Life After Methadone Keeps On Going

[Impurrfect]

(((arura))) - SOOO glad to hear from you!

I slept most of yesterday AND last night, so apparently needed the rest! Will try to find something to be able to use my laptop at the store on the way to work....in the meantime, will used dad's when I can.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[Impurrfect]

I got my internet back and it only cost me $40 for a USB wireless thing...yippeeee!!

Work was great, even the drunks tipped good and weren't too disorderly I didn't miss anything the night I called out...it was slow. I did enjoy all the sleep, though!

I think I have arthritis in my back and hips....hurt my hip when I was a kid, and ruptured a disk a few years ago in my back. Right now, they are both killing me, but I just took an ibuprofen, so hope that helps....it might as well, 'cause I'm sure not going to the dr. for pain meds! If it gets worse, though, I will see my dr. about one of the newer anti-inflammatory meds they have out.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[Lbad]

Good Morning and Happy Sunday

(((amy))) Yippee!!!! For the working computer... I have a tendency to take things to worst case scenario and then I am so relieved when it turns out to be a $40 fix... lol I end up looking stunned because in my head I already threw out the computer and had to go shopping for a new one and borrowed money (that I am worried about how I will pay back) lol etc, etc, etc..... I am such a dork....

Glad you got some good rest and didn't miss out on a slamming night at work.....

I am sorry for your ouchies...... I will send healing feel better thoughts straight from my heart in California to yours Amy.......

I am so grateful it is Sunday and that I only have to do one commitment at 4PM... I am doing posting and journaling this morning... then I can ride my bike for as long as I want to.... then some shopping maybe or a movie with my daughter.
I am sick of boyfriends... They are always trying to hog up my time..... lol They are fun though too.
I am a little worried about a thread I decided to post on.. I mean I usually leave those posts to the "know it alls"... This person touched my heart though and I have been where he is headed and I wanted to share my experience.. I hope that come later I don't get slammed for it..... oh well, if I do I will just disregard their replies.....

((arura)) RZ send his best wishes to you....
((ladyblue)) You should post sweets...
((joe)) I know you are reading so, hello friend...

((lurkers)) Love you too....

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[wenchris]

I really do like readng this forum. It helps me a bit when I am having a tough day with the babies I am raising for my son as he gets his life back on track after methadone. You are an inspiration to me to keep hanging on and doing what I can for my grandkids, they may be back with their parents eventually! Thank you!

[Lbad]

awww Thanks Wenchris... I am grateful at a molecular level every time I get to hear that the thread helps others.... Your post made my heart smile... I am sending many good thoughts to you, your son and your grandbabies... Bless you for caring for them.... There absolutely is hope as long as we are alive their is a chance for a "good life".....

[Impurrfect]

(((Wenchris)))

Glad to see you hear! I lurked on this thread for a long time, before I actually joined it. It has helped me tremendously..not just with my addiction, but not getting sucked into codie behaviors

((lbad)) - I know all about the worst-case stuff. Have heard from several people that a Mac laptop is the BEST computer...the cheapest one is $1100 and I was trying to figure out how the heck I was going to come up with that much money. It is now on my "wish list" and something I will work toward, but NOT a necessity for today. Good reminder of staying in today, right?

Off to work....it's storming and should be a slow night, but that's okay after last night!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[Lbad]

Good Morning..... Happy Monday...

((amy)) lol we think a lot alike.... Have a good rest today..

I am off to a bit of a slow start this morning... I did go running but not as far as I usually do. I was tired.

I rode my bike really far yesterday and that was awesome... I get off work early on Mondays so maybe I will get a chance to ride after work today...

I went to a meeting with my sponsee last night and that was fun and I feel good about spending some quality time with her..

I finished changing the status of my romantic relationship and that was hard but I did it. He was hurt and angry and I refused to participate in that. I am sure he will lash out a little soon and I am preparing for that by being as spiritually fit as I can. On that note I think I will go do some prayer...

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[Impurrfect]

I got home this morning, and had no internet again AT&T finally came and got us up and running....don't they know I NEED my SR?!?!?! Oh, yeah, it's all about me

Work was actually busy. It had been slow all day, we were discussing which of us were going to go home early when about 50 people walked in, some in groups, other's just 2 at a time.

