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mywifeisatpeace · 03-01-2007, 07:37 AM

thanks. the one thing that she wanted to hear the most was that she was beautiful. I told her that this past sunday night before she went to her aa meetings. she started crying and gave me a big kiss because she said that is the ultimate compliment to a woman. much better than "you look hot" she had told me that about a week ago.http://mtf.launch.yahoo.com/default....deo%2F29602233

Lizrox · 03-01-2007, 07:55 AM

My prayers are with you and your family mywife. Please try to be gentle with yourself..

racegirl2448 · 03-01-2007, 10:05 AM

just found out.... sorry to hear what happened. Feel bad that I did not find out until this morning...
prayers & hugz to her family

( if her passing makes only one person think "hey ..maybe it could really be me" and quit using then maybe...just maybe your pain will not be in vein...do not want to upset you in your time of sadness, it was just a thought..)

mywifeisatpeace · 03-01-2007, 03:57 PM

She was so easy to love... and so hard to let go. like the line in the song that goes..."loving you is so easy, and leaving you is so very hard."

ccgirl · 03-01-2007, 03:59 PM

I am so sorry I could just cry.

mywifeisatpeace · 03-01-2007, 04:00 PM

here are the lyrics. except I'm not in jail.

Took too much of this, had too much of that
But with you I never got enough
I thought there'd never be love in my life
And that's sad 'cos when I think what I could've had
It makes me feel so bad

I smoked a lot of sky, I drank a lot of rain
Anything to ease my pain
But now your touch is all it would take
And that's a shame 'cos I can never come home again

And you're a million miles away
I'll never get a chance to hold you
So my message is the wind
I pray that it gets through to you

Loving you was so easy
And leaving you was so very hard
And now I'm living in this ocean of blue
In the corner of a prison yard I should have listened to you
Now you´re a million miles away
I never get a chance to hold you

mywifeisatpeace · 03-02-2007, 05:25 AM

here is a recent picture of how she was doing. she was proud of this pic. she did clean up well. such a big heart.

emmer · 03-05-2007, 08:53 PM

I am also so very sorry for your loss.

denise75 · 03-07-2007, 02:24 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by mywifeisatpeace

at least she died at home instead of out on the streets. and our daughter slept with her last night. so at least if she had to die she died with her loved ones with her. and thank god that she died being a mother rather than not being there for our daughter. I will miss her always and it is hard to type when I can't see the keyboard because of teary eyes.

sorry,i know your pain .i lost my husband 6 mo ago.of 15 yrs. to drugs.iam also recovering cotten head. i also have 3 kids. god bless you and daughter.iknow your pain. denise75

bigDora24 · 03-09-2007, 06:32 PM

i know what your going through. i was personally addicted to crystal meth. i've been sober for two years and till now i still get cravings for it. and horrible nightmares of it. but these online chats with other people who are going throughthe same things as my self have really helped. like this on soberrecovery or addicted.com. i dont like going to group meetings because i hate seeing these former addcits just like myself and i cant just walk out of the room whenever i feel like its too much. online i can really do that and im very proud of my self. these past two years have been very tough but hopefully with the help of god and the faith i have in myself i'll make it through for life.

bigDora24 · 03-09-2007, 06:34 PM

i know what your going through. i was personally addicted to crystal meth. i've been sober for two years and till now i still get cravings for it. and horrible nightmares of it. but these online chats with other people who are going throughthe same things as my self have really helped. like this on soberrecovery or addicted.com. i dont like going to group meetings because i hate seeing these former addcits just like myself and i cant just walk out of the room whenever i feel like its too much. online i can really do that and im very proud of my self. these past two years have been very tough but hopefully with the help of god and the faith i have in myself i'll make it through for life.

teke · 03-09-2007, 06:38 PM

just want to chime in to say that you and your daughter are still in my prayers, i'm so sorry

ayla zaire · 03-09-2007, 06:42 PM

how are you, mywife? you are still in my prayers...

AcristicatAngel · 03-10-2007, 11:56 AM

Hi MWIAP ~

I, too, am so very sorry for your loss and your daugther's... Your wife was a beautiful woman from the pictures you've posted. If that's your daughter in the pic, she looks like she had her mother's eyes. I feel your pain and my heart breaks for you both, and the rest of your extended family and friends. I am new here and only because I found this site that my best friend was on for the past 3 months. Her name was Acristicat and she passed away the same day your wife did, I believe. I notified all of her wonderful "friends" here just last Friday. I haven't read all of Cat's posts, but I now wonder if they ever supported each other, or at least talked through SR. I found the most incredible people here that I've ever had the priveledge of meeting on-line and have found such comfort, peace, and love here. I hope you continue to post and take in all the love that everyone shares for your wife.

