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miked19018 · 12-26-2007, 05:50 PM

Just trying this out, hoping that another place to talk about my addiction will help me get over these cravings. I really don't want to get high but that wave of cravings is overwhelming at times. Any ideas would be much appreciated! Just got back from a meeting, that helped, hopefully getting on here will help also. Hope to find some sound advice on here. Thanks for listening

newsandi · 12-26-2007, 05:59 PM

Hi and welcome to SR. I was addicted to opiates for over 10 years and have just a little over 2 months clean, if it wasnt for finding this forum and becoming true friends with a lot of these wonderful people, I honestly dont know where I would be today. Can I ask what your drug of choice is and how long you have been clean. It will help us understand what you are going thru and we can support you any way we can. I know that at the beginning of my sobriety, it was a minute by minute thing with the cravings but today, its not even a day to day thing. Maybe once in awhile I will have something happen stressful that makes me think for a minute that I want to get the buzz on, but I would hate myself for that because I have come a long way and I never want to be a slave to a drug again. My whole world revolved around having, finding, taking and taking more every minute of my waking day. I never in a million years thought I would overcome this and I am a success story and I plan to keep it that way. Keep posting. More people will be around soon.

miked19018 · 12-26-2007, 06:11 PM

i have been clean for 6 days, i relapsed after 11 months clean, I have been using oxycontin for about 8-9 years before that it was vicodin and percocet so i've been using opiates for about 12-13 years. i always up for trying something new to help me with my recovery. by the way it's a pleasure to meet you

newsandi · 12-26-2007, 06:21 PM

Nice to meet you too, Mike. It sounds like we both HAD it pretty bad. Hell, congrats on having 11 mos at one time. I have never been more then a couple days. You are so new in your sobriety, this is the toughest times you will have. Which you already know that from your previous clean time. I quit cold turkey and am assuming you did too. I guess the only thing that I can offer is take it minute by minute until you can go to the day at a time thing. I had some serious cravings at the beginning but I honestly dont have them as much now. If you are going to NA, from what everyone says, it works for them. I am in the minority and I dont go but I am here ALL the time. You can build some good friendships here and we share are struggles and problems and our good times too. Just whatever you do, dont pick up. You will hate yourself if you do. Everyday that you dont, it gets easier and you wont be a slave to those evil pills. Just think of the money we save. My God, I spent a lot of money just to function in this world. That is crazy in itself. Glad you came and hope you stay.

miked19018 · 12-26-2007, 06:31 PM

well i went to detox last year for 5 days but they really only gave me muscle relaxers so it was basically cold turkey. man i don't even want to think of how much money i spent on the evil. I don't want to be a slave anymore, i will be coming on here as much as i can and i hope to be talking to you clean and sober for a while to come!

***Impurrfect*** · 12-26-2007, 07:46 PM

Welcome to SR!

I was addicted to crack, so don't have the experience of opiate addiction (although I abused them for a while) but still wanted to say "hi". There are several people on here recovering from opiate addiction.

Sandi's right...this is a great place with some wonderful people. I've got almost 10 months clean after a relapse and SR has been a life-saver.

So, get comfortable, read around the posts and you'll find a lot of new friends.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

**Peter** · 12-26-2007, 08:11 PM

Welcome miked. Good work on the six days. I hope to have you clean and sober for a long time too. You did the right thing going to meetings and logging on here. I find that talking with other people who are trying to stay clean helped me to deal with cravings .

Good luck to you.

miked19018 · 12-27-2007, 12:23 PM

thanks for the support, i think that's what i need the most is support!

mike_mass · 12-27-2007, 12:38 PM

Welcome!

tennchick9598 · 12-27-2007, 02:06 PM

Welcome Mike!!!!! Lots of great folks here, truly nice people!! I beat an opiate addiction and if you want to read my thread its there. Its a hard row to hoe, but I did it, and if I can ANYone can, Im a big weinie!!! LOL, WELCOME

miked19018 · 12-27-2007, 02:54 PM

thanks again seems like alot of nice people on here so far, today was a good day i didn't get high woo hoo.

