purechaos

You are allowed to be weak. .. you are a human being. You have accomplished great things and you will continue to do so. .. but in the end you are not wonder woman. I know as a female and as a mom its hard to allow and accept for things to be out of our hands but that's life. Try to look it this all like a challenge. . The demon wants to test you... show it who is boss.

aasharon90

I had hip replacement about 4 yrs ago
and definitely know pain. Even with good
grounded sobriety, I did alert ALL my
physicians about my recovery, my alcohol
addiction and didn't want anything to
interfere with my sobriety.

Of course after the operation when they
have you hooked up to the pain drip next
to ur bed and a button to push for ourselves,
I did keep in mind that after any major surgery
they have to hook us up to something strong
to help alieviate the major pain.

Drs. and physicians are there for our use
to help us heal quickly from surgeries. I
did use the drip at my own disgression
and got off of it as quickly as I could.

Then other non narcostic pain meds were
prescribed to use at home. I again quickly
used them for the pain and got rid of them.

This did not interfere with my own recovery
as long as I kept practicing the steps and
principles of an affective recovery program
in all my affairs.

In recovery, we are not meant to suffer.
We use proper help where needed being
honest in all we do and think.

Doctors are there to help us and a recovery
program to keep us sober or clean. Use the
tools of recovery offered to us to stay on track
and live a healthy, happy, honest life each day.

A speedy recovery is my wish for you.

Mamahawk

Thank you Pure and Sharon. I'm really hard on myself when I feel weak. I guess that's the nature of the beast. It attacks when you are down. I know I can do this. I'm just scared.

purechaos

Mama have you heard the song try by colbie caillet? If not you should YouTube it and listen to the lyrics. You remind me so much of me in terms of the inner struggle with being the "strong" one.

Mamahawk

I haven't heard it yet but I will listen to it. I guess I was weak for so ling I have a desire to be strong. With all life is throwing at me right now I feel like I have to be strong or I will die. How are you Pure?

Over are you out there? How are you?

purechaos

Not as good as I would hope to be... but it is what it is. Thanks for asking.

Mamahawk

What's going on? Want to talk?

LadySylvanas

It's gonna be alright Mama. Not only are you going to get through it with flying colors but you'll come at the end STRONGER. And we are all very proud of you.

overthis50

I'm here mama sorry for not responding back. Tomorrow is the day for me again. I called my dr and he had me come in. I told him everything about my addition problems and he wrote me a 2 day supply of clonazepam. He said that clonazepam is also known to be addicting so only take it at nighttime for sleep or if I feel real anxious. I probably won't even take it because I will be to scared I will end up trading one addition for another and I expressed my concerns with him about it and he said that I would be okay to take it for the couple of days to help threw the withdrawls. He said my leg would still hurt so I'm a little worried about that but I need to do this. It's not an option. Any way enough about me, how are you doing mama? I hope everything is going good for you? I will be coming here for support again and this time I won't leave SR! It has been kinda like a life line for me. I appreciate everyone who helped me through last time. I'm just so embarrassed to be battling this again. Mama, I hope and pray everything is going good for you. If y'all pray please pray for me. I'll talk to you real soon.

overthis50

Mama, everything will work out for you. We are all here for you. You're so strong and a awesome SR friend. You have been here for all of us and we will be here for you in return. Your surgery will go great. I truly believe that. You're so strong. Like pure said, it will only make you stronger. You got this girl. :-)

Mamahawk

Hi Over. Don't be embarrassed! I went through it over and over and over for twenty years! There is no shame! You have a disease! I'm glad you talked to your doctor. I don't think a two day supply will hurt. It sounds like you are determined. I know you will find lots of support here. I will be there for you for sure! I'm really proud of you. Yiu are going to do this!! I will pray for you over. Please come back and get support!

Mamahawk

I am fine over, we need to focus on you my friend!

Mamahawk

I see the surgeon next week. Thanks to the support I've gotten here I feel much stronger about it! I love being here for others. Spreading love and compassion helps me gets through.

Mamahawk

Purechoas we haven't heard from you. Can you check in?

overthis50

I'm now 18 hours and 9 minutes in! Feeling really sluggish.

Mamahawk

Oh my gosh over! That is so awesome! I'm so proud of you. you have to remember that once you get through this you never to have to go through it again. You can do this. SR will be here for you! When I was first quit It was so hard but I told myself anybody can do anything for 15 minutes. So I would just get through that 15 minutes. It may not help you but it did me. Count minutes, hours whatever it takes. But I promise you this, the minutes and hours will add up into days and before you know you will lose count of your clean days. Please keep checking in.

Mamahawk

We need to start you a support thread over!

whalebelow

Just remember

F.E.A.R.

False, Evidence, Appearing, Real

Your disease, addiction has seen an opening and is simply causing high states of anxiety in an "attempt"
To convince you that you are weak.

But you are not weak.

This is one of the times you will have to "fight"... remember we talked about not fighting everyday because you end up exhausted?

Time to put your training into practice now though.

You only have to fight for a relatively short period, like a boxing match doesn't last forever.

Get the best team around you that you can possibly muster up, go in & win it for yourself and for them.

They believe in you more than you probably believe in yourself, they see a strong person, where you and only you, sees someone frightened and scared.

False evidence appearing real.

You can do this and when you come out the other side of it, your going to have grown away from fear.

All the best

overthis50

Yes I do but I don't remember how to start a new thread. Can you explain to me how to do it again please. Thank you so much mama.

Impurrfect

Overthis - just click in a forum and there is a "new thread" button in the top left. You get to title it whatever you want, and just type.

MH - So glad that you are feeling a bit more agreeable to the surgery. You can DO this, I know you have it in you. BTDT, and came out okay, so I know you can do the same.

Hugs and prayers,

Amy