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emmer · 01-09-2009, 08:07 AM

Thanks ((Row)) amd thx ((Amy)) .......your guys reply came in when I was writing to Tanya.

I feel better when support comes in, I dont feel like I can;t do this life without drugs.

I'm not working right now so its ok for me (if I have to) too pull the blankets over my head and sleep and do whatever I have to, to stay clean.

I am not listening to my addict head that want me to say screw it lifes too much of a bitch! You must use to survive, cuz thats just not true at all.

lostbutterfly · 01-09-2009, 11:33 AM

Hi Joe. You're doing great. Little tiny baby steps!

Luv LB xxx

emmer · 01-09-2009, 04:13 PM

I did 5 questions in step 1 today.

I'm feeling better but have had a pain in my right side under my ribs for 5 days.
WTF??

lostbutterfly · 01-09-2009, 04:25 PM

Liver maybe? Might just be a bit enlarged since it's had to work quite hard lately.

Night, night Joe. Thank goodness life is broken up into managable pieces by sleep!

northbelle · 01-09-2009, 04:28 PM

I can really relate to the feeling freaked out ..coming off a binge is freakin rough...I have days I don't remember...
God help us addicts...
love north

emmer · 01-09-2009, 04:34 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by lostbutterfly

Night, night Joe. Thank goodness life is broken up into managable pieces by sleep!

((LB)) ..all I can say is Amen sister!

((NB)) ...Binges do take a tough toll, FFS.

Jane63 · 01-09-2009, 05:37 PM

Hey ((emmer)) just checking in on you before I get into my PJs and wind down from a stressful day. You sound alittle better today, yes???

You have nothing to be ashamed of! I think you are doing a good job and your body needs time to heal but it will thank you too!

If the pain in your side keeps up you should see your DR but I wonder if it's not from tensing up maybe?? I get that way in the winter...shoulders all tensed up and everything gets to hurting...Man, getting old(er) sucks, huh?
Hang in there!!
((HUGS))
Jane

emmer · 01-10-2009, 12:31 AM

i'm having a damn tough time right now. I just feel miserable.

karma35 · 01-10-2009, 01:57 AM

keep missing you - day 3 here -misereable - btw u rock xx Karma

emmer · 01-10-2009, 03:04 AM

thanks sweetheart....

my bersitus (sp) is damn sore and my mind is not great either.
I feel mad and restless and cant sleep

lostbutterfly · 01-10-2009, 03:19 AM

Me too, I'm miserable as well!

***Impurrfect*** · 01-10-2009, 04:20 AM

I hope you and LB are feeling better today. Just remember...feelings are just feelings...they don't last forever. It may SEEM like it, when we're miserable, but we rarely stay that way. I've had to force myself to do something I know will make me smile, even though it's the last thing I want to do....watch a funny movie, go see my little niece/nephew, listen to music I like, etc.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

Jane63 · 01-10-2009, 11:12 AM

((emmer)) Hope you and ((LB)) are both feeling better today!

((Amy)) is right about the feelings and watching upbeat movies and listening to music! I have some sort of music on all day and singing while I clean up and do chores and stuff...sometimes I have to force myself but I always feel better! Remember to play with and love on your kitty too! Animals are amazing little stress-relievers!!
((HUGS))
Jane

squirty · 01-11-2009, 05:37 AM

(((((Joe))))))

How's it going my friend?

Please PM me if you need anythin.

I hope you're ok.

Big hugs to you

Squirty xxx

hopefully tryin · 01-11-2009, 06:21 AM

How are you feeling? I've been thinking about you and I hope you are doing better and feeling better.

WA_NA_Survivor · 01-11-2009, 09:14 PM

Joe, I don't visit SR very often now but am glad you flushed those pills, what does concern me is the amount of acetaminophen / tylenol you were likely ingesting. You really need to see your doctor ASAP and get your liver checked out, don't want to scare you but the irony is that large doses of acetaminophen / tylenol can poison your liver. The recommended max daily intake of acetaminophen is 4 grams (not on a regular basis though) and you obviously exceeded that.

Please do this and keep us posted, I'll keep you in my prayers.

Jane63 · 01-12-2009, 08:01 AM

((emmer)) Please check in when you get a chance to let us know how you are doing, ok? I get worried when people don't post for awhile and so I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, my friend!

((HUGS))
Jane

emmer · 01-12-2009, 05:05 PM

Thanks, but I did some long hard thinking and I am no longer going to post and ask for help when all I'm not going to throw myself into recovery with some degree of seriousness.

Nope ............this using/abusing thing is getting too damn old.

To thine own self be true...right? ..............right.