I see you're from Southbridge, MA???? I've lived on the Cape for almost 20 years now, but my husband took a job in Sutton, MA, and we lived up there for 3 years, from 1999 until 2002. My 3 kids played soccer in Southbridge (or against) all the time!!!! Smaller world then I ever imagined, isn't it?

I just wanted to take the time to pass on my heartfelt condolences to you and your daughter and let you know that we are thinking of you and that you will be in our hearts forever...

Please take care of yourself and your beautiful daughter!

Love to you both ~ AcristicatsAngel (M.A.)

mywifeisatpeace · 03-10-2007, 03:12 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AcristicatAngel

Hi MWIAP ~

I, too, am so very sorry for your loss and your daugther's... Your wife was a beautiful woman from the pictures you've posted. If that's your daughter in the pic, she looks like she had her mother's eyes. I feel your pain and my heart breaks for you both, and the rest of your extended family and friends. I am new here and only because I found this site that my best friend was on for the past 3 months. Her name was Acristicat and she passed away the same day your wife did, I believe. I notified all of her wonderful "friends" here just last Friday. I haven't read all of Cat's posts, but I now wonder if they ever supported each other, or at least talked through SR. I found the most incredible people here that I've ever had the priveledge of meeting on-line and have found such comfort, peace, and love here. I hope you continue to post and take in all the love that everyone shares for your wife.

I see you're from Southbridge, MA???? I've lived on the Cape for almost 20 years now, but my husband took a job in Sutton, MA, and we lived up there for 3 years, from 1999 until 2002. My 3 kids played soccer in Southbridge (or against) all the time!!!! Smaller world then I ever imagined, isn't it?

I just wanted to take the time to pass on my heartfelt condolences to you and your daughter and let you know that we are thinking of you and that you will be in our hearts forever...

Please take care of yourself and your beautiful daughter!

Love to you both ~ AcristicatsAngel (M.A.)

HI. yeah it's the same southbridge. thankyou. it's amazing how quick life changes. hope you are doing better.

ccgirl · 03-12-2007, 06:12 PM

How are you holding up?

mywifeisatpeace · 03-13-2007, 06:49 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ccgirl

How are you holding up?

I have a sad moment every now and then but good for the most part thanks.

formergolf99 · 03-29-2007, 01:52 PM

Damn! So sad to read this thread....she is a very lovely women.

mywifeisatpeace · 04-05-2007, 04:20 PM

since the pics were permanantly deleted from the other section I thought I'd post this one again. I love this pic.

racegirl2448 · 04-05-2007, 11:59 PM

The photo is just AWESOME!!!! What a cute family....your wife (god rest her soul) was just beautiful. Your daughter is just so freaking adorable that I wanna reach through the screen and pinch those cheeks....LOL
I do not mean to hurt you in anyway by saying this but..... ya know when you see couples together and they just do not look like they "fit" together? Well... when I saw this photo you and her seem to compliment each other and look like you "fit"...look happy and full of love & life.
I hope you and the little one are doing well...... as much as can be expected at this time. How is your daughter? You are an adult and although this situation must have been hell for you....I can not imagine how it is for a child. Is she ok....?

mywifeisatpeace · 04-06-2007, 06:43 AM

thank you. our daughter is doing ok. she calls mom "mommy angel" now. she draws pics of her at headstart. we have gone up to the cemetery a few times to see where she is and our daughter wrote her some letters and left them on her grave. greeneyes3902 had that something special to her, and one of the things that I remember about her was that she either liked you alot, or she hated you alot. there was no in between. I told her 2 days before she died that she was beautiful and it made her cry. i alwys called her pretty,or hot or a cutie... but she said that being called beautiful was special. a few days before she died I was holding her like you would hold a baby, you know legs off the ground chest to chest. and she said that it felt wonderful and she could see why babies like to be held like that and to never let her down because it felt so comfortable. I held her for a few minutes and she was just so at peace and relaxed. she was a size 1 so she was not heavy. i am glad that we had those special moments.

mywifeisatpeace · 04-08-2007, 04:54 PM

WELL i JUST GOT BACK FROM greeneyes3902 mom's house. we went there for easter dinner. we all gathered together at the cemetery first. we stayed for a few mins because it was windy and cold..we all left her a poem with all our signatures on it. this is the first family gathering that we have gone to without greeneyes3902 being there. her sister was there also. she looks alot like greeneyes3902 and she has alot of her little quirks and actions that she always makes me smile because she reminds me so much of greeneyes3902. we had a good time all things considered.

hope3 · 04-08-2007, 06:45 PM

God bless you and your family on this Easter Sunday.

