A new very bad problem

[ABT4LIFE]

I have completly gotten away from my morphine, marijuana and alcohol addiction but the lortab problem is the one I gotta work on now. I was taking a supervised dose but that only will work if I am honest and I have not been as I found many people on the streets that sell them and I have been buying them. I told my mom but not my doctor but I did get him to take me off the lortabs and he put me back on the tordol. I also broke off ties with the people who I bought the pills off of (I just told them I no longer wanted them). My main problem now is being honest with myself and with others I really want to get better and am NEVER gonna give up. I am now in a pain management group for the pains I have and will be getting non narotic treatments that will work if I let them. I am 24 hours completly clean now and hope to continue that way.

[margo]

Hi ABT4LIFE - congrats on 24 hours! I know the honesty thing can be a real struggle but you have made a start and been honest with your mom and right here, which I commend you for. I think you really have the desire, which when it comes down to it is the key to getting clean and staying that way, so keep doing what you're doing and those 24 hours will keep adding up. I think the pain management is a great idea!

[ccgirl]

Keep posting here. It helps a lot.

[butterflylover]

Originally Posted by ABT4LIFE

I have completly gotten away from my morphine, marijuana and alcohol addiction but the lortab problem is the one I gotta work on now. I was taking a supervised dose but that only will work if I am honest and I have not been as I found many people on the streets that sell them and I have been buying them. I told my mom but not my doctor but I did get him to take me off the lortabs and he put me back on the tordol. I also broke off ties with the people who I bought the pills off of (I just told them I no longer wanted them). My main problem now is being honest with myself and with others I really want to get better and am NEVER gonna give up. I am now in a pain management group for the pains I have and will be getting non narotic treatments that will work if I let them. I am 24 hours completly clean now and hope to continue that way.

Congrats on coming this far and for being so honest. You did good by telling your mom the truth, getting rid of the dealers, and telling yor doc to take you off of them. That is a BIG step. Congrats and keep on postin'.

[Biologyteacher]

Hi ABT4LIFE
I hope all is going as well as expected for you right now. I know how hard this is. lortab was my doc too.

Although incredibly skeptical, today I am trying accupuncture for headache relief. My friend is dragging me along to her appointment and I said I'd give it a shot.

[Sugah]

ABT4LIFE, I read the other thread about your decision to take the lortab. I can only offer you my experience.

First, I have multiple chronic pain conditions, and most come with good days and bad. One, though, a neurological condition, is constant. I knew I had to get clean or die, and I had no idea how I would ever be able to live with the pain of this condition, especially after destroying my pain tolerance with opiates (my pain threshold was extremely low by the time I detoxed).

I was treated in rehab by an addictologist who understood my strong desire to get and remain clean. He started me immediately on physical therapy (something the places in my hometown avoided because they didn't understand my condition; with his prescription, I was able to continue it when I got back home) and suggested relaxation and meditation techniques. I was also immersed in program, and I came to believe that, count on, a HP could restore me to sanity. Sanity meant no pills, no other drugs, no more booze.

It took time, it took guts, it took determination, and it took surrender, but for three months, not an opiate or anything else entered my body.

Then at three months clean & sober, I crushed my lower leg. I had no choice. I had to take pain medication and it had to be strong. The moral of the story is that I got my butt to a pain mgmt clinic, only to be told that "methadone is what we use to control pain in addicts" !!!!

I cleaved to my sponsor, threw myself into my meditation, and I got off the small amount of stuff they sent me home with. It was not easy. I won't tell you that it was, but something else happened along the way. My pain tolerance increased because I had little choice: Suck it up or go back to using and die.

I still have pain daily, and when it gets bad, I have had to accept that I have some limitations that some others might not. I rest when I need to rest, exercise when I need to exercise and relax when I need to relax. Life doesn't always like to accomodate me, but having a good, solid spiritual foundation helps.

Take what you want from that. Like I said, it's my experience.

Peace & Love,
Sugah

[ABT4LIFE]

Thanks for the advice, I talked to a few friends (good ones) and they gave me an idea. When I start hurting bad just think of the people who hurt worse and suck it up and keep going, if they can do it I can to, That actually does work. My back was hurting earlier today and I tried that trick and I still made it to therapy and had a great workout and feel great mentally and physically.

[ABT4LIFE]

Another clean day and I am still feeling good. I have come to a conclusion that alot of the pain I felt may have been my addiction saying I need a fix or I will make you hurt. The longer I go clean the pain isn't as bad and getting better.