A new babe in the woods - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

InsAne CloWn · 11-24-2003, 07:25 PM

I can’t stand this feeling of being so vulnerable, scared, physical cold with goose bumps or to hot to even wear a shirt almost at the same time. The air and things smell funny. The light of day is too bright and my bowels still have not settled down. How come life seems so boring and mundane? I feel like a new naked babe in the woods with hungry animals all around me waiting to pounce (that’s gotta be some kinda metaphor for the drug dealer) Granted I lowered my drug use a lot and it’s only two days not doing my drug. Is this sobriety? I just can’t stand these feelings. God tell me this will be over soon. InSaNe CloWn

2stop · 11-24-2003, 07:37 PM

I know what you are going through! It is so hard, it truly feels impossible and it's gard to convince ourselves that we CAN get better if we hang in there...and don't use. It is tough, but I promise it won't get better if you DON'T stop. it gets worse every time, I got to the point where I was afraid I wouldn't die..that I would always and forever be in purgatory with my body and my mind....please hang on, don't use, just tonight, just for tomorrow. Give your body a break, the mental part is very tricky, you have to come to an understanding that you can't use no matter what! I still struggle some with this, and 6 months ago I never would have thought I could 2-3 months without my DOC, but I am slowly doing it. IT's been hell, but there has also been joy, more hope than I used to have for sure. Drink a couple glasses of water, take a walk, read a book, watch a movie...anything but use. Praying for you......This Too Shall Pass.

(((Hugs)))

samo · 11-25-2003, 12:50 PM

the answer is no that is not sobriety. It's the drug f-ing with your head trying to call you back to it. but the farther away you get from her. the softer her calls become. they'll get louder sometimes, sure, and I'm not positive if that hole inside ever goes away, but not waking up sick...now that is some thing to look forward to. eating a big meal carrying on a conversation with out nodding off, noticing the little sparks in the sky called stars, preverbially smelling the flowers, these things all have voices as well and though softer, their voices have no sharp edges or barbed wire wrapped around them.
hang in hard
samo

Chy · 11-26-2003, 02:58 PM

Hi Clown and welcome.

I am sorry your going through the horrors of withdrawl... hang in there it won't last long so long as you don't pick up again.

Try finding a meeting to get some support from those who have walked in your shoe's, in the meantime we're here for you!

ButterflyChaser · 11-30-2003, 04:26 PM

I have no words for u right now but I do have a hug ((((((((((((((((Insane Clown!!)))))))))))))))))))) You are in my thoughts, & I do feel your pain!

InsAne CloWn · 12-01-2003, 08:56 PM

Butterfly Chaser
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))) ))))))))))
Are always great and welcome thank you.
I.C.

11-24-2003, 07:25 PM	#1 (permalink)
InsAne CloWn Member Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Chatsworth, CA Posts: 5	A new babe in the woods I can’t stand this feeling of being so vulnerable, scared, physical cold with goose bumps or to hot to even wear a shirt almost at the same time. The air and things smell funny. The light of day is too bright and my bowels still have not settled down. How come life seems so boring and mundane? I feel like a new naked babe in the woods with hungry animals all around me waiting to pounce (that’s gotta be some kinda metaphor for the drug dealer) Granted I lowered my drug use a lot and it’s only two days not doing my drug. Is this sobriety? I just can’t stand these feelings. God tell me this will be over soon. InSaNe CloWn

11-24-2003, 07:37 PM	#2 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,666	I know what you are going through! It is so hard, it truly feels impossible and it's gard to convince ourselves that we CAN get better if we hang in there...and don't use. It is tough, but I promise it won't get better if you DON'T stop. it gets worse every time, I got to the point where I was afraid I wouldn't die..that I would always and forever be in purgatory with my body and my mind....please hang on, don't use, just tonight, just for tomorrow. Give your body a break, the mental part is very tricky, you have to come to an understanding that you can't use no matter what! I still struggle some with this, and 6 months ago I never would have thought I could 2-3 months without my DOC, but I am slowly doing it. IT's been hell, but there has also been joy, more hope than I used to have for sure. Drink a couple glasses of water, take a walk, read a book, watch a movie...anything but use. Praying for you......This Too Shall Pass. (((Hugs))) __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-30-2003, 04:26 PM	#5 (permalink)
ButterflyChaser Meow! Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Somewhere Over the Rainbow Posts: 1,023	I have no words for u right now but I do have a hug ((((((((((((((((Insane Clown!!)))))))))))))))))))) You are in my thoughts, & I do feel your pain! __________________ "If a Child feels Safe, Wanted & Loved, You are a Successful Parent!" ~~"A relationship is like sand in your hand. If held loosely in the palm of your hand it stays there, but as soon as you close your hand tightly it slips through your fingers!!~~

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11-25-2003, 12:50 PM	#3 (permalink)
samo Paused Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: nyc Posts: 10	the answer is no that is not sobriety. It's the drug f-ing with your head trying to call you back to it. but the farther away you get from her. the softer her calls become. they'll get louder sometimes, sure, and I'm not positive if that hole inside ever goes away, but not waking up sick...now that is some thing to look forward to. eating a big meal carrying on a conversation with out nodding off, noticing the little sparks in the sky called stars, preverbially smelling the flowers, these things all have voices as well and though softer, their voices have no sharp edges or barbed wire wrapped around them. hang in hard samo

11-26-2003, 02:58 PM	#4 (permalink)
Chy Member Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx Posts: 5,886	Hi Clown and welcome. I am sorry your going through the horrors of withdrawl... hang in there it won't last long so long as you don't pick up again. Try finding a meeting to get some support from those who have walked in your shoe's, in the meantime we're here for you!

12-01-2003, 08:56 PM	#6 (permalink)
InsAne CloWn Member Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Chatsworth, CA Posts: 5	Butterfly Chaser (((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))) )))))))))) Are always great and welcome thank you. I.C.

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