Definitely at the bottom looking up. - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

dmaymon · 05-31-2004, 07:52 PM

I've decided to include some of my story because I am new to the chat and participated in my first meeting and it was "tremendous" and very positive. I have been doing coke/crack for many years off and on as well as alcohol. Normally the alcohol leads to the other substances and basically bad goes to worse!!! My illness has caused me to lose many material and personal things out of basically being stupid for the most part and not caring about the people that I was hurting the most. Well, reality has set in and now I am looking to rebuild totally due to the losses I have taken within the past 2 months. My biggest concern is being a "great" father to my unborn son who is due by the 1st week of July. Throughout all of my turmoil and bad decisions based on alcohol and drug abuse I have maintained by professional career. I am now trying to put as much emphasis on my personal life as I do with my job. Cocaine/crack is actually something that scares me now because I like many others THOUGHT that I could fight it by my self and now realize that I can't. I want as much help as possible because not controlling this problem will one day become my demise. I respect any and EVERYONE that has and still is dealing with this problem and doing the best that they can to overcome it.

mackat · 05-31-2004, 08:19 PM

heh D
mack here- we met before
people get and stay clean thru a variety of ways- my final DOC was booze, followed by anything else that was available. my first intervention was cause of cocaine.
i tried thru will power to stop but could never stay stopped. I did lose much- wife, son, business, jobs, nearly th house...when i hurt enough i gave AA, then NA a try. was hesitant at 1st...then DUH! -what do I have to lose? dove into the program hard...been clean/sober for 8 yrs.
been given many gifts. have zero regrets about this path.
you are not alone...
mackat

KelKel · 05-31-2004, 09:11 PM

Hi D
We met earlier tonight.
Welcome aboard!...

I am an alkie. I have tried just about everything to stay sober! Right now my doctor, vitamins and minerals, zoloft and AA and SR are what is keeping me sober. I could not do it on my own, I thought soooo many times I could, but I proved myself wrong again and again.

The people here are great and keep on posting!

godsonmyside · 05-31-2004, 09:51 PM

Hey man welcome to SR, Glad you made a meeting and Want to find a new way to live. I started recovery in 87, I was introduced in 85 to NA, I went back time and time again even after sometime in recovery, I held on to reservations and went back to my way. Ralapse is not a requirement but does happen. If you are going to NA or AA, you are a member when you say you are, and the only requirement is the disire to stop using. This program has been written so simply that we can follow it in our daily lives. The 12 step will guide you through your recovery as it has for millions of us. I suggest if you don't have a Basic Text, that you get one. It is like going to war without a weapon if you don't have one. Dude, just for today, you never have to use again, keep posting and let us know how you're doing.

dmaymon · 06-01-2004, 08:55 AM

Good morning Mack,
Thanks for the reply it's very motivational and positive. Yes, I will continue to participate in the meetings as well as take FULL advantage of both AA & NA. Look forward to hearing from you again.

dmaymon · 06-01-2004, 08:57 AM

Good moring Kel,

Thanks for all the motivational and positive follow up. I am definitely going to utilize all available resources in order to overcome this situation. Day by day...

dmaymon · 06-01-2004, 08:58 AM

Thank you.

mackat · 06-01-2004, 04:16 PM

what's dmay doin' today?

namommy · 06-01-2004, 06:26 PM

Hey D,

I'm an addict called Laurie. I couldn't even begin to tell you the miracles that have happened in my life since I chose to get clean. It requires some work, no one said it would be easy, but it is more than worth it. Keep posting, and doing what you need to do. SR is a great place.

Love ya

Laurie D

KelKel · 06-01-2004, 06:58 PM

Hey Dmay... you out there...

jenniferaz1980 · 06-01-2004, 06:59 PM

Hey Day wlecome!

I have so been right were you are! It gets better. One day at a time is the way to go!

