A New Thread For 2stop!!!!!

[dotcom]

Hey There Tamster!

Boards are gone and they wiped away your thread! So, I figured I ought to make you another one. How have you been? Are you doing okay? I am praying for you! I hope you and the kiddos are doing well. Let us know how you are doing!!!

Hugs and Prayers,

Dot :thumb

[2stop]

You are an angel my dear dotster. I have been really struggling and very depressed. I have this dang flu again and being sick and just overwhelmed. *sigh* Thank you my friend for thinking of me. It means so much to know you all care. I have to make it with friends like you around.....what a blessing the boards are back up again. I have used again, granted for severe pain, but nevertheless not my script..so I screwed up. But am trying to get back up again. Thanks for being here for me. I love ya girl. *hugs*

[dotcom]

Tamster,

Oh so glad to hear from you. I missed you! I can relate about being sick. Although I am not in severe pain, having pnuemonia has got me very depressed and I feel like crying today. You hang in there, Tam. I am here to help you dust off and start again. Just take it moment by moment and know that my prayers are with you. And be sure to check in and let me know how you are! I worry about you Tamster! You are like my big cyber sis. You take care, Tam. And I hope you get over that flu. It is MISERABLE!

BIG SISTERLY LOVING HUGS,

Dotster :star :bluerose

[2stop]

Dotster...you are one awesome sister. Your attitude and spirit is so encouraging. I am blessed to have met you and have as part of my recovery. I am a bit slow on the sober part, but doing my best.

How is your health doing? I hope that pneumonia is clearing up for you. Bless you.
I don't think I will ever get over this flu or whatever it is. Husband says he thinks it is my gallbladder. Could be, who knows? My neck and back problems go nuts when I am sick with anything. It's like it just attacks my whole system. I know I have to give my body time to heal from all the years of abuse...but good grief...how much can a person take? I know you understand. And knowing you and the others understand helps me so much. Love you dearly my lil sis. Get all the rest you can you hear me? I know, I know..I am so sick of resting I could scream! LOL....One day...one day it has to be better than this..even if just by accident..life HAS TO get better.

*warm Hugs*

[dotcom]

Tam,

You will make it! And I will pray extra hard that you will get better and your pain will fade away. Time really helped with some of my health problems. I don't get kidney/bladder infections anymore, well, rarely. And I have gained a VERY healthy amount of wieght. haha. This pnuemonia is kicking my butt. I slept last week from Tuesday to Sunday and only went out a few times. Now I am back to work but am really feeling it and have no appetite and feel like blah.

I know this sounds terrible, but get back to bed! HAHA. Get some rest and get stronger. If there is anything I can do for you, just let me know. And if it helps, I am a listening ear so just let all of your crap out! And let's start afresh.

Hugs and Prayers,

Dotster

[Dan]

Hi 2stop,
I'm Dan. I actually can't remember if we met before the recent meltdown.
I have no short term memory to speak of. I just wanted to add my hopes for you and for your renewed life energy to wonderful dot's. I arrived here beginning of March and have been blessed by so many wonderful people.
Inspire. Inspirit.
DD

[eddie z.]

And your friendly healthcare professional says: Plenty of fluids, too!! Uh-oh. Is that giving medical advice? teehee.

(((((Tammie))))),
Love you! Hang in there. We're praying for you and ing you on.

Love and hugs,
Eddie

[True Blue]

(((Tammie)))

Just wanted to send some happy thoughts & prayers your way.
It is really good to be back here at SR.

Tammie, get well & stay strong. You can win this war on addiction.
Love you girl.

[tryinagain]

I am Roy, an alcoholic with 49 days sober this time around. I am not turning back either. I believe we met before the crash but too suffer from CRS syndrome (cant remember sh__), well you get the idea. Anyway, a slip is a slip and it sounds like you have a great attitude. The fact that you are so close to Dot tells me a lot, you must be a sweetheart. Anyway, the reason that I am posting is to say that yes, things do get better and just takes time. It is no different than any other disabling disease, our bodies need time to heal and some things never fully rebuild themselves. I was told by my doctor that it may take me up to 5-10 years for some of my organs to fully recover "normal" operation if ever. Over 20 years of drinking sure does bad things to the body. I hope you are feeling better and if you ever need to talk just shoot me a message. Hang in there and things will be just fine.
Hugs and Prayers,
Roy

~Have not figured out my new message of the day...yet~

[MootPoint]

just wanna throw my voice in with the others, Tammie........ I'm rooting for you!

