Drug Dreams

[Lily]

Does anyone else ever have drug/using dreams? I woke up this morning w/ 92 days clean, after dreaming about searching a friends house for a bottle of vicodin. It is weird cuz in my dreams I give almost no thought to my recovery. I hate that!

Well, I am glad it was just a dream.

[Bear19]

yes !

I am 5 days clean and i had a dream last night that i started using heroin. and I never have used that in the past. it was surreal. i too woke up and was so thankful it was a dream but it was odd.

i read portion of eric Clapton's biography yesterday and there was a part in the book where he says (loose quote) - 'there was a dealer that would bring massive quantities of blow by, but the deal was that you had to take some smack too, so i stored it all in a draw in this room'

my dream was similar so, maybe that's where it came from...dunno

[windysan]

they'll get less frequent

[justanothrdrunk]

I have using dreams.

I've been told while in treatment and by other addiction professionals that it's just a part of recovery. Dreams have nothing to do with my program and how well I'm doing.

[Noah]

Yes I have them. Each time after I wake up I am always thankful that it was a dream. So far I have not pinned down what may cause them. I used to watch that show Intervention a lot and I thought maybe it might have something to do with them, but I have not watched it in a long while and I still have them on occasion Just my 2 cents...

Noah.

[2ala2]

Like someone said they become less and less frequent. For me they were intense up until around 6 months. I would wake up feeling horrible and guilty that i've relapsed. It takes a moment to realize that it was only a dream and I still feel like crap. I would call my sponsor and he would tell me to be grateful that it wasnt real, that this was a glimpse of what my life would be like if I relapse. Dreams are not real! Thank God for that..

[TheCartel]

I used to guage my level of recovery on how much I thought or dreamed about drugs [whether good or bad dreams].

I've since learned that it's normal, and in many cases just the brain processesing and mourning the loss of a behavior it used to be so engaged in.

Keep positive, and don't dwell on them...definitely don't get down on yourself for having them.

Cheers!

[PeachyClean]

Does anyone else ever have drug/using dreams?

Yes. About 2 or 3 every 6 months or so. Eventhough it's been many years since I last used....> they still shake me up a bit. I rarely dwell on them and instead try to use the info as a re-inforcement of what I don't want in my life. It's a huge relief knowing I don't have to "use" or even have the desire to "use".

Keep positive.

[frstnm]

I seem to have them when I am stressed or in another high emotional state.

[emmer]

Hmm ...last night I had a using dream in that I got high in the dream. I was wondering what kind of a high is this? I was strange to say the least.

I have them once every week or so with 70 days clean. I think there perfectly normal,but a pain in the butt yes!

[Lily]

I had another one last night. I used. I relapsed on some pills and i didn't even know what they were. I even remember once again thinking about my recovery and saying, oh, who cares.....basically screw it. I was bummed and filled w/ remorse once again. It was so real I totally thought it was real, so glad I woke up and it was another dream.

I have 95 days today. I am hoping the dreams are less and less.....I know it has been over 17 yrs since I did lines and I never have those dreams anymore....so hopefully the longer I am away from it, the less and less they will come.....

weird though..... Sheila

[Sugah]

frstnm pointed to stress. I find it to be the same - though I go months & months without a using dream. I've probably had one in the last year. Makes sense to me that somewhere in the mind there's a memory of how we used to handle stress, and the mind tosses it up as a viable solution. We know, though, that it's not.

I know a woman with 25 years who says she has a dream about once a year around her anniversary. She welcomes it as a reminder that, regardless of where she is on the path, all that misery is waiting for her if she chooses to pick it back up again.

Peace & Love,
Sugah

[serenityqueen]

I have dreams also when I am going through stressful times in my life,whether it be good stress or bad stress.

When I was early in my Recovery, I was having them nearly every night and it scared the hell out of me. I remember pretty much asking almost everyone who had a fair amt. of time in Recovery what they meant. Everyone gave me a different answer. So apparentally this is an opinion thing.

I've came to the conclusion that when I have a dream, whether I am seeking drugs, have used, trying to keep someone from using that it's because I have my Recovery on my mind so much, not the using!

If I dream I use, it's a reminder that it's always there.

If I dream I'm looking, it's a reminder of the sheer misery that I went through trying to get well just for a few hours, and that it's always there.

If I dream that I am trying to help someone who wants to use, a 12 Step call, it'sa reminder that it's always there.

So, for me, I need to remember, no matter what is going on in my life, it is always there!

Thanks to all for sharing honestly
Judy

[kj3880]

Yes! I've had some really vivid ones that even woke me right up. In the dreams, I'm always looking for my pills, where did I hide them, where, where, WHERE!!! and freaking out about not being able to find them. When I wake up, I am sweaty, and once I even picked up my purse which was next to my bed, and continued to search while awake...luckily, there wasn't anything to find, because it was a minute or so before I remembered that I don't use pain pills anymore...Yeah me!!! In another dream, I am caught by my employer (urinalysis) and fired!!! I'm glad that didn't happen.

kj

[bvaljalo]

I'm ten months out, I still have 'em every couple of weeks. The funny thing about it is, recovery is so ingrained in me at this point that even when I'm dreaming, I'm very aware of the fact that I'm *not* supposed to use. I don't think I've ever actually taken the step of sniffin an OC (my DOC) in my dreams, it's always I decide to have a beer or a line of blow or something like that. Then I start freakin out, even in my dream, that I shouldn't have done it, just going WHY WHY WHY did I blow it like this!!!

One time I remember I had an oxy, I sucked the coating off it like I was gonna do it up, then I was like NO, I can't do this! I stuck it in my pocket and ended up waking up without even doing it.

Dreams are a trip, man... I'm always happy when I wake up from them though, and realize it was just a dream, and I still have my 10+ months

[Tryin2Recover]

i dreamed i had an oxy as big as a house once and couldnt chip any off...it was so frustrating.

[Gemister]

yea ive dreamt many times bout doing lines of coke

[Orele]

I've only had the one and it was a quite a stable point in my life. I dremt about getting the drug. After that the dream was about me and a friend trying to use the drug, but that never happened. Some distraction always stopped us.
I don't think dreams mean that much, so don't worry too much about them. It's just your mind filtering through the crap of the day.