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dbaber` · 07-07-2007, 03:04 AM

36 hours... Why does it feel like 36 years? When does my body stop hurting? When will I quit being so damn angry/crying/hating myself... confused... scared. When will I actually grow the balls to go to a real meeting? Hell, I've been in and out of meetings for years but I've never actually worked the steps. Why am I scared to death of my wife going to meetings?

sleepyhead · 07-07-2007, 03:16 AM

You're doing great.Your body will stop hurting hour by hour. One hr. at a time. 36 hrs. is excellent, dbaber. Keep posting.....

Hope · 07-07-2007, 04:49 AM

You only have to go through this once. You don't have to use again unless you choose to. However, you need a program of recovery. Will power won't work.. action is what gets it done.

This is too big for us alone. We need help.

Keep moving forward. Remember the hell you are going through now... don't forget the pain it caused you. Embrace a new life.

Here's to moving forward...

Hope · 07-07-2007, 04:50 AM

Oh, Welcome to SR!

You've taken a great step !

You are not alone in this!!

ccgirl · 07-07-2007, 05:36 AM

Forty eight hours seems to be the turning point. Not perfect, but incrementally you should start to feel, well not so crappy a little, then a litle more.

squirty · 07-07-2007, 07:42 AM

Hey. Congratulations!

What are you detoxing from? Only asking cus withdrawal time is different for different drugs.

Main thing is you doing this and 36 hours is amazing!!!

Hugs, Squirty x

squirty · 07-07-2007, 07:43 AM

Actually it must be nearly 40 hours now right?! Even better... !

ccgirl · 07-07-2007, 09:15 AM

Thanks Squirty. I didn't even think to ask what drug it was. I guess I just assumed opiates because that's my poison.

dbaber` · 07-07-2007, 03:16 PM

Thank you all! 48 hours now, and I still hurt. Emotionally I'm a wreck. 1 Minute depressed the next furious. Got a list of meetings for the day... now if only I'd actually go... I got to... As for which drug meth and H. Thank you all so much. Waking up to this has helped me sooo much... A little hope... something I havent felt in a long time...

ccgirl · 07-07-2007, 04:55 PM

Will this help? I am now 11 days clean of opiates and when I was released from detox I attended my first meeting and spent most of the time in the bathroom um, cleansing my body. So, even if you feel crappy (pun intended) go. You'll get something out of it.

dbaber` · 07-08-2007, 12:44 AM

My wife and I went to a meeting togoether tonight... I left afterwards jonsing worse then ever. And as of now... still sober... I know all meetings are different and I want this too damn bad to let one stop me... Why am I so g.d. angry? I long to lash out at anyone other then my wife... I'm so sorry baby!!! Any insites advice on why I'm pissed? Tomorrow night... a different meeting and god willing another day clean... I say clean because I'm FAR from Sober...

ccgirl · 07-08-2007, 05:21 AM

From what I've heard of long term addicts who have attended meetings for many years, hearing people talk about their addictive selves can be an internal trigger for newly recovering addicts/alcoholics. Maybe try an AA meeting. The message is the same,but if alcohol is not a problem for you maybe it will not make you crave as much, although that's normal in early recovery too.

As far as anger; all part of it, friend. I've heard stories from people at meeting about how angry they were to be there; they didn't need to be there, etc. This too, is probably a w/d symptom. Hang in there, OK? Remember, this is me, only 11 days out, and I can almost reach the end of the tunnel w/d wise. That's not all that far away for you.

sleepyhead · 07-08-2007, 09:27 AM

It took me a full week to feel "normal" after an opiate habit, same for a good friend who kicked a 30 yr. H habit. You're coming up to the halfway mark. Don't worry about the emotions, they change by the minute. You're so close. Keep posting and checking in.

Alycia · 07-08-2007, 11:05 AM

wow, I wish I could be 2 days off methadone! Keep up the good work and keep posting and for meetings, "keep coming back!"

emmer · 07-08-2007, 12:00 PM

Yep i was mega pissed coming off klonopin ....its just the withdrawal....yuk huh.
You can do it to Alycia! You can sweetie.

dbaber` · 07-08-2007, 02:40 PM

I'm not mad this morning... Not yet atleast and for the first time in days I don't want to kill someone. All of this is of course subject to change lol. Plans for today definitly include another meeting and another update at the end of the day. Thank you all...

Hope · 07-08-2007, 02:44 PM

A meeting sounds good.
Thanks for keeping us updated.

Hang in there!

07-07-2007, 03:04 AM	#1 (permalink)
dbaber` Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: Tucson, AZ Posts: 9	Help... 36 hours... Why does it feel like 36 years? When does my body stop hurting? When will I quit being so damn angry/crying/hating myself... confused... scared. When will I actually grow the balls to go to a real meeting? Hell, I've been in and out of meetings for years but I've never actually worked the steps. Why am I scared to death of my wife going to meetings?

