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Aa_vark · 10-19-2007, 02:25 AM

Hi all,

Im having a down day.

One of my oldest friends was killed by addiction this past week.

I wasnt able to go to the funeral, but heard that it was quite a party. Seriously, thats what they tell me. I guess its best i wasnt there. i went to a meeting today instead.

Im pretty upset with addiction,

I do not need any more friends dying to prove to me that addiction will kill me if i pick up the first one again.

He was never an IV user when I hung with him.

my using got worse over the years. So did his. Addiction is progressive. Its Fatal.

I wish he would have found his way out of substance abuse, and into recovery.

I'll miss you , Jay.

i would go back and change almost anything to have you alive today, I'm sorry.

2ala2 · 10-19-2007, 04:47 AM

I'm sorry for your friend. I am praying for him.
Nothing you can do will bring him back, but you can save yourself.

**Ann** · 10-19-2007, 05:01 AM

I'm sorry too, Aa_vark, and my prayers go out for Jay and all who loved him.

I too have lost people I love to addiction, some to the disease itself and some to the ultimate end of death. Each time it breaks my heart and each day I pray for the addict who still suffers.

You can carry the legacy of recovery, Aa_vark, to those who need to hear it, all of it including the pain of losing those we love. Let that be your tribute to Jay and all those who have lost the battle, let that be the light of love that will see you through your dark days of sadness for your friend.

Hugs

**Peter** · 10-19-2007, 06:11 AM

I am sorry for your loss.

littlethings · 10-19-2007, 06:55 AM

I am sorry to hear about your loss.

I lost my best friend (she was like my sister since we were 13 years old) when I was 19, she has just turned 18 when she died. She died from a heroin/cocaine overdose and one of her other "friends" left her in her car to die. I was the only person who helped her parents and police figure out who was with her. I gave recorded statements and everything. The cop even told me (i remember so clearly) "You must be this only girls friend cause no one else wants to talk to us at all regarding her case". In turn her parents "thanked" me by not allowing me (or my family) to attend the wake or funeral.

**CarolD** · 10-19-2007, 07:36 AM

I have also lost friends and acquaintances
to addiction. 25 since I found recovery.
Some I had taken to AA with me
but they did not stay.

I am sad to ssee Jay did not live to
find the peace and joy of recovery.

I am sooo sorry for your loss.

**Rowan** · 10-19-2007, 07:57 AM

I'm very sorry for your loss.

northbelle · 10-19-2007, 09:30 AM

That was a beautiful post Vark!!!
I am so sorry..it really hurts ...addiction just freaking HURTS PERIOD!!!!
lotsa love to you
northbelle

Jane63 · 10-19-2007, 09:37 AM

So sorry for your loss AaVark.

~Jane

danib · 10-31-2007, 11:11 AM

sorry, i've been there.

windysan · 10-31-2007, 11:47 AM

sorry to hear it. i lost a buddy not too long ago to dope too. it sucks no matter how you look at it. i've lost a lot of friends to dope. i'm thankful that it didn't kill me.

parentrecovers · 10-31-2007, 12:05 PM

sorry about your friend, aavark. honor him with your recovery. blessings, k

**BigSis** · 10-31-2007, 12:12 PM

So sorry for your loss, Aardvark. Each person marks us... it sounds like he was fortunate to have you in his life.

(((hugs)))

10-19-2007, 02:25 AM	#1 (permalink)
Aa_vark Member Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Specific north left Posts: 456	one less person in this world i cared about Hi all, Im having a down day. One of my oldest friends was killed by addiction this past week. I wasnt able to go to the funeral, but heard that it was quite a party. Seriously, thats what they tell me. I guess its best i wasnt there. i went to a meeting today instead. Im pretty upset with addiction, I do not need any more friends dying to prove to me that addiction will kill me if i pick up the first one again. He was never an IV user when I hung with him. my using got worse over the years. So did his. Addiction is progressive. Its Fatal. I wish he would have found his way out of substance abuse, and into recovery. I'll miss you , Jay. i would go back and change almost anything to have you alive today, I'm sorry.

