I am the kind of addict

[Timebuster]

I am the kind of addict that always tried to analyze how it works, and who tried to uncover deeper meanings of our guidelines. During my addiction, I always tried to fill the bottomless void inside of me. I never felt fulfilled, or at peace with myself. I lived a worthless existence that evolved around my selfish self-centered self. Through the course of my recovery, I’ve had the privilege to grasp serenity, purpose, worth, peace, love, and meaning to my human experience. The harmony that I clutched was the grace of a Higher Power, the love of the Fellowship, and the happiness that was created from the awakening of my spirit.

Today I understand the critical magnitude of open-mindedness, love, humility and faith. As I welcomed the spiritual awareness of the connection between existence, and me. Through working on the foundation of my recovery I matured into a spiritual being committed to living amidst the power, strength and inspiration that my Higher Power has provided me. A whole new outlook of myself, my surroundings, my spiritual existence, and my persistence, has replenished that void that I was searching to satisfy in my addiction. The serenity that has poured over me is the vitality that points me in the right direction.

I am still astonished to this day how straight forward this program really is. I have learned through experience that by abiding in the Spiritual Principles of Narcotics Anonymous, I can stay set free from active addiction, selfishness, doubt, fear, false pride, insanity, irresponsibility, chaos, anger, frustration, failure, discontent, weakness, negative thinking, and, most of all, hopelessness

Here’s an action plan that I would suggest on your journey in recovery: First of all, be honest with yourself, your addiction, your character defects and shortcomings. Accept your powerlessness over your addiction. Trust and believe that a Power greater than yourself can set you free from the chaos and despair of active addiction, and extract you from the plunder of hopelessness and insanity.

Surrender to what ever you believe your Higher Power is. Today I call on my Higher Power, and allow Him to guide me and show me the route, the truth, and the luminosity of the emergence of his essence. Live in hopeful expectancy, and by no means give up the new initiative and tranquility that you have integrated into your recovery through the blessing of spiritual growth. Hope for only the best, while surmounting all difficulties ahead, believing in yourself that nothing is unattainable under the hand of a Higher Power.

Peace and Love
Ivan

[Peter]

Thanks again, Time. Once again you hit the bullseye.