tennchick9598 · 12-27-2007, 03:02 PM

Hey man, thats a start....... it starts with one step. I got into a frenzy and flushed my beloved pills and called the pharmacy and told them I was addicted and to cancel my scripts (they already knew I was hooked) he congratulated me, and was very nice. There were a few shaky days, with leg cramps, etc..... depression was the worst, (tramadol was my drug of choice) but the point is it DID pass, and i feel GREAT now, despite some really crappy stuff going on in my life, I can handle it, and I am OK!!!! You can do this, you took the first step, you are going to be fine, and you are going to be SOBER

miked19018 · 12-27-2007, 06:53 PM

thanks for the support, i need as much of that as possible right now

**Alera** · 12-27-2007, 07:15 PM

It's good to see you back miked19018. How are you doing today?

Lily · 12-27-2007, 07:55 PM

Welcome Miked! I have found a ton of support on this forum and just sharing has helped a ton! Keep posting!

Sheila

miked19018 · 12-27-2007, 08:02 PM

Thanks i will keep posting it has helped out alot so far! I'm doing good today, it was a sober day so it was a good one!

exjunky · 12-27-2007, 11:53 PM

Best wishes man. I know how hard it is after "only" being hooked for a few years. An opiate addiction longer than 10 years is hard for me to fathom.

That you can quit is an incredible achievement. But don't do it for our praises, or anybody's praises, because that's something you can't always count on. Do it for you.

miked19018 · 12-28-2007, 07:22 AM

thanks ex yea it's hard to fathom that i've been doing it that long, but the major things that i have had problems with were the cravings, i went to detox got out and 2 days later i gave in to the cravings. kinda weak but i got my self some suboxone to help me with the cravings and the withdrawl. so far so good, opiates are a hell of an addiction, but such is life. here's to a sober 08.

exjunky · 12-28-2007, 07:37 AM

When you say you got yourself some suboxone, do you mean from the "black market" (I hate that term) .... or from an MD? Either way is good in my book, but in the longrun a doctor will be cheaper and it's hard to price a price on the benefits of professional experience.

It sort of sounds to me like you just took a little suboxone to get you through the worst part of the WDs and now you're more or less cold-turkey? If you can pull that off, you're a stronger man than I am.

Anyhow best of luck. Let us know what happens, good or bad. Nobody will judge you here.

miked19018 · 12-28-2007, 07:48 AM

a friend of mine gave me 20 8mg his ins pays for his script well most of it i think he pays 30 bucks for 90 of em either way I took a couple to help me through my WD's then i take 1 or 2 when i feel that tsunami aka cravings coming on and they help out ALOT! so far so good. I know one doc wanted $1,000 bucks up front, that scared me off. So I asked my friend to hook me up and he did. They are a great help to my sobriety

exjunky · 12-28-2007, 07:53 AM

Subs damn near saved my life, but listen... if you still take them, and you are feeling fairly "normal", you might be surprised to learn how much of that normalcy is the suboxone component. Even if you haven't taken any in the last day or two it doesn't matter, this stuff sticks to you like glue for days and days.

I suggest you start to take rapidly decreasing doses of subs as you move along, if you feel you need to keep taking it. You will be amazed at how 4mg can make you feel normal just like 16mg used to. Don't think you understand how these pills work just because you've taken every other pill known to man... it's not like any other opiate you've encountered.

miked19018 · 12-28-2007, 08:00 AM

yea i took 2 the other day for my wd then the next day i took 1 for the next 2 days then i've been taking half of one for the cravings if they are real bad a whole one, i'm just glad i was going to go on methadone but i said to myself do i really want to have to be a slave to another drug? HELL NO to me it would be almost the same as when i would get my OC's just that i have to get up and go to a clinic instead of my dealer. and i heard that stuff is hell to kick. i think i went the best route

