having trouble...

[murphy75]

Sorry to bother everyone but i'm having a really difficult time dealing with the pain of withdrawal right now and i was just wondering how much longer this is going to last. I will be a month clean on monday...

[Peter]

Have you spoken to a doctor about this ?

[whiskerkissed]

You are so past the worst part...and never think yourself a bother. I can't say how long it will last simply because I don't know. I'm 2 weeks today myself...and the longest was only 19. What I do know is your sticking with it.

Are you seeking any other support besides SR? I know you're young, but NA doesn't care about age...only that you want to get clean and stay clean. They really do have tools that can help you...including helping you get past the withdrawals. That just takes time. Plain and simple.

((HUGS))

You're doing great!

[totfit]

If you are a month clean, most likely it is not any kind of acute physical withdrawal you are experiencing. Could be mental, could be a physical pre-condition that a Doctor could help you work through. Hold the idea that whatever you are experiencing is not nearly so difficult as trying to make it through life with just the right self imposed "chemistry". You would not be clean at all if the alternative were working for you.

[NeedingHelp7]

Hello Murphy,

Take it easy....I know it's not easy.....here is a list to help you.....

1. get to meetings
2. trust/faith
3. 1 multi-vitamin a day, taken at night. Also Sublingual B vitamins. These vitamins have been taken from your body through much drug use and have to be restored. The B vitamins will help extremely with w/d's, and psychosis.
4. regular meals, and lots of water.
5. rest

Hoping the best for ya!

NH7

[ccgirl2]

Murphy, what are you withdrawing from and which symptoms persist?

[murphy75]

i haven't gone to a doctor to avoid explaining things and i don't go to meetings because i don't like the idea of people seeing me when i get emotional and talk about things like this. i'm withdrawing from pretty much every drug you can think of and alcohol too. the vitamins is a good idea. i will try that. thank you...

[ccgirl2]

Is there no way you can see a doctor? It may be protracted withdrawals, but it could also be some other condition. After I stopped using, my stomach problems persisted, well after a "normal" period of time. Seems I had IBS and my drug used covered it up.

[BackToSquareOne]

Post acute withdrawal syndome (PAWS) can last a long time after the inital withdrawal. The insomnia, anxiety and depression can linger for many months after quitting. If you are withdrawing from a lot of different drugs this may be what your going through. Just recognize it for what it is as it will get better as time goes on.

[scorpiogirl]

Originally Posted by murphy75

i haven't gone to a doctor to avoid explaining things and i don't go to meetings because i don't like the idea of people seeing me when i get emotional and talk about things like this. i'm withdrawing from pretty much every drug you can think of and alcohol too. the vitamins is a good idea. i will try that. thank you...

Oh Murphy {{big hugs here}}
You don't have to talk at the meeting yet, just going and putting your buttola in a chair will help. Honest, it will! If you have even looked at the steps at all, the first word of the first step is WE. WE are powerless.....WE don't do this thing alone. (of myself I am nothing, with a group I become empowered). Please, please go; just go. I know it sounds stupid and crazy yet, all of us with any time wouldn't say it works if it didn't. Your other lifestyle didn't work or you wouldn't be trying to stop. So, give this one a try. It's pretty much a proven fact that alcoholics/drug addicts don't recover on their own.

You took an immense amount of chemicals and it needs to be replaced with something else - the meetings is the replacement and the medicine for feeling better.

Just give it a try - what have you got to lose? Besides, it will help shut those voices in your head up!

[Timebuster]

Murphy…

Addition is so cunning and baffling and powerful.

Substituting one mind altering substance for another for an addict is insane… Substituting one for another in our condition is nothing more than an invitation to further pain and confusion… Denial is the mind game that all addict play to avoid dealing with reality and the consequences of our using… Often times our life-styles have become quite bizarre, yet we remain convinced that everything is normal...Denial is a mental operation of rationalization and justification used to shield us from the pain of our current situation…

My personal experience. When I came back in to the rooms as a newcomer I was on empty. Morally, spiritually and physically empty. I had no feelings what so ever. Without drugs in my body I felt num. I had to create an entirely new situation in my life in order to overcome my addiction to mind altering substance. Think about it: my whole entire life revolved around using drugs. Either I was getting high on drugs, or I was working so that I could get the money to do so. This became my routine; my whole meaning for existence.

The compulsive obsession of addiction controls our lives. It lies to us and it tells us that we can handle it, that we have the answers to all our problems. The more lies we tell our selves the deeper in denial we become. We addicts have an internal survival mode. We must survive another day no matter what it cost us. The reality is that when we look back nothing has change; our best thinking has got us nowhere. We are now deeper in to despair and hopelessness.

True escape requires active change. I was ask to what length are you willing to go, I said what mountain do you want me to move. Let your doctors know your battle with addiction, they understand. Go to a meetings, humble yourself remember your life depends on it. Ask the recovering addict with some time, tell me how it's done. show me what to do. Our disease makes it hard to ask for help because it would rather keep us sick, angry and confused.

Working on my recovery, I am better able to notice my character defects, short-comings, negative thoughts, anger, resentments and personality flaws. When we are honest with ourselves we gain the capacity for positive change to occur. Our desire for positive change helps us to feel better about ourselves. We become more aware of our true person, enabling us to have the opportunity to make the required changes necessary to grow in our recovery. I will not fear life anymore. Instead I will challenge it.

I have a disease, it is call addiction to any mind, mood altering substance. For me, it was never the drugs that made me an addict. I believe I was an addict long before drugs came into my life. So when I used different drugs or different combinations of drugs, or substituting or trying to find the "magic formula". I have to come to understand. The problem is me, not the mind altering substances.

Ivan

[scorpiogirl]

Originally Posted by Timebuster

Go to a meetings, humble yourself remember your life depends on it. Ask the recovering addict with some time, tell me how it's done. show me what to do. Our disease makes it hard to ask for help because it would rather keep us sick, angry and confused.

Isn't THAT the truth! The disease will use anything and everything to win. We cannot allow it to win and rob of us our souls that we fought so hard to get back.

Originally Posted by Timebuster

I will not fear life anymore. Instead I will challenge it.

Ivan, I loved this! I too step out of the box; out of my comfort zone if I have to to find the answer or to interact with life and all it has to offer.

I am forever amazed at the wisdom on these posts. So valuable, so valuable indeed. Those of us that have lived the perils of hell and have lived to talk about it, are true courageous Warriors - and I don't mean warriors like in war. I'm talking about stepping into the unknown of life (something we feared), standing tall with integrity and having the strength to propel us on.

Hooray for all of us on the road to recovering and claiming ourselves back!