Trust (splendra got me thinking)

[dotcom]

Why do people trust me, but I don't trust myself?

ROCK ON

[Dan]

I ask the same question of myself dot.
First one figures it out,
PM's the other O.K!
Love ya!

[dotcom]

Dan(gerous),

sounds like a plan!

ROCK ON dude

[splendra]

Dotcom & DangerousDan-

It is obvious from being in chat and reading your post that you are open and in touch with your emotions and people tend to trust that you are being real. Maybe you don't trust yourself because you know where you have been and perhaps you are worried that you might go there again. All I can say about that is with all this recovery and honesty using will never be as much fun as it once was because you are getting in touch with who you are and maybe you are starting to like yourself. So I vote that you don't trust your disease which is probably not a bad thing. That guy cracks me up!!! you both rock!!

[dotcom]

Thanks splen! words to think about... i think you are right on though, i just have to convince myself it is the disease i dont trust.

[namommy]

I agree with Splendra, it's the disease you don't trust. We believe in you because of the way you share, honestly and openly. I have a friend around here who calls it getting naked on the floor (putting yourself out there un-edited).

Love ya

Laurie D.

[Dan]

Originally Posted by splendra

Maybe you don't trust yourself because you know where you have been and perhaps you are worried that you might go there again.

You read me well Splendra. Even though I am at peace with the evil, even though I believe in my middle that the obsession to use or drink has finally been removed, I fear relapse. Not only relapse as in using again, but relapse in happiness. You know what I mean? That the little serenity I have could vanish in an eye blink, should I ever again become complascent. I still nead a healthy fear of where I've been. Perhaps what I have could be called a healthy distrust of myself...
Yeah, he's pretty funny
You rock too Splendra.
I think Jimmy Buffet wrote a song about Splendraville didn't he...

[mackat]

trust is about time.
i notice that those who were around me'
the closest ones'
the ones who bore the brunt of my disease
have been the most cautious about my recovery
rightfully so. takes time to rebuild trust
and who was i closest too?
who knew all about my disease all those years?
That took time as well.
mackat

[dotcom]

i guess im having trouble with this... my parents act like nothing ever happened they trust me so much. shouldnt they be... i dont know... acting different? i feel like, okay why cant i get with the picture. ya know? i like what you said namom.

[larry g]

Dot
Seems like your parents love their daughter very much. Shouldn't we too???????
To quote Kaklil Gibran:
"WE often borrow from our tomorrows
to pay our debts to our yesterdays."

[dotcom]

(((((larry))))) you rock! thanks for all the support!

[larry g]

Dot---- Isn't that how tis recovery thing works???? You helping us---us there for you...
Been reading some from this Gibran Guy. I Like this one---seems to fit you:

"The devil died the day you were born.
Now you do not have to go through hell to
meet an angel."
You have angels all over SR just for you...........

[dotcom]

right you are larry! wow... awesome quote! ((((((((((((((((((((larry)))))))))))))))))))) did i mention you rock?