05-31-2004, 07:52 PM	#1 (permalink)
dmaymon Paused Join Date: May 2004 Location: Bloomington, MN Posts: 4	Definitely at the bottom looking up. I've decided to include some of my story because I am new to the chat and participated in my first meeting and it was "tremendous" and very positive. I have been doing coke/crack for many years off and on as well as alcohol. Normally the alcohol leads to the other substances and basically bad goes to worse!!! My illness has caused me to lose many material and personal things out of basically being stupid for the most part and not caring about the people that I was hurting the most. Well, reality has set in and now I am looking to rebuild totally due to the losses I have taken within the past 2 months. My biggest concern is being a "great" father to my unborn son who is due by the 1st week of July. Throughout all of my turmoil and bad decisions based on alcohol and drug abuse I have maintained by professional career. I am now trying to put as much emphasis on my personal life as I do with my job. Cocaine/crack is actually something that scares me now because I like many others THOUGHT that I could fight it by my self and now realize that I can't. I want as much help as possible because not controlling this problem will one day become my demise. I respect any and EVERYONE that has and still is dealing with this problem and doing the best that they can to overcome it.

05-31-2004, 09:51 PM	#4 (permalink)
godsonmyside Vision of Hope Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Living on This side of the green!! Posts: 1,062	Hey man welcome to SR, Glad you made a meeting and Want to find a new way to live. I started recovery in 87, I was introduced in 85 to NA, I went back time and time again even after sometime in recovery, I held on to reservations and went back to my way. Ralapse is not a requirement but does happen. If you are going to NA or AA, you are a member when you say you are, and the only requirement is the disire to stop using. This program has been written so simply that we can follow it in our daily lives. The 12 step will guide you through your recovery as it has for millions of us. I suggest if you don't have a Basic Text, that you get one. It is like going to war without a weapon if you don't have one. Dude, just for today, you never have to use again, keep posting and let us know how you're doing. __________________ We get relief through the Twelve Steps which are essential to the recovery process, because they are a new, spiritual way of life that allows us to participate in our own recovery. We Do Recover Todd J.

06-01-2004, 06:26 PM	#9 (permalink)
namommy Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: Never, Never land Posts: 2,711	Hey D, I'm an addict called Laurie. I couldn't even begin to tell you the miracles that have happened in my life since I chose to get clean. It requires some work, no one said it would be easy, but it is more than worth it. Keep posting, and doing what you need to do. SR is a great place. Love ya Laurie D __________________ I came into this program to save my a** and found out it was attached to my soul. --Anonymous

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05-31-2004, 08:19 PM	#2 (permalink)
mackat Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: a spiritual vortex, Colorado Posts: 846	heh D mack here- we met before people get and stay clean thru a variety of ways- my final DOC was booze, followed by anything else that was available. my first intervention was cause of cocaine. i tried thru will power to stop but could never stay stopped. I did lose much- wife, son, business, jobs, nearly th house...when i hurt enough i gave AA, then NA a try. was hesitant at 1st...then DUH! -what do I have to lose? dove into the program hard...been clean/sober for 8 yrs. been given many gifts. have zero regrets about this path. you are not alone... mackat

05-31-2004, 09:11 PM	#3 (permalink)
KelKel Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: The Mohave Desert Posts: 2,313	Hi D We met earlier tonight. Welcome aboard!... I am an alkie. I have tried just about everything to stay sober! Right now my doctor, vitamins and minerals, zoloft and AA and SR are what is keeping me sober. I could not do it on my own, I thought soooo many times I could, but I proved myself wrong again and again. The people here are great and keep on posting!

06-01-2004, 08:55 AM	#5 (permalink)
dmaymon Paused Join Date: May 2004 Location: Bloomington, MN Posts: 4	Good morning Mack, Thanks for the reply it's very motivational and positive. Yes, I will continue to participate in the meetings as well as take FULL advantage of both AA & NA. Look forward to hearing from you again.

06-01-2004, 08:57 AM	#6 (permalink)
dmaymon Paused Join Date: May 2004 Location: Bloomington, MN Posts: 4	Good moring Kel, Thanks for all the motivational and positive follow up. I am definitely going to utilize all available resources in order to overcome this situation. Day by day...

06-01-2004, 08:58 AM	#7 (permalink)
dmaymon Paused Join Date: May 2004 Location: Bloomington, MN Posts: 4	Thank you.

06-01-2004, 04:16 PM	#8 (permalink)
mackat Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: a spiritual vortex, Colorado Posts: 846	what's dmay doin' today?

06-01-2004, 06:58 PM	#10 (permalink)
KelKel Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: The Mohave Desert Posts: 2,313	Hey Dmay... you out there...

06-01-2004, 06:59 PM	#11 (permalink)
jenniferaz1980 New and Unsure Join Date: May 2004 Location: phoenix az Posts: 191	Hey Day wlecome! I have so been right were you are! It gets better. One day at a time is the way to go!

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