newsandi · 12-28-2007, 08:13 AM

Hang in there Mike, how many days are you at........... Once you get thru the first week or two you will be fine. It's the mental part to fight. I know some people dont agree with this statement, but I feel if you really want to be and stay clean, really want it with all your heart and soul, you can do it. I want it so bad for so many different reasons that I trully have blocked cravings out of my mind. I dont know if I am just different then everyone else, I am at 2 1/2 months but I dont think about using. Using is not a option, sometimes it worries me that I dont think about using. Sometimes I have to sit and think about when I did use. I dont know, I usually am always in the minority of my ways so I guess in this situation its a good thing. I think having a son that is having a lot of drug/emotional problems just made me "woman up" to getting clean and strong to help him. I couldnt continue to be a emotional basketcase and try to lead him in the right direction if I wasnt going that way too. Whatever the reasons we quit for, we need to keep them close to us thru our sobriety, so we know there is no going back. Just a little on me and how I feel about this whole situation. You are doing good, keep posting and dont pick up.
Your friend,
Sandi

miked19018 · 12-28-2007, 08:20 AM

5 days now. still going, posting on here helps alot and i'm going to a meeting today. it helps alot to get **** off my chest thanks again sandi

tennchick9598 · 12-28-2007, 09:14 AM

that is wicked AWESOME on your 5 days!!!!! You have it beat!! No turning back now, the worst is over, keep posting and aks anything your heart desires, we have all been there, and know what its like

12-26-2007, 05:50 PM	#1 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	New to the forum Just trying this out, hoping that another place to talk about my addiction will help me get over these cravings. I really don't want to get high but that wave of cravings is overwhelming at times. Any ideas would be much appreciated! Just got back from a meeting, that helped, hopefully getting on here will help also. Hope to find some sound advice on here. Thanks for listening

12-26-2007, 07:46 PM	#6 (permalink)
*Impurrfect* Community Greeter Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Atlanta Posts: 5,606	Welcome to SR! I was addicted to crack, so don't have the experience of opiate addiction (although I abused them for a while) but still wanted to say "hi". There are several people on here recovering from opiate addiction. Sandi's right...this is a great place with some wonderful people. I've got almost 10 months clean after a relapse and SR has been a life-saver. So, get comfortable, read around the posts and you'll find a lot of new friends. Hugs and prayers! Amy __________________ "I'm not where I want to be, but thank God I'm not where I used to be" - Joyce Meyer

12-27-2007, 02:06 PM	#10 (permalink)
tennchick9598 Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: TN Posts: 1,376 Blog Entries: 10	Welcome Mike!!!!! Lots of great folks here, truly nice people!! I beat an opiate addiction and if you want to read my thread its there. Its a hard row to hoe, but I did it, and if I can ANYone can, Im a big weinie!!! LOL, WELCOME __________________ Its Better To Have Loved and Lost Then Never To Have Loved At All........

12-27-2007, 03:02 PM	#12 (permalink)
tennchick9598 Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: TN Posts: 1,376 Blog Entries: 10	Hey man, thats a start....... it starts with one step. I got into a frenzy and flushed my beloved pills and called the pharmacy and told them I was addicted and to cancel my scripts (they already knew I was hooked) he congratulated me, and was very nice. There were a few shaky days, with leg cramps, etc..... depression was the worst, (tramadol was my drug of choice) but the point is it DID pass, and i feel GREAT now, despite some really crappy stuff going on in my life, I can handle it, and I am OK!!!! You can do this, you took the first step, you are going to be fine, and you are going to be SOBER __________________ Its Better To Have Loved and Lost Then Never To Have Loved At All........

12-27-2007, 07:15 PM	#14 (permalink)
Alera SR's SMART Goth Mod Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: SoCal Posts: 1,892	It's good to see you back miked19018. How are you doing today? __________________ Copyright © 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008 Alera The addiction will protect itself ... AT ALL COSTS.

12-26-2007, 05:59 PM	#2 (permalink)
newsandi Content with my past Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Cincinnati Ohio Posts: 637	Hi and welcome to SR. I was addicted to opiates for over 10 years and have just a little over 2 months clean, if it wasnt for finding this forum and becoming true friends with a lot of these wonderful people, I honestly dont know where I would be today. Can I ask what your drug of choice is and how long you have been clean. It will help us understand what you are going thru and we can support you any way we can. I know that at the beginning of my sobriety, it was a minute by minute thing with the cravings but today, its not even a day to day thing. Maybe once in awhile I will have something happen stressful that makes me think for a minute that I want to get the buzz on, but I would hate myself for that because I have come a long way and I never want to be a slave to a drug again. My whole world revolved around having, finding, taking and taking more every minute of my waking day. I never in a million years thought I would overcome this and I am a success story and I plan to keep it that way. Keep posting. More people will be around soon.

