*We* made it Another Day Part 12
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Originally Posted by EyesOfAStranger 
OK, need to hear the story behind all this!
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Aaaw blue... you really made me cry now and i'm speechless, something that happens very rarely! 
Of course! thank you for your kind words and i don't know about which depressing pms you're talking about ;-)
but since i'm already emotional. THANK YOU all but especially to BLUE AND CLEAN for being here for me every step of the way, for letting me rant and saying the same things over and over again,for listening and for all your advice and support here and in pms. It means the world to me and I wouldn't have made it without you!
Of course! thank you for your kind words and i don't know about which depressing pms you're talking about ;-) but since i'm already emotional. THANK YOU all but especially to BLUE AND CLEAN for being here for me every step of the way, for letting me rant and saying the same things over and over again,for listening and for all your advice and support here and in pms. It means the world to me and I wouldn't have made it without you!
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Originally Posted by BlueChair
Float off to our imaginary land where Butter has pretended to be 10 and snuck into the World Cup got a job to escort a soccer player out onto the field. But she kidnaps him and takes him to Switzerland. She held him hostage in the pantry until Clean flew over and brought him back to NYC. She obviously fattened him up. There were rumors he went to Texas to visit Mama but these were never documented. And oh no, he never made it out my way. I was willing to take him but Clean wouldnt let him go !! I see today she is out working on her pool, and maybe her whole plan was to make him into her pool boy.
lol...
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I hope you feel better Butter.
Today im struggling again. Feeling worse than yesterday and the day before that, hell I even just cried in our office bathroom for 10 minutes and I've only been here for 40. I thought my 14th day clean would be a day to celebrate but it doesnt feel like it at all.
Feeling miserable and pathetic
Today im struggling again. Feeling worse than yesterday and the day before that, hell I even just cried in our office bathroom for 10 minutes and I've only been here for 40. I thought my 14th day clean would be a day to celebrate but it doesnt feel like it at all.
Feeling miserable and pathetic
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Butter and Blue,
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you guys more. While I may sound upbeat on here most of the time, the past 67 days have been very difficult. I've had to relearn things much like if I had come out of a coma after 20 years. You would be surprised at the little details like just learning to eat regularly, how to function in general without being doped up. I have tried my best to be there for everyone in the process of getting well.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you guys more. While I may sound upbeat on here most of the time, the past 67 days have been very difficult. I've had to relearn things much like if I had come out of a coma after 20 years. You would be surprised at the little details like just learning to eat regularly, how to function in general without being doped up. I have tried my best to be there for everyone in the process of getting well.
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Hi Mama, we know you are going through your own stuff, please don't be stressed out by other peoples problems. You've no reason to apologise at all, I'm
sure everyone understands. It's just great to see you online.
sure everyone understands. It's just great to see you online.
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I didn't know how I would do it in the first days. If I hadn't been at home with no keys and no money I might not have made it. It's still hard. You just have to choose what you want more. What do you want more? The drugs will lie to you, deceive you, take everything from you. Being sober, while it may be hard, will only help you.
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Mama I think that's the first time I've heard you make one reference to the difficult time I KNOW you have had. I didn't think you wanted to talk about it. But I have known all along your pain has been there. I admire your loving spirit so much. You are a special, special person. And I know you've cried some bitter tears. I just want to know someone out here sees you clearly. God Bless You, honey.
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Lost, just keep going. It's as Mama says: You have to relearn how to live. And you will. Just don't use. 14 days is still very early in detox. Cry if you feel the need. It really helps sometimes. If I were with you I'd sit right beside you and hold your hand. Then we'd laugh and have some ice cream. It will be ok.
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Good morning :-) Are you still here?
Mama oh no don't you worry about that. We all know what you are going through. There is absolutely no need to apologize! ok? i can only second what the others said you are a wonderful person with a heart of gold and i am so proud of you that you made it through these 68 days
Mama oh no don't you worry about that. We all know what you are going through. There is absolutely no need to apologize! ok? i can only second what the others said you are a wonderful person with a heart of gold and i am so proud of you that you made it through these 68 days
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