[Gooch]

<clears throat> .. as a point of clarification nobody wiped the boards.. more recent backups were too corrupted to use so Jon had to go back to the secondaries to get the boards back. He busted his butt to get us all back together. Thanks Jon!

I'm glad you decided to stick around and keep checking Tammi .. Maybe you'll have a backup plan next time so that you have other alternatives to help you keep on track in case something like this ever happens again.

I had migraines last week Tammi .. I sure wanted something for the pain. I wound up taking 2 alleve at one time. At one point I thought I had a brain tumor. I was scared and not much fun to be around. I had to spend about 3 days mostly on the couch with heat packs on my neck and forehead and made 3 trips to the chiropractor in 3 days. I don't have any insurance so at leats I didn't wind up in the emergency room repeating over and over to the nurses and doctors "I'm an addict and I would not appreciate you making the use of narcotics easy for me." 13 years and I still have the ocasional desire to reach for a drug or a drink to make "things" better.. I just play the tape out like somebody else was saying and remember that I don't want to go back to that dependancy that takes so much work to keep feeding.

(((((Tammi))))))) keep the faith .. your gonna get there yet.

[Justme57]

I have been trying to send you a post , but couldnt find where to do it !

i have missed you over the last few days! Hang in there Tam, I have been thinking of you!

Big HUGGYS

Lee

[In memory of miracle]

I am sorry to hear you are hurtin.Yea,I was a good one for takin other peoples meds!It is only by the grace of God I havent in awhile.I know if I picked up I would not be able to stop.I am glad you are postin about it.I am prayin for ya!

[2stop]

Thanks so much my friends. I tell ya if I can get my pain under control I wion't be even tempted to use. The amazing part is I have gotten to where cravings are rare and not constant like they were. I am also lucky I don't get the migraines severely 2-3 times a week now. Maybe 3-4 bad ones a month, sometimes less. The neck and back injuries..they are what just about kill me. And this stupid flu!! Every other week sicker than a dog..Grrrrrrrrrrr..LOL..okay I will stop now. My husband always says ...Can't you see yourself snowballing??? he says I should change my name to snowball. I just feel very overwhelmed and frustrated..the kids are home for spring break this week, and I want to have fun with them. I hate them to see me like this. I know in my heart I am doing the best I can..but it doersn't feel good enough. So I will work harder today on ways to cope with pain and frustration without a narcotic. You wouldn't think a few just for the pain would make a person so insane..but it does, and I have to admit it pisses me off so bad some days I think I'll go mad. I put all my faith into those pills for 20 years...time to have faith in something better and more powerful.
Thanks again ya all. So glad to be back home!!! *hugs*

[51anna]

Tammie,

I can't believe the flu jut hangs on and won't let you be! It's been such a hard period for you being so sick and in pain. I know you feel like you're doing your best and that's all you can do and it is good enough!! I'm sure you'll be feeling better soon. Thinking of you...

Love, Anna

[bikewench]

2Stop...

I am adding my prayers for recovery from that dang flu and for relief for your mind and body....

I've never lived with chronic pain... and I'm wondering how well I'd handle it if I did have it....

I didn't want my daughter to witness my bouts of insanity either when she was growing up.... but ...along with that, she got to see me struggle to recover...

I think it gave her an appreciation for other people's circumstances... so .... don't worry about your little ones.... cause they certainly see you trying...

And as long as we never give up trying...

I'm praying to the ALL for a calm accepting mind for you... and for strength and recovery for your body...

[Justme57]

Hey tamster, I just thought of something . you know I have been in a lot of physical pain too, lately, and , like you , it is not the cravings that make me want to pick up, but the constant pain, it is so tiring , and depressing. Anyway, i was talking to a fellow AA member about it last night , and she suggested I try acupuncture. I have never thought of trying that, but as my pain is muscular, i thought I might give it a go, I have nothing to lose . Do you think that might help you ?

