My 4th overall thread

[superman1]

I've been on SR for 1 1/2 months, and this is only my 4th overall post. It's because I'm in a really good group therapy...group, so I get to vent once weekly there. And I have kept building upon what I said each previous week.

But in that time span, I've relapsed into weed once. That happened circa January 8th, then I've getting by day-to-day with shake from the bag, and the tiny bits of resin that were left over. Today, I've finally used the last bit of that resin, and I'll throw away my few pieces of paraphernalia. Obviously, my real problem was only with weed. So I'll white-knuckle my urges for the next week as I hopefully get into my court-ordered rehab. Maybe, once there, I can relax at the end of a long day with a hot cup of tea. That tea idea isn't foolproof, but it seems like a sensible idea. Hot tea does relax me physically and ease my mind for at least an hour, much like weed used to.

I haven't had a drink since I started here on SR, and I hardly care. That's because I used to drink 40s, and they would regularly make me mad, before I passed out. But weed seemed to solve my problems for the evening.

Then, last week, a member of my group therapy suggested that the weed makes you "paranoid". That's a side-effect that I never realized, due to my strong personality. But a few days ago, I experienced that effect an hour after a few quick puffs of resin. I'm sure that hot tea doesn't mess with your psyche!

Besides I'm 24, so I'm too old for weed anyway. Maybe I'm finally growing up!

[superman1]

^ whoops. I typed that "this is only my 4th overall post". That's obviously incorrect, because I've made 10 posts, well now my 11th. But overall, this really is my 4th overall thread.

[ccgirl2]

Oh, I was so going to bust you on the overall posts, lol


Hey, relapse happens. You know what I did before my final (I hope) sober date? I had an IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) and I went to it high every day? We all screw up.

[coming_clean]

good luck superman, I hope you can beat it

[superman1]

ccgirl2- You went to that IOP high every day? That seems wild, but I can understand how desperate that seemed. Last year, I'd attend some of my weekly Level II classes after drinking a 40 and/or smoking a bowl. Whenever I did that, it seemed that I had to use in order to feel normal in class. Indeed, it makes the class seem wasteful, even though I was the guy who was actually wasting time.