Yah!!

[Alycia]

I just got back from the doctor, which took 4 hrs!! I found out my scale is wrong and I gained 50 lbs from 129 to 179, in about 2 months, that is crazy. She is getting me checked for everything, diabeties, my thyroid, and other things I don't remember. I just wish I could get back to what I was, so I could feel tons better. I feel like I am wearing a fat suit or something!! I am so depressed about this, I want to go get high, just to forget the pain!! All the weight is also in my belly so it looks like I am nine months prego. I see ppl looking at me, and I know what they are thinking! I told this one lady that I was prego with triplets, she says, wow u look it! Out of the mouth from adults! yuk! I have too much on my plate, my older boys' dad suicide anniversay is coming up it will be 2 yrs, and my dad's suicide anniversay is coming up also. Maybe all this weight, tiredness and everything is from stress, I hear it can do wicked things! I also have a ultrasound on tues, to see if I have cists in my belly. Well, I hope to feel better. I wasn't again gonna go to a meeting but I have to keep coming back! Thanks guys for listening and have a great wkd! PS I can tell mine is going to be long, cuz my boys' are fighting like crazy, even my 21 month old is!

[historyteach]

(((Alycia)))
Stress can do a number on us.
I gained a ton of weight when I quit smoking cigarettes. It's been over a year and a half now, and I"m working on loosing it now that I'm more secure in my quit.

My thoughts and prayers are with you now as you struggle.

Shalom!