12-26-2007, 06:11 PM	#3 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	i have been clean for 6 days, i relapsed after 11 months clean, I have been using oxycontin for about 8-9 years before that it was vicodin and percocet so i've been using opiates for about 12-13 years. i always up for trying something new to help me with my recovery. by the way it's a pleasure to meet you

12-26-2007, 06:21 PM	#4 (permalink)
newsandi Content with my past Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Cincinnati Ohio Posts: 637	Nice to meet you too, Mike. It sounds like we both HAD it pretty bad. Hell, congrats on having 11 mos at one time. I have never been more then a couple days. You are so new in your sobriety, this is the toughest times you will have. Which you already know that from your previous clean time. I quit cold turkey and am assuming you did too. I guess the only thing that I can offer is take it minute by minute until you can go to the day at a time thing. I had some serious cravings at the beginning but I honestly dont have them as much now. If you are going to NA, from what everyone says, it works for them. I am in the minority and I dont go but I am here ALL the time. You can build some good friendships here and we share are struggles and problems and our good times too. Just whatever you do, dont pick up. You will hate yourself if you do. Everyday that you dont, it gets easier and you wont be a slave to those evil pills. Just think of the money we save. My God, I spent a lot of money just to function in this world. That is crazy in itself. Glad you came and hope you stay.

12-26-2007, 06:31 PM	#5 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	well i went to detox last year for 5 days but they really only gave me muscle relaxers so it was basically cold turkey. man i don't even want to think of how much money i spent on the evil. I don't want to be a slave anymore, i will be coming on here as much as i can and i hope to be talking to you clean and sober for a while to come!

12-26-2007, 08:11 PM	#7 (permalink)
Peter Moderator Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Leaving Sparta Posts: 2,553	Welcome miked. Good work on the six days. I hope to have you clean and sober for a long time too. You did the right thing going to meetings and logging on here. I find that talking with other people who are trying to stay clean helped me to deal with cravings . Good luck to you.

12-27-2007, 12:23 PM	#8 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	thanks for the support, i think that's what i need the most is support!

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12-27-2007, 02:54 PM	#11 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	thanks again seems like alot of nice people on here so far, today was a good day i didn't get high woo hoo.

12-27-2007, 06:53 PM	#13 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	thanks for the support, i need as much of that as possible right now

12-27-2007, 07:55 PM	#15 (permalink)
Lily Ephesians 2:8 and 9 Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: USA Posts: 1,245 Blog Entries: 2	Welcome Miked! I have found a ton of support on this forum and just sharing has helped a ton! Keep posting! Sheila

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12-27-2007, 08:02 PM	#16 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	Thanks i will keep posting it has helped out alot so far! I'm doing good today, it was a sober day so it was a good one! __________________ "Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town!"

12-27-2007, 11:53 PM	#17 (permalink)
exjunky Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Miami, FL Posts: 602	Best wishes man. I know how hard it is after "only" being hooked for a few years. An opiate addiction longer than 10 years is hard for me to fathom. That you can quit is an incredible achievement. But don't do it for our praises, or anybody's praises, because that's something you can't always count on. Do it for you. __________________ Is addiction a disease, or a choice? Who cares about semantics? If it's a disease, cure thyself. If it's a choice, make the right one.

12-28-2007, 07:22 AM	#18 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	thanks ex yea it's hard to fathom that i've been doing it that long, but the major things that i have had problems with were the cravings, i went to detox got out and 2 days later i gave in to the cravings. kinda weak but i got my self some suboxone to help me with the cravings and the withdrawl. so far so good, opiates are a hell of an addiction, but such is life. here's to a sober 08. __________________ "Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town!"

