Really Hard Day

[InnerWinner]

I'm feeling so stressed, I am short on breathe, I have so much to do, my parents are nagging me constantly....I have disapointed with my drug abuse/alcohol/gambling. they'll never see me the same way. i feel like garbage. i am ready to run my car into a tree.

[Sugah]

You're right. They'll never see you in the same way. Don't pick up, and as illogical as this sounds, you'll be someone better in their eyes. It's at the point that they find acceptance in what we were that they can appreciate what it took to become who we are.

Peace & Love,
Sugah

[windysan]

Damn, sounds like me back when I was doping. Quit the booze and dope. Get support/help. Begin at the beginning. Good luck !

[ccgirl2]

Is there someone face to face you can call and go see?

[jazpoppy]

InnerWinner;

I LOVE your handle (InnerWinner). You should believe in it! You are a winner! We are all winners, because we are here reaching out for help! I am soooo embarassed that my parents had to find out that I was using. I wanted to curl up and die! My dad is so cool about it, he is the best help. His fiance bothers me sometimes when she doesn't "trust" me (we must earn trust back though). My mom is an active alcoholic so she is VERY mean to me sometimes, and calls me names "junky, dopehead, druggie" even when I am doing my best to stay sober and she is still drinking! I have recently parted ways with her, I will not stay with her (she is recovering from a leg amputation) because she is actively drinking around the clock and compromising my own recovery, so on many sober people's good advice, I moved away. Don't worry, your parents will trust you again. They may be sad and dissappointed now, but they should be supportive of your decision to become sober and eventually will trust you again! Hang in there and don't drive into a tree! I used to think like that too, and life is too good and too precious to kill myself over something that can be handled with care and support!

Luv

Jaz

[MNGirlyGirl]

Your parents may have been disappointed in some of the choices you have made, but they love you more than anything. They are disappointed because they wanted more for you and they can see you are unhappy. you can make the choice to turn it all around. You have a great support network here to do it. Once you are out of the drug/alcohol fog, you would be amazed at how happy you can be.

I can tell by your avatar and moniker that you have it in you to be a winner. That person is still there inside you.

[InnerWinner]

Thanks Jaz and MN I really appreciate your words of encouragement. I was able to get through the day, and I'm feeling a little bit better. Thanks for all those who posted, it feels good knowing there is a network of people out there that care.