I am doing this privately with no family or friends knowing. I do not know if that's smart, but I don't think I can tell anyone about what I'm going through except you guys. I am house sitting my family member's house for the next 4 days and I hope that's enough time to get over the rough period... Is that enough time?
my usage is mild... the most tramadol i was taking was 100mg a day... and the hydrocodones was only 2 10mg a day.... I just hope this isnt bad!!!!
Thank you everyone!! please give me advice and positive vibes <3
I want to thank everyone for their advice! I am going to take back my life and I am done with pills. I want my life back.. I'm too young for this.
I am doing this privately with no family or friends knowing. I do not know if that's smart, but I don't think I can tell anyone about what I'm going through except you guys. I am house sitting my family member's house for the next 4 days and I hope that's enough time to get over the rough period... Is that enough time?
my usage is mild... the most tramadol i was taking was 100mg a day... and the hydrocodones was only 2 10mg a day.... I just hope this isnt bad!!!!
Thank you everyone!! please give me advice and positive vibes <3
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Its been 40 minutes since my last post... And I am already feel depressed and I'm about to tell my aunt my issue... I don't know what to do.. The pain is way too much to bare. WHAT DO I DO ANYMORE
I AM SAD. I NEED SUPPORT. I don't know what to do...should I seek recovery center?
I DONT KBIW WHAT TO DO
I AM SAD. I NEED SUPPORT. I don't know what to do...should I seek recovery center?
I DONT KBIW WHAT TO DO
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Update: I am having a mental breakdown and constantly crying because of how ashamed I am. I am so lost.
I have informed my aunt and a close friend that I need help.... I need help... I need help.
I am just crying and crying.
I have informed my aunt and a close friend that I need help.... I need help... I need help.
I am just crying and crying.
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There is nothing to be ashamed about by asking for help. It takes a strong person to ask for help. You will be giving yourself the biggest gift of all. Keep researching this site. There is a wealth of information and wisdom on here. Keep remembering to get help is nothing to be ashamed of you will be glad you did it
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Hey bud, I'm right with you man. The pain of withdrawal is not easy, I don't know what other pain you are experiencing, but I am so familiar with these withdrawals from opiates I could tell you what's next for me almost hourly. Everyone Is different though. I am making an attempt to get off again right now, its been 20 hours since I last used oxycodone. Its gonna be uncomfortable for a couple days and the anxiety is part of it. Your legs may feel real restless and your mood is probably pretty bad. Take advantage of having a few days to work through this. You said 4 days I believe that should get you through the worst of your withdrawals, for your dosage I'd expect the worst to be over by the end of the third day, each day getting a bit easier from there. Its the mental battle after the physical withdrawals but you seem mentally prepared for that battle. Just know you aren't alone I'm 21 and struggling through the sane horrid experience of getting off the pills.
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Thank you for the support, I sure hope it's ove by Monday. Im done with day 1 and that was rough. I woke up today feeling very very anxiety ridden and exhausted... But I'm experiencing no pain...... Weird
Also, I know you can do it. You seem determined as well. I just can't wait to feel emotion... And feeling excitement and just have normal human experiences... Rather than be medication and something that should be exciting seems "bleh"
We will both get through this.
Also, I know you can do it. You seem determined as well. I just can't wait to feel emotion... And feeling excitement and just have normal human experiences... Rather than be medication and something that should be exciting seems "bleh"
We will both get through this.
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