Hen House Talk- All are Welcome, Part 54
The truth shall set you free
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I would have my knee redone at NY hospital for special surgery, but, my insurance only covers the state of NJ. I search for top rank orthopedics doctors in NJ and I found this https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=...DlIezLICXPz7hA and none are on my insurance coverage.
After the news the other day when I ran to my primary doctor to brake the news to him, not only did I request for a second opinion for my knee, I also requested to see a skin specialist. I want to hear want the skin doctor thinks of the infection I have coming out of my knee. I see the skin doctor this morning.
Still waiting for the liver biopsy results.
Hugs to all
TB
After the news the other day when I ran to my primary doctor to brake the news to him, not only did I request for a second opinion for my knee, I also requested to see a skin specialist. I want to hear want the skin doctor thinks of the infection I have coming out of my knee. I see the skin doctor this morning.
Still waiting for the liver biopsy results.
Hugs to all
TB
The truth shall set you free
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Originally Posted by Tiredofdrugs 
TB: Can you feel the ground shaking under your feet with all the good wishes and prayers surrounding you?
Love and hugs
TB
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Sometimes I sit here and think that my addiction is actually just a symptom to my real problem. Like a mental health problem.
I find my mental health problems are really what is in the forefront of my mind rather than my addiction most of the time. Sometimes, I don't even think I am an addict, just an abuser because I seem to have been able to give it up more easily than most. But maybe it's just a factor of using for less years than most, or maybe it's a factor of my experiences with a drug-ridden household, like I somehow had more motivation and determination than most to get off it. But I know that's a lie...if I really step back and think about it, I'm an addict. I know it. But it's more like my addiction was just a precursor too all this other stuff, an indicator that there is something wrong up there. And while getting clean obviously made things better, nothing is cured (duh). And I am still spiraling into uncharted territory because nobody has figured out what is wrong with me yet...otherwise something would have worked by now, even if just a little bit, but it hasn't. And while my addiction is at bay, other symptoms are getting worse. What was originally thought to be the case is not the case anymore. All these years they have attributed a symptom to a symptom rather than a symptom to a disorder. Well now pdoc and T are rethinking all of this... Why are we just NOW putting this together? It has taken years. I feel like I have been blind for so long. I guess they were too.
I find my mental health problems are really what is in the forefront of my mind rather than my addiction most of the time. Sometimes, I don't even think I am an addict, just an abuser because I seem to have been able to give it up more easily than most. But maybe it's just a factor of using for less years than most, or maybe it's a factor of my experiences with a drug-ridden household, like I somehow had more motivation and determination than most to get off it. But I know that's a lie...if I really step back and think about it, I'm an addict. I know it. But it's more like my addiction was just a precursor too all this other stuff, an indicator that there is something wrong up there. And while getting clean obviously made things better, nothing is cured (duh). And I am still spiraling into uncharted territory because nobody has figured out what is wrong with me yet...otherwise something would have worked by now, even if just a little bit, but it hasn't. And while my addiction is at bay, other symptoms are getting worse. What was originally thought to be the case is not the case anymore. All these years they have attributed a symptom to a symptom rather than a symptom to a disorder. Well now pdoc and T are rethinking all of this... Why are we just NOW putting this together? It has taken years. I feel like I have been blind for so long. I guess they were too.
I sympathize with your frustration. It is aggravating as hell to feel so misunderstood. Member
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Oh Jay. I just want to wrap you up in the biggest hug on the planet.
I want to tell you that this will all be alright ~ that would be naive of me, but I truly hope it is.
You deserve every good thing.
You are a beautiful brave thoughtful compassionate and intelligent young man.
And we love you very much! ♥
V xx
I want to tell you that this will all be alright ~ that would be naive of me, but I truly hope it is.
You deserve every good thing.
You are a beautiful brave thoughtful compassionate and intelligent young man.
And we love you very much! ♥
V xx
The truth shall set you free
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April 25, 2014
Embracing reality
Page 119
Basic Text, p. 101
Just for Today: A gift of my recovery is living and enjoying life as it truly is. Today, I will embrace reality.
The skin doctor (dermatologist) confirms the infection is coming from inside the knee. The next step is to have the fluid drawn out of the knee. The fluid is examined for the presence of bacteria.
Still, waiting on word of the biopsy results.
Hugs to all
TB
Embracing reality
Page 119
Basic Text, p. 101
Just for Today: A gift of my recovery is living and enjoying life as it truly is. Today, I will embrace reality.
The skin doctor (dermatologist) confirms the infection is coming from inside the knee. The next step is to have the fluid drawn out of the knee. The fluid is examined for the presence of bacteria.
Still, waiting on word of the biopsy results.
Hugs to all
TB
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Jay, there are many many people with disorders in this world. treatable disorders. perhaps your use was because of that and your good smart brain helped you to see that it did not help you, and you did not want to be like your parents.
you have much good in your life. dont lose sight of that , no matter what labels someone might assign, you are still you, a smart funny, loving young man, and nothing changes that. you find joy, and good things in this world, along with the bad, like all of us.
I learned in my class that about three out of 10 people are believed to have a mental disorder, and that is a lot, to me, but hey, I am sure I have one. just dont know which.
please, dont let this blow you away. dont lose sight of the good already there in your life. you wont change, except maybe things will get easier with treatment, if they determine that you need something else.
you are loved, adorable, and fun and you have much good in your life. maybe things will get easier, even?
love you,
chic
you have much good in your life. dont lose sight of that , no matter what labels someone might assign, you are still you, a smart funny, loving young man, and nothing changes that. you find joy, and good things in this world, along with the bad, like all of us.
I learned in my class that about three out of 10 people are believed to have a mental disorder, and that is a lot, to me, but hey, I am sure I have one. just dont know which.
please, dont let this blow you away. dont lose sight of the good already there in your life. you wont change, except maybe things will get easier with treatment, if they determine that you need something else.
you are loved, adorable, and fun and you have much good in your life. maybe things will get easier, even?
love you,
chic
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Big dittoes to the last few posts 
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