10-19-2007, 05:01 AM	#3 (permalink)
Ann Sharing Our Light Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: By The Lake Posts: 15,028	I'm sorry too, Aa_vark, and my prayers go out for Jay and all who loved him. I too have lost people I love to addiction, some to the disease itself and some to the ultimate end of death. Each time it breaks my heart and each day I pray for the addict who still suffers. You can carry the legacy of recovery, Aa_vark, to those who need to hear it, all of it including the pain of losing those we love. Let that be your tribute to Jay and all those who have lost the battle, let that be the light of love that will see you through your dark days of sadness for your friend. Hugs __________________ Somewhere between the gator swamp and the Taj Mahal there is a path, it may be hidden, overgrown or may blend in with the other surroundings, but it is there, it's your path and it is calling you.~Frankly~

10-19-2007, 06:55 AM	#5 (permalink)
littlethings Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: New Jersey Posts: 28	I am sorry to hear about your loss. I lost my best friend (she was like my sister since we were 13 years old) when I was 19, she has just turned 18 when she died. She died from a heroin/cocaine overdose and one of her other "friends" left her in her car to die. I was the only person who helped her parents and police figure out who was with her. I gave recorded statements and everything. The cop even told me (i remember so clearly) "You must be this only girls friend cause no one else wants to talk to us at all regarding her case". In turn her parents "thanked" me by not allowing me (or my family) to attend the wake or funeral. __________________ ~It's the little things in life that count~

10-19-2007, 07:36 AM	#6 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 15,187	I have also lost friends and acquaintances to addiction. 25 since I found recovery. Some I had taken to AA with me but they did not stay. I am sad to ssee Jay did not live to find the peace and joy of recovery. I am sooo sorry for your loss. __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

10-19-2007, 09:37 AM	#9 (permalink)
Jane63 Member Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 1,899 Blog Entries: 8	So sorry for your loss AaVark. ~Jane __________________ ~Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all.~ Emily Dickinson Rest In Peace My Sweet Sammy...2-24-08

10-19-2007, 04:47 AM	#2 (permalink)
2ala2 Affiliate Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Cairo Posts: 753	I'm sorry for your friend. I am praying for him. Nothing you can do will bring him back, but you can save yourself.

10-19-2007, 06:11 AM	#4 (permalink)
Peter Moderator Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Leaving Sparta Posts: 2,553	I am sorry for your loss.

10-19-2007, 07:57 AM	#7 (permalink)
Rowan Social Network Moderator Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 8,913	I'm very sorry for your loss.

10-19-2007, 09:30 AM	#8 (permalink)
northbelle Dopeless Hope Fiend Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: anchorage Alaska Posts: 1,674	That was a beautiful post Vark!!! I am so sorry..it really hurts ...addiction just freaking HURTS PERIOD!!!! lotsa love to you northbelle

10-31-2007, 11:11 AM	#10 (permalink)
danib Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Austin TX Posts: 101	sorry, i've been there.

10-31-2007, 11:47 AM	#11 (permalink)
windysan Large Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: La Posts: 3,483	sorry to hear it. i lost a buddy not too long ago to dope too. it sucks no matter how you look at it. i've lost a lot of friends to dope. i'm thankful that it didn't kill me.

10-31-2007, 12:05 PM	#12 (permalink)
parentrecovers Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: USA Posts: 11,845	sorry about your friend, aavark. honor him with your recovery. blessings, k __________________

10-31-2007, 12:12 PM	#13 (permalink)
BigSis On a tear Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Volcano Country! Posts: 3,164	So sorry for your loss, Aardvark. Each person marks us... it sounds like he was fortunate to have you in his life. (((hugs))) __________________ No matter how spoiled the past may be, our future is spotless.... BigSis

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