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TanyaTanya · 08-10-2003, 05:15 PM

Today, about 3 hours ago, I went to the cupboard for my regular codeine fix (I dont have my own supply, my mom is highly addicted so she's my "supplier" of sorts. Anyway to my surprise there was nothing there. I couldnt breathe, and I immediately started panicking. I didnt know what I was going to do. My first thought was, what else in the house has some kind of drug in that will take away this pain. I ran to the washroom and found what i was looking for: Extra strength cough syrop loaded with DXM. I swigged as much of that bottle as I could. I cant beleive I went to such lengths to ease the pain. I feel ashamed and weak and totally alone. Im starting to think this is a problem...one bigger than I ever anticipated.
Love
Tanya

phoenix · 08-10-2003, 05:58 PM

Hang in there.And please consider getting to an NA meeting and getting some phone numbers from the women you'll meet.In many places,new members get a welcome packet with literature and phone numbers.It will help to have someone you can call on when the compulsion to use hits you.We've been there,and we know how it feels.Keep posting...you are always welcome here.

Hugs

phoenix

08-10-2003, 05:15 PM	#1 (permalink)
TanyaTanya Paused Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Toronto Posts: 1	Cant beleive myself Today, about 3 hours ago, I went to the cupboard for my regular codeine fix (I dont have my own supply, my mom is highly addicted so she's my "supplier" of sorts. Anyway to my surprise there was nothing there. I couldnt breathe, and I immediately started panicking. I didnt know what I was going to do. My first thought was, what else in the house has some kind of drug in that will take away this pain. I ran to the washroom and found what i was looking for: Extra strength cough syrop loaded with DXM. I swigged as much of that bottle as I could. I cant beleive I went to such lengths to ease the pain. I feel ashamed and weak and totally alone. Im starting to think this is a problem...one bigger than I ever anticipated. Love Tanya

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phoenix Paused Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Dreaming Summer Posts: 807	Hang in there.And please consider getting to an NA meeting and getting some phone numbers from the women you'll meet.In many places,new members get a welcome packet with literature and phone numbers.It will help to have someone you can call on when the compulsion to use hits you.We've been there,and we know how it feels.Keep posting...you are always welcome here. Hugs phoenix

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