07-08-2007, 12:44 AM	#11 (permalink)
dbaber` Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: Tucson, AZ Posts: 9	Finally went to a meeting My wife and I went to a meeting togoether tonight... I left afterwards jonsing worse then ever. And as of now... still sober... I know all meetings are different and I want this too damn bad to let one stop me... Why am I so g.d. angry? I long to lash out at anyone other then my wife... I'm so sorry baby!!! Any insites advice on why I'm pissed? Tomorrow night... a different meeting and god willing another day clean... I say clean because I'm FAR from Sober...

07-08-2007, 11:05 AM	#14 (permalink)
Alycia help123 Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: winona, Mn Posts: 262	wow, I wish I could be 2 days off methadone! Keep up the good work and keep posting and for meetings, "keep coming back!" __________________ Please God grant me salvation, and give me the motivation,to stop using, and quick abusing, my mind, body, and soul.

07-08-2007, 02:40 PM	#16 (permalink)
dbaber` Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: Tucson, AZ Posts: 9	So far so good I'm not mad this morning... Not yet atleast and for the first time in days I don't want to kill someone. All of this is of course subject to change lol. Plans for today definitly include another meeting and another update at the end of the day. Thank you all...

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07-07-2007, 03:16 AM	#2 (permalink)
sleepyhead Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: IL Posts: 66	You're doing great.Your body will stop hurting hour by hour. One hr. at a time. 36 hrs. is excellent, dbaber. Keep posting.....

07-07-2007, 04:49 AM	#3 (permalink)
Hope Getting Better All The Time Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Recovering Posts: 3,211	You only have to go through this once. You don't have to use again unless you choose to. However, you need a program of recovery. Will power won't work.. action is what gets it done. This is too big for us alone. We need help. Keep moving forward. Remember the hell you are going through now... don't forget the pain it caused you. Embrace a new life. Here's to moving forward...

07-07-2007, 04:50 AM	#4 (permalink)
Hope Getting Better All The Time Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Recovering Posts: 3,211	Oh, Welcome to SR! You've taken a great step ! You are not alone in this!!

07-07-2007, 05:36 AM	#5 (permalink)
ccgirl Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Harwich, MA Posts: 2,593	Forty eight hours seems to be the turning point. Not perfect, but incrementally you should start to feel, well not so crappy a little, then a litle more.

07-07-2007, 07:42 AM	#6 (permalink)
squirty Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: London Posts: 376	Hey. Congratulations! What are you detoxing from? Only asking cus withdrawal time is different for different drugs. Main thing is you doing this and 36 hours is amazing!!! Hugs, Squirty x

07-07-2007, 07:43 AM	#7 (permalink)
squirty Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: London Posts: 376	Actually it must be nearly 40 hours now right?! Even better... !

07-07-2007, 09:15 AM	#8 (permalink)
ccgirl Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Harwich, MA Posts: 2,593	Thanks Squirty. I didn't even think to ask what drug it was. I guess I just assumed opiates because that's my poison.

07-07-2007, 03:16 PM	#9 (permalink)
dbaber` Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: Tucson, AZ Posts: 9	Thank you all! 48 hours now, and I still hurt. Emotionally I'm a wreck. 1 Minute depressed the next furious. Got a list of meetings for the day... now if only I'd actually go... I got to... As for which drug meth and H. Thank you all so much. Waking up to this has helped me sooo much... A little hope... something I havent felt in a long time...

07-07-2007, 04:55 PM	#10 (permalink)
ccgirl Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Harwich, MA Posts: 2,593	Will this help? I am now 11 days clean of opiates and when I was released from detox I attended my first meeting and spent most of the time in the bathroom um, cleansing my body. So, even if you feel crappy (pun intended) go. You'll get something out of it.

07-08-2007, 05:21 AM	#12 (permalink)
ccgirl Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Harwich, MA Posts: 2,593	From what I've heard of long term addicts who have attended meetings for many years, hearing people talk about their addictive selves can be an internal trigger for newly recovering addicts/alcoholics. Maybe try an AA meeting. The message is the same,but if alcohol is not a problem for you maybe it will not make you crave as much, although that's normal in early recovery too. As far as anger; all part of it, friend. I've heard stories from people at meeting about how angry they were to be there; they didn't need to be there, etc. This too, is probably a w/d symptom. Hang in there, OK? Remember, this is me, only 11 days out, and I can almost reach the end of the tunnel w/d wise. That's not all that far away for you.

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07-08-2007, 09:27 AM	#13 (permalink)
sleepyhead Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: IL Posts: 66	It took me a full week to feel "normal" after an opiate habit, same for a good friend who kicked a 30 yr. H habit. You're coming up to the halfway mark. Don't worry about the emotions, they change by the minute. You're so close. Keep posting and checking in.

07-08-2007, 12:00 PM	#15 (permalink)
emmer The lion sleeps tonight Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Canada Posts: 1,641	Yep i was mega pissed coming off klonopin ....its just the withdrawal....yuk huh. You can do it to Alycia! You can sweetie.

07-08-2007, 02:44 PM	#17 (permalink)
Hope Getting Better All The Time Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Recovering Posts: 3,211	A meeting sounds good. Thanks for keeping us updated. Hang in there!