My Final Chance To Make It Through

[Captain Planet]

Hi,

I am 22 years old and a cat addict and at the stage where I cannot quit. I am about to loose my entire life if I dont. House, job, family...

Now the good news is that on 19 February 2008 (9 days ago) I went on a business trip and am still on this business trip in Mozambique (I am a white South African by the way). I cant get my drugs here and am starting to sober up. I am also soo busy here that I havent been depressed and its been realitively easy to stay clean. Thats because I have no choice.

This is my last chance, honestly speaking I cant go without drugs more than a week or until I got money. Now this time I am going to do something very different and I know its going to work. As soon as I get back in SA, I'm going to buy a BMX, (something I done when I was younger) and BMX in my free time. Do big jumps and get into it because its something I really enjoy and keeps me occupied.

This is my final chance, I have already been to rehab once in my life. The best thing is that I have got everything going for me, a good job, earning decent money. Now all I have to do is get into the routine of life.

Thanks for hearing my story and wish me luck!!!!

[windysan]

good luck, man.

[MNGirlyGirl]

You can do this. It is a choice! Best wishes.

[chiynita]

It shouldnt matter..But what is cat?
Your making a good decision. Best of luck.

[JackieG]

Hi Captain Planet

I wish you luck with your plan, maybe it would be a good idea once you get back home to try out a NA meeting. I live in Joburg and honestly meetings are the only thing that keep me relatively sane. Working a program helps me to stay focused on my recovery and do what I need to do in order to stay clean.

CAT seems to be bringing a lot of people into the rooms lately, seems like it's turning into quite a problem in SA.

Good Luck again

[InnerWinner]

I played Tennis, You BMX. They both will do the trick.

[Captain Planet]

Originally Posted by chiynita

It shouldnt matter..But what is cat?
Your making a good decision. Best of luck.

CAT is a substance found in South Africa (I havent seen it anywhere else) which is similiar to cociane. It is a mixture of cold medicines such as effidrene all mixed together to make a powerder substance. Its nortorias for keeping people awake. Take Friday sleep Monday after work kind of substance. It is really terrible because the comedown can last 6 - 10 hours lying awake in bed and watching the sun come up while your heart is going to beat out of your chest.

[Captain Planet]

Originally Posted by windysan

good luck, man.

Thank you, I like your picture on your profile. It looks really weird!! Its day 10 now and still in Mozambique. Tomorrow, Friday I will be going home and Saterday wake up early then go shopping for a nice BMX.

[Captain Planet]

Originally Posted by JackieG

Hi Captain Planet

I wish you luck with your plan, maybe it would be a good idea once you get back home to try out a NA meeting. I live in Joburg and honestly meetings are the only thing that keep me relatively sane. Working a program helps me to stay focused on my recovery and do what I need to do in order to stay clean.

CAT seems to be bringing a lot of people into the rooms lately, seems like it's turning into quite a problem in SA.

Good Luck again

Hi Jackie, thanks for your reply. I want to attend a NA meeting, I have heard about them but dont know where to go. Can you send me the contact details so that I can attend a meeting? I dont mind driving to Joburg if I have to. Thats also part of why I joined this site so that I dont feel alone.

CAT is terrible, the problem is that they are mixing it with all kinds of crap. And its never consistent, take it one day feel good, next time bad. Its taking a big toll in SA, I think is passing coke already.

Where do you stay? What were you addicted to? And please send me the NA meeting details.

Thanks

[Captain Planet]

Originally Posted by InnerWinner

I played Tennis, You BMX. They both will do the trick.

Yes, this is going to do the trick. I am sure of it. You know whats exciting is that this time I am doing something different. Never have I done something different and its at the perfect time, when I get back to SA I will have enough cash to buy a BMX cash, any one I want. And its something I really enjoyed when I was younger.

You see, from Monday to Friday I can stay clean, with a bit of difficulty buts its very possible. FRIDAY at 16:00, I start sweating if I have money, then I just want to party. And I hate it!!!!! Now when Friday comes I can go to the skate park and BMX around. I'm going to also meet new friends their and I know this can keep me occupied cause its something I enjoy

[JackieG]

Hey Captain

I can't post a link here until I have made 15 posts, I usually just lurk and don't post. But if you do a google search for NA South Africa, the official NA site will come up, go on there and you'll find a meeting list. There is also a forum on the site which I find very helpful.

I live in Northcliff and only go to meetings once a week. I go to the Florida NA meeting and then to the AA Meeting thats at the same venue. I'm a single mom and can't send my children to my Mom's more often.

My DOC's are mandrax, crack and heroin. And I've been struggling to stay clean for the last 12 years, before that I used for about 10 years with no desire to stop using. I have had some good, long stretches of clean time but this time round I have almost 3 months. It's a joke really but all I can do is try my best - just one day at a time.

I really do wish you lots of luck and will keep you in my thoughts.

Lots of love
Jackie

[wooforever]

Captain Planet,

What you call CAT we call METH in the States. Do what you can to keep your mind off the drug? Keep reading here and posting whenever you get a chance.

Good luck on your recovery. Take it one day at a time.

[Lily]

CP,

There is life after speed. I was addicted to it from 1985-1990. I do suggest getting into NA though cuz then you can meet others who "get you and where you are coming from" and you have accountablity and when those thoughts to use come along you can say to yourself, no, I can't I have friends there who love and care about me.

Sheila

[Captain Planet]

Hi Jackie,

Thanks for your reply. My stay in Mozambique has been extended to Sunday (02/03/08) so that means I will be clean for 12 days. And I really beleive that I will get through Sunday because I have worked really hard. So then its Monday to Friday which is achievable and weekend go buy my BMX and start going to the skate parks on weekends.

You know the longer I stay clean the more I am realizing that I better stay clean for my own well being. This stuff has really taken a toll on my health, at 22 I am constantly forgetting things and sometimes embarrasing myself, I can diffenetly say that my emotions and the way I feel is not the same. I have a chance, a once in a life time opportunity to really make something good of my life. I have a choice and I choose to live a legacy.

Its really not worth it to snuff it up and feel good for a few minutes and then the rest of ones life falls apart. I want to encourage you to stay clean, and thats easy to say but in the heat of the moment its nearly impossible. The fact is that those few hours of excitement doesnt make up for the future years of pain.

What I find is working for me, and its something I never done. Is find something you really enjoy, many things that are really enjoyable, maybe something active that you really really enjoy and start doing the things you enjoy. Find something to close that gap, I have always said " Now I am quitting, now I quite, never again" And those things will be going through my head night and day until eventually I give in. But I find that if I get something that takes away my attention and keeps me busy then its possible to quit.

Have a nice day and please repy.

Thanks
Matt

[StayinAlive]

Hey Captain, glad to hear you searching for solution and realizing just how critical the need to stop is. Sounds like you have got good kick start to accompany your recovery program. Very Important not to do it alone. Along with the on-line support you will find here, you can search for meeting locations here

Narcotics Anonymous, NA, homepage

Also see about getting an addiction counselor/Doctor if you have access to one. Good luck bro and i want to see pictures of some "big Air"

[TiredMama]

Good luck to you captain and thanks for sharing about cat. I have never heard of it and it is always good in my opinion to know about these things, especially being a mom.