I'm glad you have family to spend this holiday with.

My heart and prayers go out to you, hope3

mywifeisatpeace · 05-12-2007, 07:08 AM

mothers day will suck this year for my daughter. we are going to the cemetery tomorrow and leave a few things that my daughter made for greeneyes3902. I know that i will break down when I go there because I always do. happy mothers day to the rest of you.

**Done-With-It** · 05-13-2007, 10:57 AM

I'm sorry, please know we are with you all in spirit. Let us know how you are doing.

03-09-2007, 06:32 PM	#35 (permalink)
bigDora24 Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: fresno, ca Posts: 2	i know.... i know what your going through. i was personally addicted to crystal meth. i've been sober for two years and till now i still get cravings for it. and horrible nightmares of it. but these online chats with other people who are going throughthe same things as my self have really helped. like this on soberrecovery or addicted.com. i dont like going to group meetings because i hate seeing these former addcits just like myself and i cant just walk out of the room whenever i feel like its too much. online i can really do that and im very proud of my self. these past two years have been very tough but hopefully with the help of god and the faith i have in myself i'll make it through for life.

03-09-2007, 06:38 PM	#37 (permalink)
teke grateful rca Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: hidden between states Posts: 3,427	just want to chime in to say that you and your daughter are still in my prayers, i'm so sorry __________________ GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I

03-10-2007, 11:56 AM	#39 (permalink)
AcristicatAngel Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Cape Cod, MA Posts: 18	So beautiful, so sad..... Hi MWIAP ~ I, too, am so very sorry for your loss and your daugther's... Your wife was a beautiful woman from the pictures you've posted. If that's your daughter in the pic, she looks like she had her mother's eyes. I feel your pain and my heart breaks for you both, and the rest of your extended family and friends. I am new here and only because I found this site that my best friend was on for the past 3 months. Her name was Acristicat and she passed away the same day your wife did, I believe. I notified all of her wonderful "friends" here just last Friday. I haven't read all of Cat's posts, but I now wonder if they ever supported each other, or at least talked through SR. I found the most incredible people here that I've ever had the priveledge of meeting on-line and have found such comfort, peace, and love here. I hope you continue to post and take in all the love that everyone shares for your wife. I see you're from Southbridge, MA???? I've lived on the Cape for almost 20 years now, but my husband took a job in Sutton, MA, and we lived up there for 3 years, from 1999 until 2002. My 3 kids played soccer in Southbridge (or against) all the time!!!! Smaller world then I ever imagined, isn't it? I just wanted to take the time to pass on my heartfelt condolences to you and your daughter and let you know that we are thinking of you and that you will be in our hearts forever... Please take care of yourself and your beautiful daughter! Love to you both ~ AcristicatsAngel (M.A.)

04-08-2007, 06:45 PM	#48 (permalink)
hope3 Hope3 Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, NY Posts: 2,023	God bless you and your family on this Easter Sunday. I'm glad you have family to spend this holiday with. My heart and prayers go out to you, hope3 __________________ If I focus on the solutions, the problems won't seem impossible!

05-13-2007, 10:57 AM	#50 (permalink)
Done-With-It InAButtonKindOfWay. Seriously? Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Hollywood Posts: 8,250 Blog Entries: 15	I'm sorry, please know we are with you all in spirit. Let us know how you are doing. __________________ Living in fast forward Hollywood RockStar outta control Need to rewind real slow Alwys Runin Time to take control Oh yeah ...

03-01-2007, 07:37 AM	#26 (permalink)
mywifeisatpeace Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: southbridge Posts: 83	thanks. the one thing that she wanted to hear the most was that she was beautiful. I told her that this past sunday night before she went to her aa meetings. she started crying and gave me a big kiss because she said that is the ultimate compliment to a woman. much better than "you look hot" she had told me that about a week ago.http://mtf.launch.yahoo.com/default....deo%2F29602233

03-01-2007, 07:55 AM	#27 (permalink)
Lizrox Member Join Date: Jul 2006 Posts: 513	My prayers are with you and your family mywife. Please try to be gentle with yourself..

03-01-2007, 10:05 AM	#28 (permalink)
racegirl2448 Goin'....Goin'....Gone! Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: planet earth ( I think...) Posts: 342	just found out.... sorry to hear what happened. Feel bad that I did not find out until this morning... prayers & hugz to her family ( if her passing makes only one person think "hey ..maybe it could really be me" and quit using then maybe...just maybe your pain will not be in vein...do not want to upset you in your time of sadness, it was just a thought..)

03-01-2007, 03:57 PM	#29 (permalink)
mywifeisatpeace Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: southbridge Posts: 83	She was so easy to love... and so hard to let go. like the line in the song that goes..."loving you is so easy, and leaving you is so very hard."