My buddy, AJ, is coming back to work tomorrow night. He's been in jail for 30+ days, and one boss wanted to fire him, but the rest of us see how hard he's been trying to do good and he still has his job. The only reason he was put back in jail was for a "dilute" urine drug test...the guy said "you've been drinking too much water". AJ said "I'm in an alcohol program, that's about all I CAN drink". He's been very supportive of me, and we are really good at encouraging each other and can always get ourselves out of a bad mood. He's married, has 5 kids and one on the way so the whole family has adopted me.

Oh, and my new stereo is awesome!!! Makes my car just perfect! I talked to a guy at work last night (he and his girlfriend come in and work on their laptops) and he told me some things to try on my computer to get the wireless thing working. Right now, I'm just happy the external thing works!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[Lbad]

((amy)) Bummer about your computer problems... I am just happy you are on line..
I hope you made some good money with all those customers....
Hooray for music in the car.. I have recently fell in love with my ipod.... while running...

Hope all goes well with your pal getting out of the joint.....

I am off to a meeting..... See ya in the morning....

[Impurrfect]

Okay, so next time I complain that work is slow....smack me upside the head!! We got slammed again last night. Don't know why it will be dead the entire 2nd shift, then about 10 pm EVERYONE comes in. Everyone got fed, though, and no complaints so that's good. Money was good, so that's even better

Don't know if AJ will be coming back to work, after all. I need to call him at a decent hour and tell him to call one of our mgrs. We just hired someone else, but hopefully still can use him, too. Heck, last night I'd have paid him $10 for bussing my tables for an hour, and that would be a raise from his normal pay!

Got home, and no kitties waiting at the door for me. Came inside, and here come all 3, half asleep but wanting treats. It was a beautiful, cool evening. Hope it stays in the 80's for a few days.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[Lbad]

Good Morning and Happy Tuesday

Got up this morning and off to a great start I ran for 60 minutes pretty fast for me and I am not sure how far but I think it was about 6 miles.. I did lots of prayer the first couple miles and was overwhelmed with gratitude that I have everything I need to be OK....just for today. Then I plugged in the ipod and ran like the wind.....

I am off to get ready for work and then right after work I am chairing a woman's mtg... yikes.. lol

((amy)) Good luck to your friend.... lol I was just thinking that you were just talking abut how slow work was and not it is certainly picking up....
Did you get to the tax place yet?
We are having really nice weather here in CA too. Usually it is very hot here but this week only in the 80's...

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[Impurrfect]

(((Lbad)))

I never got to the tax place. I went to one office, it was closed, had a sign to another office, went there, and found another sign. Gave up and decided to just send them a letter, since I have all the documentation but, of course, the printer is now broken. The 2nd office was close to my mom's cemetery, so I went over there. Very beautiful place, about 100 Candadian geese in the pond. I'm going back for her b'day (the 7th) and will be sure to take some food for the geese.

Had another recovery "aha" night. Got slammed again, but had another server helping so it was tolerable. I'm pms'ing so more irritable. My mgr, Lucy, started getting on to me about "get off the clock" and I went off on her. They want me to clean the entire store, but "get off the clock"?

Got in my car, livid. Started thinking about having a talk to my GM and giving him a piece of my mind. Then started thinking about going to my dr. and asking for something for my nerves....huge red flag. So, I finally just said "okay, God, I need some help..I don't know what to do".

Started thinking about how I do like my job, I do like Lucy, getting another job is not easy these days, and how wrong I was. So, I called back to work, talked to Lucy. Told her I'm pms'ing, and apologized for going off on her but explained (very calmly) that they are expecting a lot out of me and I can't do it any faster than I do. She, also apologized and said "it's okay" and I know her well enough to know that it is.

Felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. Cranked up my new stereo and listened to my favorite songs the rest of the way home.

Oh, and they won't let AJ come back to work. I don't agree with it (GM says "you might be arrested again"...well, heck, a lot of things CAN happen to any of us!) but I can't fix it. The best I can do is give him a reference for another job and pray for him.

I was thinking, on the way home, "I can't wait to tell Lbad...she'll be so proud of me!!"..whether you are or not, I'm proud of myself. In the past I would have fretted over this and turned it into a huge resentment. It's just like the situation with "little miss angry"....seemed huge at first, now it's over and everyone is working together.

