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06-30-2008, 08:22 PM
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| Member  Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: Boston, MA / Klamath Falls, Oregon
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| Hi I'm new to this website, i'm a 19 year old heroin addict, i've been taking suboxone to help me, but now im ready to get off of them, and really experience full recovery, but now that means i have to finally deal with craving and withdrawal again, last night was the first night i stepped my dosage down, couldn't sleep, have been feeling hopeless and miserable.. but i want to do this so i'm just going to bite the bullet and grew thru it but i'm really freakin scared, i've been listeing to hardcore punk music to help.. hearing the screaming in the music takes me away from the screaming in my head.. anyway i've survived another day and i'm clean.. so i am greatful for that.. at least i'm pretty sure? i feel like crap.. |
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06-30-2008, 08:43 PM
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| Giving sober life a chance  Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Clifton Park
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| Hang in there. Theres alot of people here that have been where you are. Glad you are here. Welcome. |
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| The Following User Says Thank You to chiynita For This Useful Post: | RobbyRobot (07-01-2008)
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06-30-2008, 09:14 PM
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| Member  Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: Langley, BC
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| you survived another day...........good for you!! when all the screaming in your head takes a break, remember to tell yourself that if you don't do this now, you may not be around for a whole lot of "another days". It's not going to happen over night, but it will happen. you will get better. and at 19? jeez, that's awesome. I wasn't near as mature as you at 19 - and I hope you're proud of what you are doing for yourself. you deserve it. keep posting and let us know how you're getting along. |
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| The Following User Says Thank You to Klynn33 For This Useful Post: | RobbyRobot (07-01-2008)
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07-01-2008, 08:06 AM
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| hello world  Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: Our little island...
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welcome to the forums of SR. your gonna get great help here so just keep posting and surfing the forums. i've never slammed or walked through recovery with the suboxone, but others have and your not alone guy. i think the sub program is a kicka$$ program though. stick with it. no reason to physically hurt for nuthin'. freakin' scared is a problem and a half eh?! yeah, fear is a monster when we're trying to get it all together. your using the music is a great distraction so good that that works. you'll adapt and find other distractions as you walk your own path. keeping it personal will be your best strategy in the long term. none of us want to be cookie-cutter idgits in recovery so you just keep rockin with anything that keeps you hungry looking for ways to kick that monster down. the sub program is giving you lotsa chances to reflect and think with your head, and emotionally in your heart and guts. don't waste those good times. get a plan, sam, and don't give no damn about what your plan doesn't have -- play your game about what is in your plan cuzz that is what is actually saving your life. yep. if your quiting at nineteen you got some head and heart kid, and i want you to use them like your life depends on it. frigg your young.... anyways. like i'm sayin, keep an eye on what your doing in that plan. look at your day and look at your yesterday and connect the dots. if you like the picture your all that and you own. if the dots start looking like a dogs breakfast its time to change the house menu. those fears can be a tool cuzz they measure out your courage, and they let you figure out the dose you need. don't be shy, none of us ever overdosed on courage. later. | |
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07-01-2008, 12:42 PM
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| Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: Boston, MA / Klamath Falls, Oregon
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| thanks you guys, this morning when i woke up it was the most depressed and hopeless i've felt in the last 4 months and i felt like i was going to be stuck feeling like that forever, then somehow it changed around and i feel pretty okay... i hope it's not just because i took my morning med.. anyway today is 79 days clean and sober.. an all time record since i was 13 |
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07-01-2008, 02:34 PM
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| Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: Boston, MA / Klamath Falls, Oregon
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| hah, well it's for all the bad ideas and voices in my head to shut up, 1 year is amazing, i can't even comprehend that, good job P.S. i noticed you're in cape cod.. i live in boston, i'm just in oregon right now because i'm in a sober living house |
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07-01-2008, 03:45 PM
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| To Thine Own Self Be True  Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: So Cal
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| Scott, WOW! How wonderful that you are doing this thing! Wooohoooo!!! 79 days is amazing! I ditto what RR said (he is so eloquent), you have a wonderful life ahead of you if you grab it. Keep sharing, you are doing great! So, how long will you be in the sober living? |
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| The Following User Says Thank You to TTOSBT For This Useful Post: | RobbyRobot (07-01-2008)
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07-01-2008, 04:37 PM
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| Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: Boston, MA / Klamath Falls, Oregon
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| yeah, thank you guys, i'm not sure how i ended up on the other coast, i've lived in so many different states and even another country to try to run away from everything.. never works out.. i'll be in this sober living house probably until winter time.. i'm planning on taking one class at the community college here later on |
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07-01-2008, 08:03 PM
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| Billionaire Boys Club  Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Boca FL
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| welcome to the SR.com scott(nice name by the way). i came to this place pretty much in the same place as you, my DOC is also heroin and i was bangin like 2 bundles a day. This site is great for support and ideas on how to pass the time in early sobriety and deal with cravings etc. Wish nothing but the best for you and hope you keep posting and staying off that dope bro. Scotty ~~ |
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07-01-2008, 08:51 PM
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| Billionaire Boys Club Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Boca FL
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| ya bro i moved down here from NYC like 10 months ago cus i heard it was the recovery capital of the united states down here. its real great stayed ever since...been clean like 7 months now |
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07-01-2008, 10:31 PM
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| u jst trye it, mistr!!!  Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: East Bay, California
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| Here's one I listened to a bunch of times when I was in w/d's... YouTube - Radio When I got the music, I gotta place ta go! You're doing great man. How low you got your sub dose down to? Here's one more for ya, once you are out of the screaming phase and more in the emotional phase ... This was at the end of a 2+ year long sold out world tour, U2 wrapping it up at home in Dublin in front of 250,000(!) fans. Bono's dad had died just days before, and this is the song he chose to dedicate to his pops. I must've watched this 20 times in the week after I got off the dope, probably cried every single time. It doesn't get any better than this, man ... YouTube - U2 - Kite |
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07-02-2008, 12:05 AM
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| Member  Join Date: Dec 2007
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| Way to go Scott!!!!!!!!  Music......... you gotta check out the Dave Matthews Band. You have to sign up to listen.... but it has so many shows! Live In Our Graves.Org - Home His music has helped so many people....... as music does in general though too! | |
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