Anyway , I will let you know how it does for me , just a thought

HUGE HUGX

Lee

[2stop]

Thank you for that kind post bikewench, I know my kids see me trying..but oh how I hate myself for them even having to see a tenth of this BS of addiction. But life ain't easy or fair, gotta roll with the punches...and stand up one more time than we are knocked down. *hugs*

Lee...Please do let me know how it works, the acupuncture. I have thought of getting this done myself. Something has got to work.I am going bonkers. Yesterday I was gantasizing about suicide..I do not want to get like that again. I have attempted it too many times as a teen, and also in my early twenties. It scares me. I know you understand how pain can just riddle your mind right along with your body into thinking you are screwed, finished, done with. It's awful. there has to be some kind of relief. I won't give up, but I feel all give out you know? I will be praying for your pain too dearest Lee. Bless you. Wish I could take it from you, I would take everybody's pain if I could. I hate to see anyone suffer. I really do.

Well, you all have a good day now. I am going to take the kids to the library. I promised them, I really don't want to leave the house...but I have to do something with them, they don't deserve to be shut inside cause their mama is sick all the time. So, wish mer luck..just getting out the door is gonna be hard today...those dang panic attcks. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..LOL...... :sweat

Talk to ya all later. *hugs*

[Gooch]

Originally Posted by 2stop

I put all my faith into those pills for 20 years...time to have faith in something better and more powerful.

Yea! Thats the spirit Tammi !

The flu this year was horrible. I had to go to the docs to get antibiotics to fight it off. It only took about 10 days to get rid of it but I had 2 bad bouts over 6 weeks until I went to the docs.

[mnj1024]

yup, the flu season has been pretty wicked this year. I'm sorry to see all of you who have gotten sick from it. something you might want to consider for next year is a flu shot. I got one for the first time this year and although the flu has been in and out of my house all winter with other family members, I haven't gotten even a cold. you should be able to get one from your primary doctor, and if you dont have insurance a lot of local hospitals and clinics have dates in the fall where they give em out for free or very little money. as far as dealing with chronic pain I don't know how you do it, and couldnt imagine what i would do in that sitaution, your very strong. Hopefully with this information you can all feel a little better next winter.

mike

[2stop]

Thanks Mike, and Gooch, and all of you.
Please don't laugh at me Mike..but I have a theory that the flu shot is responsible for mutating the flu virus's into superbugs. LOL.....I know, conspiracy central here! I have just always had a gut instint to run from the flu shot and not let it near me. I know a few people with science degress that won't touch it either. maybe it's just a fear, and it's irrational, or maybe there is something to it. We know antibiotics won't treat a virus, and that virus will run it's course, I MO you try and stop or hinder the virus from 'doing it's thing' you run the risk of empowering it into a vicous little sucker with lots of power to make your life hell, that will go around any barrier to run it's course. Of course I have no science degree, but I just cannot bring myself to get the flu shot.

I will stop now, I tend to get carried away with my theories. i am not insane, just a bit crazy. LOL.....

Thanks again all of you. *hugs*

[dotcom]

Tam,

You are rocking on! Have fun with the kiddos! You have reminded me that I have to go to the library, but haha I have been saying I am too sick to go. I shall have to go after work today! WOW lots of support and encouragement for Tamster. We all love you and are here for ya! I am praying for you today (like every day) and sending big hugs your way!

Rock on Tam,

Dotster

[Justme57]

Well, here I am again tam, cant sleep, and Spotted has taken up half the bed , and is snoring !!!!! Thought i may as well have a sticky beak here and see what you all are up to LOL

I will sure let you know how the acupuncture goes , I cant get there for a week, but soon as I do .........

Catch you later , dear friend

HUGX

Lee

[ladyofdreams]

{{{{{{{{{{Tammie}}}}}}}}}}},

I've been very depressed too and always very, very ill but I want you to know Candles are Lit and Prayers to you and yours

Blessed Be,
EL