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10-14-2007, 06:30 AM
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| Recovering Addict  Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Ocean County NJ
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| Another Poetic recovery crap thread. That might save a life.
First of all I should have never gone to cash con---ters in the first place…That’s a place were you sell your worthy possession for cash on the spot…Yes…When I was active I used them on several occasions for fast cash…But that was then…I haven’t been in there in four years…I was going to k-mark to shop instead I went over to cash con---ters...I said let me see what kind of used DJ equipment they might have on sale. My gut recovery reaction is on high level mode…The place smells like drugs…And there is always active abuser in there selling something…I look around nothing there caught my attention….I walk out the store and the township police car is right behind my car…I start walking to my car when I realize am in a handicap parking space…Am handicap from drug abuse but they don’t give out handicap plates for recovery addicts…lol …First offence is a hundred dollar ticket… I run to the police car and I said officer…I said to myself what BS story am I going to come up with to get out of this ticket…You know that your working your program when you can humble yourself and you go over and tell the officer that you are in the wrong…He ask me for my license, registration and insurance card…I said to him that I was deeply sorry for parking there and I will be extremely careful next time I park to look for the handicap signs… He said go have a seat in my car he be right with you…He walks over and hands me back my license, registration and insurance card and said…Since you have a clean license and your honesty through me for a loop for a change… He said have a nice day…No ticket…Yessss…Tell me recovery doesn’t work… As am driving away….I know who sent that officer there…That was my Higher Power saying to me that I had no business at that store and I should know better then that. This is one my character defects I work on in the rooms of NA….Lying through my teeth…Why is it so important to removed this character defect from my life….Because every lie that comes out of my mouth I am one step closer to a relapse…I spent three quarters of my life manipulating and lying…Today I don’t live like that…Thanks to my Higher power and the rooms of NA… If I manipulate and lie in recovery I am setting my self up…Bigtime…When we lie where do you think it goes…Can someone answer that one for me. Thanks Ivan |
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10-14-2007, 06:45 AM
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| Member  Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: "Somewhere in Ohio" ... little joke from past
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"Today I don’t live like that…Thanks to my Higher power and the rooms of NA…" Support and hugs to you .....
__________________ Claudia somewhere distant, the hurricane still spins he rages and destroys, and believes that he wins but here in my world, the tempest far away i rebuild, rejoice and move forward, in halcyon days |
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10-14-2007, 06:56 AM
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A life focused on honesty is less complicated. Why we think we have to be dishonest? I don't know. I'm working on that one too. But I am working on it. Enough to see the value and worthiness of it. Great post.
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10-14-2007, 07:00 AM
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| Recovering Addict Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Ocean County NJ
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Actually windysan.. When I went to k-mart there was a bunch of boys scouts on a donation drive. I made my amends for my mistake by donating a twenty to the drive. I know you don’t get it…The Police was there for a reason as was the boy scouts. Ivan |
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10-14-2007, 07:03 AM
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10-14-2007, 10:27 AM
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I understand what you are saying TB. Call it karma, positive energy or the force. Seems like like things work out good (or bad) for a reason. Recognizing the energy and not needing to have a logical explanation for it seem to work just fine.
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10-14-2007, 07:44 PM
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| Recovering Addict Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Ocean County NJ
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Brewster… It all go’s back to our recovery…The concept of being clean is not restricted to not using… Being clean is a state of mind… It is a conscious choice… It is about keeping our spirits clean as well as not doing drugs in one form or another…When we have these two things in place, the rest follows Not just staying clean…But keeping our minds clean…As I work on my past…The weight on my shoulders are getting lighter and lighter…Its like a computer…The more files you put in to it the slower your computer runs…Remove the files and you get faster, better running computer… Remove the garbage from your past…you get a better running mind...A spiritual awakening of your understanding follows. Ivan |
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10-14-2007, 09:17 PM
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Sometimes we lie because it is easier than telling the truth.
__________________   We are not sure of sorrow, And joy was never sure, Today will die tomorrow, Time stops to no man's lure. - A.C. Swinburne - My son I miss you My son i love you Watch over me my son R.I.P Trey 5/15/06 |
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10-14-2007, 10:41 PM
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10-15-2007, 05:44 AM
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| Recovering Addict Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Ocean County NJ
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Karen…. Living in our self-centered world we were to busy in life with all the negativity…( drugs and alcohol ) to feel our spiritual presence…Not until we got real with our recovery…Then we come to understand that our Higher Power of our understanding was there all the time…Today with lighter shoulders…Clarity in our minds…We stop living lies…Now we can live on life’s terms not ours. Ivan |
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