12-28-2007, 07:37 AM	#19 (permalink)
exjunky Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Miami, FL Posts: 602	When you say you got yourself some suboxone, do you mean from the "black market" (I hate that term) .... or from an MD? Either way is good in my book, but in the longrun a doctor will be cheaper and it's hard to price a price on the benefits of professional experience. It sort of sounds to me like you just took a little suboxone to get you through the worst part of the WDs and now you're more or less cold-turkey? If you can pull that off, you're a stronger man than I am. Anyhow best of luck. Let us know what happens, good or bad. Nobody will judge you here. __________________ Is addiction a disease, or a choice? Who cares about semantics? If it's a disease, cure thyself. If it's a choice, make the right one.

12-28-2007, 07:48 AM	#20 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	a friend of mine gave me 20 8mg his ins pays for his script well most of it i think he pays 30 bucks for 90 of em either way I took a couple to help me through my WD's then i take 1 or 2 when i feel that tsunami aka cravings coming on and they help out ALOT! so far so good. I know one doc wanted $1,000 bucks up front, that scared me off. So I asked my friend to hook me up and he did. They are a great help to my sobriety __________________ "Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town!"

12-28-2007, 07:53 AM	#21 (permalink)
exjunky Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Miami, FL Posts: 602	Subs damn near saved my life, but listen... if you still take them, and you are feeling fairly "normal", you might be surprised to learn how much of that normalcy is the suboxone component. Even if you haven't taken any in the last day or two it doesn't matter, this stuff sticks to you like glue for days and days. I suggest you start to take rapidly decreasing doses of subs as you move along, if you feel you need to keep taking it. You will be amazed at how 4mg can make you feel normal just like 16mg used to. Don't think you understand how these pills work just because you've taken every other pill known to man... it's not like any other opiate you've encountered. __________________ Is addiction a disease, or a choice? Who cares about semantics? If it's a disease, cure thyself. If it's a choice, make the right one.

12-28-2007, 08:00 AM	#22 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	yea i took 2 the other day for my wd then the next day i took 1 for the next 2 days then i've been taking half of one for the cravings if they are real bad a whole one, i'm just glad i was going to go on methadone but i said to myself do i really want to have to be a slave to another drug? HELL NO to me it would be almost the same as when i would get my OC's just that i have to get up and go to a clinic instead of my dealer. and i heard that stuff is hell to kick. i think i went the best route __________________ "Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town!"

12-28-2007, 08:13 AM	#23 (permalink)
newsandi Content with my past Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Cincinnati Ohio Posts: 637	Hang in there Mike, how many days are you at........... Once you get thru the first week or two you will be fine. It's the mental part to fight. I know some people dont agree with this statement, but I feel if you really want to be and stay clean, really want it with all your heart and soul, you can do it. I want it so bad for so many different reasons that I trully have blocked cravings out of my mind. I dont know if I am just different then everyone else, I am at 2 1/2 months but I dont think about using. Using is not a option, sometimes it worries me that I dont think about using. Sometimes I have to sit and think about when I did use. I dont know, I usually am always in the minority of my ways so I guess in this situation its a good thing. I think having a son that is having a lot of drug/emotional problems just made me "woman up" to getting clean and strong to help him. I couldnt continue to be a emotional basketcase and try to lead him in the right direction if I wasnt going that way too. Whatever the reasons we quit for, we need to keep them close to us thru our sobriety, so we know there is no going back. Just a little on me and how I feel about this whole situation. You are doing good, keep posting and dont pick up. Your friend, Sandi

12-28-2007, 08:20 AM	#24 (permalink)
miked19018 Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Slave no more in PA Posts: 29	5 days now. still going, posting on here helps alot and i'm going to a meeting today. it helps alot to get **** off my chest thanks again sandi __________________ "Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town!"

12-28-2007, 09:14 AM	#25 (permalink)
tennchick9598 Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: TN Posts: 1,376 Blog Entries: 10	that is wicked AWESOME on your 5 days!!!!! You have it beat!! No turning back now, the worst is over, keep posting and aks anything your heart desires, we have all been there, and know what its like __________________ Its Better To Have Loved and Lost Then Never To Have Loved At All........

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