Yes, I truly am an addict and I do struggle hard with anxiety/depression and thats why I use.
However...... I have before me, all the tools and loving support anyone could ask for, yet
I can't seem to get to a place where I can benifit from it because I can't face life, clean.

I'm just not cool with myself right now.
I am going to NA again and hope to be back to SR soon.

Jane63 · 01-12-2009, 09:35 PM

((emmer)) IMO, just because your still using doesn't mean you cannot still post here and share your feelings...but I do understand.

I hope you find a way to deal with your anxiety and depression be it meds or therapy or a little of both cause I know how awful it feels!
Don't stay away too long!
((HUGS))
Jane

karma35 · 01-13-2009, 01:56 AM

emmer -plse stay in touch - i know i'm sporadic but i think of u alot if u want jus pm will b ok - am off to spain for week with ol friend and hoping...

huge hugs
Karma xxx

***Doug*** · 01-13-2009, 03:03 AM

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01-09-2009, 08:07 AM	#76 (permalink)
emmer The lion sleeps tonight Join Date: Jan 2006 Posts: 2,613 Blog Entries: 10	Thanks ((Row)) amd thx ((Amy)) .......your guys reply came in when I was writing to Tanya. I feel better when support comes in, I dont feel like I can;t do this life without drugs. I'm not working right now so its ok for me (if I have to) too pull the blankets over my head and sleep and do whatever I have to, to stay clean. I am not listening to my addict head that want me to say screw it lifes too much of a bitch! You must use to survive, cuz thats just not true at all. __________________ Clean date, March 2nd / 2009 ..and I ain't lettin go.

01-09-2009, 11:33 AM	#77 (permalink)
lostbutterfly OMG everything's real Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: England Posts: 3,837	Hi Joe. You're doing great. Little tiny baby steps! Luv LB xxx __________________ I don't have to leave anymore What I have is right here Spend my nights and days before Searching the world for what's right here I am yours now So now I don't ever have to leave 80 days

01-09-2009, 04:13 PM	#78 (permalink)
emmer The lion sleeps tonight Join Date: Jan 2006 Posts: 2,613 Blog Entries: 10	I did 5 questions in step 1 today. I'm feeling better but have had a pain in my right side under my ribs for 5 days. WTF?? __________________ Clean date, March 2nd / 2009 ..and I ain't lettin go.

01-09-2009, 04:25 PM	#79 (permalink)
lostbutterfly OMG everything's real Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: England Posts: 3,837	Liver maybe? Might just be a bit enlarged since it's had to work quite hard lately. Night, night Joe. Thank goodness life is broken up into managable pieces by sleep! __________________ I don't have to leave anymore What I have is right here Spend my nights and days before Searching the world for what's right here I am yours now So now I don't ever have to leave 80 days

01-09-2009, 05:37 PM	#82 (permalink)
Jane63 Member Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 2,147 Blog Entries: 8	Hey ((emmer)) just checking in on you before I get into my PJs and wind down from a stressful day. You sound alittle better today, yes??? You have nothing to be ashamed of! I think you are doing a good job and your body needs time to heal but it will thank you too! If the pain in your side keeps up you should see your DR but I wonder if it's not from tensing up maybe?? I get that way in the winter...shoulders all tensed up and everything gets to hurting...Man, getting old(er) sucks, huh? Hang in there!! ((HUGS)) Jane __________________ ~Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all.~ Emily Dickinson Rest In Peace My Sweet Sammy...2-24-08

01-09-2009, 04:28 PM	#80 (permalink)
northbelle Dopeless Hope Fiend Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: anchorage Alaska Posts: 2,246	I can really relate to the feeling freaked out ..coming off a binge is freakin rough...I have days I don't remember... God help us addicts... love north

01-10-2009, 12:31 AM	#83 (permalink)
emmer The lion sleeps tonight Join Date: Jan 2006 Posts: 2,613 Blog Entries: 10	i'm having a damn tough time right now. I just feel miserable. __________________ Clean date, March 2nd / 2009 ..and I ain't lettin go.

01-10-2009, 01:57 AM	#84 (permalink)
karma35 Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: england Posts: 86	keep missing you - day 3 here -misereable - btw u rock xx Karma

01-10-2009, 03:04 AM	#85 (permalink)
emmer The lion sleeps tonight Join Date: Jan 2006 Posts: 2,613 Blog Entries: 10	thanks sweetheart.... my bersitus (sp) is damn sore and my mind is not great either. I feel mad and restless and cant sleep __________________ Clean date, March 2nd / 2009 ..and I ain't lettin go.