03-01-2007, 03:59 PM	#30 (permalink)
ccgirl Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Harwich, MA Posts: 2,593	I am so sorry I could just cry.

03-01-2007, 04:00 PM	#31 (permalink)
mywifeisatpeace Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: southbridge Posts: 83	here are the lyrics. except I'm not in jail. Took too much of this, had too much of that But with you I never got enough I thought there'd never be love in my life And that's sad 'cos when I think what I could've had It makes me feel so bad I smoked a lot of sky, I drank a lot of rain Anything to ease my pain But now your touch is all it would take And that's a shame 'cos I can never come home again And you're a million miles away I'll never get a chance to hold you So my message is the wind I pray that it gets through to you Loving you was so easy And leaving you was so very hard And now I'm living in this ocean of blue In the corner of a prison yard I should have listened to you Now you´re a million miles away I never get a chance to hold you

03-05-2007, 08:53 PM	#33 (permalink)
emmer The lion sleeps tonight Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Canada Posts: 1,641	I am also so very sorry for your loss.

03-09-2007, 06:34 PM	#36 (permalink)
bigDora24 Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: fresno, ca Posts: 2	i know what your going through. i was personally addicted to crystal meth. i've been sober for two years and till now i still get cravings for it. and horrible nightmares of it. but these online chats with other people who are going throughthe same things as my self have really helped. like this on soberrecovery or addicted.com. i dont like going to group meetings because i hate seeing these former addcits just like myself and i cant just walk out of the room whenever i feel like its too much. online i can really do that and im very proud of my self. these past two years have been very tough but hopefully with the help of god and the faith i have in myself i'll make it through for life.

03-09-2007, 06:42 PM	#38 (permalink)
ayla zaire Member Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: pass the bon bons Posts: 2,364	how are you, mywife? you are still in my prayers...

03-12-2007, 06:12 PM	#41 (permalink)
ccgirl Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Harwich, MA Posts: 2,593	How are you holding up?

03-29-2007, 01:52 PM	#43 (permalink)
formergolf99 Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Washington, D.C. Posts: 123	Damn! So sad to read this thread....she is a very lovely women.

04-05-2007, 11:59 PM	#45 (permalink)
racegirl2448 Goin'....Goin'....Gone! Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: planet earth ( I think...) Posts: 342	The photo is just AWESOME!!!! What a cute family....your wife (god rest her soul) was just beautiful. Your daughter is just so freaking adorable that I wanna reach through the screen and pinch those cheeks....LOL I do not mean to hurt you in anyway by saying this but..... ya know when you see couples together and they just do not look like they "fit" together? Well... when I saw this photo you and her seem to compliment each other and look like you "fit"...look happy and full of love & life. I hope you and the little one are doing well...... as much as can be expected at this time. How is your daughter? You are an adult and although this situation must have been hell for you....I can not imagine how it is for a child. Is she ok....?

04-06-2007, 06:43 AM	#46 (permalink)
mywifeisatpeace Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: southbridge Posts: 83	thank you. our daughter is doing ok. she calls mom "mommy angel" now. she draws pics of her at headstart. we have gone up to the cemetery a few times to see where she is and our daughter wrote her some letters and left them on her grave. greeneyes3902 had that something special to her, and one of the things that I remember about her was that she either liked you alot, or she hated you alot. there was no in between. I told her 2 days before she died that she was beautiful and it made her cry. i alwys called her pretty,or hot or a cutie... but she said that being called beautiful was special. a few days before she died I was holding her like you would hold a baby, you know legs off the ground chest to chest. and she said that it felt wonderful and she could see why babies like to be held like that and to never let her down because it felt so comfortable. I held her for a few minutes and she was just so at peace and relaxed. she was a size 1 so she was not heavy. i am glad that we had those special moments.

04-08-2007, 04:54 PM	#47 (permalink)
mywifeisatpeace Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: southbridge Posts: 83	WELL i JUST GOT BACK FROM greeneyes3902 mom's house. we went there for easter dinner. we all gathered together at the cemetery first. we stayed for a few mins because it was windy and cold..we all left her a poem with all our signatures on it. this is the first family gathering that we have gone to without greeneyes3902 being there. her sister was there also. she looks alot like greeneyes3902 and she has alot of her little quirks and actions that she always makes me smile because she reminds me so much of greeneyes3902. we had a good time all things considered.

05-12-2007, 07:08 AM	#49 (permalink)
mywifeisatpeace Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: southbridge Posts: 83	mothers day will suck this year for my daughter. we are going to the cemetery tomorrow and leave a few things that my daughter made for greeneyes3902. I know that i will break down when I go there because I always do. happy mothers day to the rest of you.