Codeine Chronicles Part II

[lostbutterfly]

Joe - you're brilliant - 4 days!! Can't say I've done so well. I did 2 days, and then caved on Friday and Saturday. But so far, today is good. But it isn't even lunch time yet. AA meeting tonight, that will stop me doing anything silly.

Amy, the docs there say he will be in icu for a week and then a normal ward for another week. Over here, once you're off the ventilator, you're out!! Too few icu beds in England.

However, he is an awful patient, and I imagine he will be invited to leave well before then, lol!!

Poor you, hugging your Kleenex to sleep!!! I do think someone could make quite a bit of money designing something that you could shove up your nose, that would just absorb everything. Sounds disgusting, I know, but ... useful!!

[christin1225]

Originally Posted by lostbutterfly

Joe - you're brilliant - 4 days!!

Agreed!

I do think someone could make quite a bit of money designing something that you could shove up your nose, that would just absorb everything.

I do THAT with a Kleenex (I thought that everyone did.)

LB: Glad your x is continuing to recover. Remember to take care of yourself.

[lostbutterfly]

I do that Kleenex thing in private Christin, but it looks a bit silly at work. I was thinking something a tad more discreet, like those little rolls the dentist puts in your mouth. But maybe smaller.

Well, the exH is in and out of lucidity. He knows whats happening for a while, then is completely confused, bewildered and quite unpleasant by the sounds of it. He also has a Urinary Tract Infection on top of the lung infection.

I think the confusion is from the infections myself, but I'm no doctor. They want to scan his brain in case they gave him too much oxygen while he was being ventilated. The poor Chinese - they keep asking his daughter if he is behaving normally yet. I think they think that maybe all English people behave that badly.

Anyway, quite beyond my control. Just pray and hope. And if he ever gets back here, he is getting it in the neck from all of us!!!

[Impurrfect]

((LB)) - do the dr's speak English? I just thought about it...that would be pretty crazy, if there was this huge communication barrier between the dr and patient/family! I'm with you..I think it's probably the infections causing him to be confused. It could also be the medicines they sedated him with...some of them keep you confused for a few days.

My cold is much better! When I woke up, yesterday, I could actually breathe!! Breathing is one of those things I WAS taking for granted...not today!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[lugnut]

I do think someone could make quite a bit of money designing something that you could shove up your nose, that would just absorb everything. Sounds disgusting, I know, but ... useful!!

They already did. Tampax lol..Just those O.B ones, without the applicator!! Guess it could work for a bloody nose as well.. Ok Ok I will stop..Sorry it's to early hehehe.


I am glad your ex is feeling and doing better LB..Still praying for you guys.
Ugh is it another week of work? Sheesh. Take it easy!!

@Amy....Yes I love to breath. I hate having to do it through my mouth! Gets to dry in there. Can you at least taste things?

[lostbutterfly]

Know what you mean about the breathing thing, Amy!!

Well, I am craving like mad, but I'm pretty determined not to take anything today, even if I have to white knuckle it.

Grateful for:
My job, esp. in these times (so grateful, I am here on SR instead of working, lol!)
I can cover all my bills this month (as long as no more come in - but they can wait till next month)

[lostbutterfly]

I have thought of Tampax in moments of desperation lugs, esp withdrawals!!! But thought I'd look darn silly with strings hanging out my nose.

[lugnut]

LMAO....Yes did not think of that one... Maybe you can cut it? but then again they would have to rename them instead of supermax or low flow (I really dont know what ya guys call em) to super low flow because of the TSS..
Again just to early and my mind thinks dirty things (not that its dirty though) before I had my Pepsi..

Have a good day and keep those strings away from yer nose!

[ananda]

LB...so glad your ex is doing better. Have missed hearing from you, but so far i can still hunt you down

It is important to take good care of yourself right now...remember HALT it is teribly important at stressful times (hug
:ghug

[lostbutterfly]

Hi nands. I'm coming back later tonight to talk drivel.

For now, I think I have got the answer to our running nose problems. Subtle and discreet. (courtesy of Wibble!)

[lostbutterfly]

Amy, the docs speak English, but I doubt the nurses do. Also, English with a Chinese accent needs concentration, which I don't think he has at the moment. He's been taking phone calls, so I will get the kids to call him once we can get the time zones to overlap!!

Well, I must be honest. I have been taking pills on and off since last Saturday. More on than off. Not at work, just once a day. So not as bad as before, but we know how this goes.

[Impurrfect]

aww, c'mon, ((LB))! You know, you're going to be wanting to come off those evil pills again, pretty soon, and the longer you're on them, the more miserable you're going to be. Why not stop, sooner, than later, and save yourself a little misery?

