CrystalClear814

Ive been on tramadol for 4 years, my dr gave them to me for knee pain, 50MGS, starting at 3 a day, then i started abusing it, taking 6 a day, then 9 a day, then 12 a day and now i can take 16 pills AT ONE TIME!!!! Im ashamed of myself, i dont have anyone to talk to and im afraid to tell my dr because i kno he will take them away from me (script of 90) but i buy them from different ppl who get them but dont take them! Well, i havent gone one day without them in four yrs and last night i took my last ones, my question is, i read somewhere that Imodium helps withdrawls, large doses, has anyone else ever taken it? has it worked? Has it hurt ur stomache? at this point im desperate and need help, i want help, i just dont kno how to get it, im ashamed, plz help!!