01-10-2009, 03:19 AM	#86 (permalink)
lostbutterfly OMG everything's real Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: England Posts: 3,837	Me too, I'm miserable as well! __________________ I don't have to leave anymore What I have is right here Spend my nights and days before Searching the world for what's right here I am yours now So now I don't ever have to leave 80 days

01-10-2009, 04:20 AM	#87 (permalink)
*Impurrfect* Community Greeter Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Atlanta Posts: 9,461	I hope you and LB are feeling better today. Just remember...feelings are just feelings...they don't last forever. It may SEEM like it, when we're miserable, but we rarely stay that way. I've had to force myself to do something I know will make me smile, even though it's the last thing I want to do....watch a funny movie, go see my little niece/nephew, listen to music I like, etc. Hugs and prayers! Amy __________________ "I'm not where I want to be, but thank God I'm not where I used to be" - Joyce Meyer

01-10-2009, 11:12 AM	#88 (permalink)
Jane63 Member Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 2,147 Blog Entries: 8	((emmer)) Hope you and ((LB)) are both feeling better today! ((Amy)) is right about the feelings and watching upbeat movies and listening to music! I have some sort of music on all day and singing while I clean up and do chores and stuff...sometimes I have to force myself but I always feel better! Remember to play with and love on your kitty too! Animals are amazing little stress-relievers!! ((HUGS)) Jane __________________ ~Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all.~ Emily Dickinson Rest In Peace My Sweet Sammy...2-24-08

01-11-2009, 05:37 AM	#89 (permalink)
squirty Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: London Posts: 413	(((((Joe)))))) How's it going my friend? Please PM me if you need anythin. I hope you're ok. Big hugs to you Squirty xxx __________________ Happiness is a choice we make every morning

01-11-2009, 06:21 AM	#90 (permalink)
hopefully tryin Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: A very HOT place, near the beach ;-) Posts: 294	How are you feeling? I've been thinking about you and I hope you are doing better and feeling better. __________________ Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly

01-11-2009, 09:14 PM	#91 (permalink)
WA_NA_Survivor Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: WA Posts: 150	Joe, I don't visit SR very often now but am glad you flushed those pills, what does concern me is the amount of acetaminophen / tylenol you were likely ingesting. You really need to see your doctor ASAP and get your liver checked out, don't want to scare you but the irony is that large doses of acetaminophen / tylenol can poison your liver. The recommended max daily intake of acetaminophen is 4 grams (not on a regular basis though) and you obviously exceeded that. Please do this and keep us posted, I'll keep you in my prayers. __________________ "Over time some addicts lost contact with other recovering addicts and eventually returned to active addiction. They forgot that it is really the first drug that starts the deadly cycle all over again."

01-12-2009, 08:01 AM	#92 (permalink)
Jane63 Member Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 2,147 Blog Entries: 8	((emmer)) Please check in when you get a chance to let us know how you are doing, ok? I get worried when people don't post for awhile and so I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, my friend! ((HUGS)) Jane __________________ ~Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all.~ Emily Dickinson Rest In Peace My Sweet Sammy...2-24-08

01-12-2009, 05:05 PM	#93 (permalink)
emmer The lion sleeps tonight Join Date: Jan 2006 Posts: 2,613 Blog Entries: 10	Thanks, but I did some long hard thinking and I am no longer going to post and ask for help when all I'm not going to throw myself into recovery with some degree of seriousness. Nope ............this using/abusing thing is getting too damn old. To thine own self be true...right? ..............right. Yes, I truly am an addict and I do struggle hard with anxiety/depression and thats why I use. However...... I have before me, all the tools and loving support anyone could ask for, yet I can't seem to get to a place where I can benifit from it because I can't face life, clean. I'm just not cool with myself right now. I am going to NA again and hope to be back to SR soon. __________________ Clean date, March 2nd / 2009 ..and I ain't lettin go.

01-12-2009, 09:35 PM	#94 (permalink)
Jane63 Member Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 2,147 Blog Entries: 8	((emmer)) IMO, just because your still using doesn't mean you cannot still post here and share your feelings...but I do understand. I hope you find a way to deal with your anxiety and depression be it meds or therapy or a little of both cause I know how awful it feels! Don't stay away too long! ((HUGS)) Jane __________________ ~Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all.~ Emily Dickinson Rest In Peace My Sweet Sammy...2-24-08

01-13-2009, 01:56 AM	#95 (permalink)
karma35 Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: england Posts: 86	emmer -plse stay in touch - i know i'm sporadic but i think of u alot if u want jus pm will b ok - am off to spain for week with ol friend and hoping... huge hugs Karma xxx

01-13-2009, 03:03 AM	#96 (permalink)
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