Methadone:A ride Ill never forget:

[cincykid]

Hello everyone,I am new here although I have been lurking for many weeks,my addiction to opiates started out when I was injured very bad at work and I was put on oxycontin,I was on them 3 years when I decided its time to get off,but I was addicted and got very very ill,a friend of mine told me about methadone and how you could detox using it.Big mistake,very BIG mistake,they started me at 30 mg then took me from 30 mg to 150 mg within weeks.I stayed there for seven years,I started swelling with water got pnemonia and was hospitalized,they said it was right heart failure,I had this happen twice,by now I had stopped all daily activities I would eat sleep and take methadone,I have three children 17 is the youngest I missed my children grow up,my wife and I rarely had realations,she could talk I would listen but I would hear nothing,I was in very deep depression gained over 150lbs,my life basically had ended.Sure I thought of suicide over and over thinking death has got to be better than this.I could no longer handle my emotions...I believe methadone had turned me basically into a vegetable,Well my oldest daughter had a baby and once I held her there was new hope,she is beautiful and is what I live for and of course my wife and children.but Marissa inspired me to start a detox,I started October of 2006 I was on 150mg Ive made it too 24mg many times making myself sick to do a drop,im getten ready to move so I put a halt on dropping but im thinken about tryen 23 mg tomorrow,I feel much better but ive got to lose all this weighed which ive already started to do,my wife and I want to live like it used to be,im also dealing with breathing problems but I swear its the methadone causeing all my problems,I have found Trazadone helps with sleep and with depression very well.Im really battleing here not only the sickness but the mental aspect,7 years of this has almost killed me,I fight day and night for somthing that seems so far away...BEWARE to those thinking about starting methadone.....Reasearch very well then research again,our very life may depend on it...Pray for me.

[xjunkie4u]

Thank you for your frank and tragic account of what methadone did to you. I also was on it for many years and know it's horrors. Somo of these horrors seem to have hit you very hard like the weight gain and pnumonia etc. It sounds like your close to getting off it and I encourage you to continue.

[parentrecovers]

prayers to you, cincykid. keep posting, k

[t_a_n_y_a_]

Sorry to hear about what a rough time you've had with it and are continuing to have. Wishing you lots of luck during recovery

[Aducksdelight]

I am sorry to hear of the pain you are going through. Like you, I am a OxyContin addict (though they were never prescribed to me) and I know the torture of detox. I was given the choice to go on methadone but I chose to kick Oxy cold turkey. I am sad to hear that your methadone program has caused you so much pain and trouble. I wish you luck on your recovery!