I hope you find it, in yourself, to want recovery again, soon. I really hate to see my friends struggling.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[christin1225]

Originally Posted by lostbutterfly

For now, I think I have got the answer to our running nose problems. Subtle and discreet. (courtesy of Wibble!)

I sooooo can't believe that I was embarrassed after making my Kleenex comment!! (And tampax, LB??? That comment gets the blusher award!)

Hope you and the kids are well (and ex-hubby of course).

[Vintersemestre]

Lost, do you ever come in the chat?

[lostbutterfly]

I have attempted it vinter. I spend hours watching a cup of coffee and then when I try to join in, I get a big scary blank white screen which frightens me!! There is no one in there - spoooky!

Someone said I must update my Java. So I have an update waiting for me to push a few relevant buttons. Shall get round to it eventually. I've never been in a chat room before. I'm such an innocent!

Christin - you can blame lugnut for that tampax comment. He started it lol!

[Vintersemestre]

I just got done running through all the Blackadder seasons actually... such good stuff. I have the set that has all the eps in one box. I can't wait until my Aqua Teen Hunger Force volume 6 gets here.

[lostbutterfly]

Me and my son finally started watching 24 - the current series. We are hooked and we are only on epidsode 2. Of course, we have to go and watch the previous series to find out wtf is going on, but it's still all good. (never heard of the Teen force, hungry or otherwise - what is this strange thing?)

Congrats, Americains, on your new president!! I shall miss Bush's unique use of the English language, lol, but probably not much else.

[lostbutterfly]

Well, I'm still taking pills when I get home from work. The cravings start as soon as I get up, but if I leave the pills at home and I stop myself escaping from work during the day, I don't take any.

If only it could stay this way, but I know it won't. My limbic system, or whatever it is, is hopping up and down and very distressed that it can't have some NOW!

It's very hard to have a sober attitude even when you are sober 2/3 of the day. And I'm not taking silly amounts by any means. Enough to cope with the demands of home, really. I know there are loads of single mums out there who work full time, but I find the 2nd shift of the day pretty hard going!

Anyway, I'll leave it there. I know where this is going to lead, but I'll still do it. I pray everyday that some power out there will stop me. That really would be a miracle.

[Dee74]

Dunno what else to tell you but that the powers within you LB - I hope you find it soon....this is no life for you, Lea....you deserve better

D

[ananda]

I waited a long time for something else to stop me from using...it didn't work...in the end i stoped using and then the desire to faded away.

Love yuo lea:ghug

[lostbutterfly]

Well, the good news is my kidneys are starting to protest. Little bit of pain from them today. Usually not good news to most people, but in my case, it kicks my butt into action.

It reminds me: oh yes, these things are actually quite bad for me! D'oh! And my dose is going up already, so they are only going to get worse.

I don't want to die all puffed up of kidney failure. I haven't watched my weight all my life to die looking like a puffer fish, lol!!

See, I was only going to take them on weekends, to cope. And then Monday came, and I couldn't wait that long. So I'm just taking them after work. But it's only Wednesday, and I really, really want them at work now. And I've been coping really well at work without them and I don't want to go back to needing them all day like that.

Rib doesn't hurt when I walk anymore, so I should be able to start "running" again soon. That should surely be a prescribed exercise to all mentalists!! I once heard a recovered alcoholic say that running was his vodka!

I'll pop back when I've got a bit of time off these things!

[lostbutterfly]

Binned the pills, so a sober day! Survived a teenage induced crisis on my return from my AA meeting. The computer, an x-box and a bunch of grapes were involved!! Sigh!

But it's OK. I handled it, by not really doing very much at all. Just controlled my reaction to the chaos and it turned out alright.

[hopeful62]

LB, hugs to you. Today was a sober day, so a good day for you.

I'm sorry that you're struggling. Life's a b*tch sometimes. Why were we born with these cravings, this love of opiates? Everyone has their struggles in life, and I guess that it could be worse than addiction.

Good luck to you . . . I hope you find your way . . .

Hugs

[lostbutterfly]

Life can certainly suck. But this old credit crunch has been making me focus on the stuff I have got, rather than the stuff I haven't.

When people around you are losing their jobs and homes, you stop whinging so much about going to work on a Monday morning, lol!

I'm just so grateful I can pay my bills and my mortgage and have a little over, even it is just a very little.

[christin1225]

Originally Posted by ananda

I waited a long time for something else to stop me from using...it didn't work...

This message contains the same wisdom that I received in a post from someone on these boards. Her name was (is) Lea.

Hey Lost! I'm praying that you can do what we both "know" we have to do and what has been shown by so many on this forum as being possible.

I know that you pray for me. Thank you.