I'm off the next 2 nights, going to pay some bills, including my car insurance, which I will never forget again!!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[Lbad]

(((amy))) You are a shining star brilliantly shining.... Much luv coming to you!!

[Impurrfect]

awww, Lbad, you make my heart smile

I was talking to a friend on the phone from SR. We were talking about the friends we make here, and how how much they mean to us. Not only do we want to share when GOOD things happen, but we also think twice when we get into that stinkin' thinkin', because we don't want to let our friends down! Of course, we don't need to let OURSELVES down, but it gives a clear-enough head to think things through.

Even when I'm not on SR, I carry my friends here with me. Thanks for being a very good friend, Lbad...you are one of my blessings!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[Lbad]

One of the best parts of getting clean/sober has been making friends.... On line and off... My world was very small before I got clean...... It is very "big" today and I am so grateful for that...

Much Luv,
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[Lbad]

Good Morning and Happy Thursday!!!!


I was thinking this morning about coming to this thread every single day no matter what... It is kind of similar to my recovery program...
I made a decision at one point that I was going to be a member of the "no matter what" club.
With my Higher Powers help I have been able to do it through good times and bad times, lots of people posting, not so many posting, internet going down, server crashes, etc etc etc lol I am grateful for that.

I am grateful that I am blessed to share a positive message about complete recovery from a life of hell on earth... The details (of hell) are rather unimportant I believe.... Those who have been there whether using or loving using people understand what it feels like in your heart and soul...

I am grateful the journey continues and the transformation evolves...

I am grateful today that I know that I know almost nothing..... What a freedom that is... It is so exciting to know that there are lessons and miracles waiting....

One of my favorite lines in the original 12 step recovery book is this admission.... They write at the end, "We realize we know but a little."




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[Impurrfect]

((Lbad))

My favorite song lately is called "no matter what". It's by the hip-hop star, TI, who is going to have to go to prison for guns, but he's been doing community service by talking to kids, explaining that they don't have to make the same mistakes HE did. My favorite lines in the song is "if you're hearts filled with faith then you can't fear" and "people ask how I can face years and keep chillin'...easy, let go and let God deal with it".

I got hold of HP (the computer ones) about my laptop, tried the things they suggested. They said my warranty is out, but are willing to fix it this time for FREE!!! They are going to send me a mail-in box, and I will be without the laptop for a week or so, but I'll live. Seems like I'm on a roll...stereo for free, laptop getting fixed for free...trying to think of anything ELSE I need fixed

Thanks for starting me off on a grateful note...I plan to continue the day in that fashion!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[Lbad]

Good Morning and Happy 4th of July....


I am off to run and I will be back later.
I slept until 7:30AM.... I am stunned! I never get to sleep that late... Yea!!

[Impurrfect]

Happy 4th!!

I will be working tonight and all weekend, and think we will be busy

I tried paring down my computer onto discs....apparently took TOO much off, and had to restore it to get it back on today. So much for trying to do it the cheap way...will have to buy the external hard drive to back it up. Don't want to lose anything.

I slept all night and most of the day, but it's okay because I think I will be rippin' and runnin' tonight. The "kids" are going to the lake today, so they will be tired tonight and they are my other 2 servers.

Stepmom is in a huge depression, Brit is calling her on it, and I'm staying out of it I hate to see anyone sink into a black hole, but she is totally against doing anything about it, and I can't wave a magic wand to fix it. That's a big accomplishment for THIS codie, because I've always thought I should be able to fix everyone and everything!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[Lbad]

((amy)) Have a safe and happy weekeend. I hope you make lots of money.....

Too bad about the computer......

I am glad you are setting boundries with your step-mom..... You will be happier that is for sure...

I had a great run this morning and then went and did laundry.. I have a date tonight and I am intimidated a bit... We shall see how it goes......
I will probably try to hit a meeting at some point too....
I just dropped salsa on the keyboard so that's it for now...

Much Luv,
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[Impurrfect]

keep it up, Lbad, and you'll have computer problems, too!

Good luck on the date! I haven't even GOTTEN to the point of attempting that, yet!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy