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nomad1985 · 02-24-2007, 05:17 PM

Hello again, my name is Nomad, and it has been 35 days since the first time I stopped using. Thanks to everyone who helped me when I first got on this website a week ago. Since then I have seen a substance abuse counselor, a pyschiatrist, told my permanent physician that I had a problem with darvocet for a year and most importantly, told my mother. Neither criticized me or put me down for the mistake I had made.

The emotional stress of going through withdrawal, guilt and anger, and regret, all while trying to finish my last semester of a biomedical degree has been extremely taxing. However, all of the people I went to for help have done just that, and they have given me the power to fight through the pain I am feeling.

I know it hasn't been very long since I stopped, and that I'm still going through the depression and anxiety that comes with my brain repairing itself, but I know that I will never abuse drugs (including EVERYTHING) again.

The pain they have caused me seemed at one point too great for me to bear and the struggle is STILL not over. I can never go back, because if I do, I will never be able to stop again and I will lose everything.

I continue to fight on, because I can beat this.

Nomad

ccgirl · 02-24-2007, 06:27 PM

Well done.

Missymae737 · 02-24-2007, 06:55 PM

Hi Nomad,

It is great to see you here again.

You have a determined will for recovery.

I know it is hard right now, but the rewards are many.
You can do this!

Sunflower · 02-24-2007, 06:56 PM

Hang in there---you are worth it..

spark-o-cet · 02-24-2007, 09:22 PM

right on brother,keep up the fight man wish i could do as you.good luck-spark

Ten Chips Down · 02-24-2007, 09:54 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by nomad1985

I continue to fight on, because I can beat this.

Nomad

Excellent lad, excellent

Thank you for posting this!!

northbelle · 02-24-2007, 10:12 PM

Right on..just be careful..never say never.
We really have to check outselves one day at a time.
This disease is cunning baffling and powerful and it is also very PATIENT..
I wish you the best on your future !! Sounds pretty bright!!
love north

StagebearNJ · 02-25-2007, 07:28 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by nomad1985

I know that I will never abuse drugs (including EVERYTHING) again.

I have been on this path since 1984. I have had two detours along the way, but have been mostly sober. I have learned not to say "never" (as north alluded to). This does not give me permission to use in the future, it acknowledges that I only have today. But, I admire your resolve not to use. That's a great foundation.
One step away from an AA slogan, I remain your humble servant,
Da Stagebear

babygetoboy · 02-25-2007, 11:55 AM

Damn, I didn't even know darvocets were addicting

02-24-2007, 05:17 PM	#1 (permalink)
nomad1985 Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Texas Posts: 22	My continuing saga... Hello again, my name is Nomad, and it has been 35 days since the first time I stopped using. Thanks to everyone who helped me when I first got on this website a week ago. Since then I have seen a substance abuse counselor, a pyschiatrist, told my permanent physician that I had a problem with darvocet for a year and most importantly, told my mother. Neither criticized me or put me down for the mistake I had made. The emotional stress of going through withdrawal, guilt and anger, and regret, all while trying to finish my last semester of a biomedical degree has been extremely taxing. However, all of the people I went to for help have done just that, and they have given me the power to fight through the pain I am feeling. I know it hasn't been very long since I stopped, and that I'm still going through the depression and anxiety that comes with my brain repairing itself, but I know that I will never abuse drugs (including EVERYTHING) again. The pain they have caused me seemed at one point too great for me to bear and the struggle is STILL not over. I can never go back, because if I do, I will never be able to stop again and I will lose everything. I continue to fight on, because I can beat this. Nomad

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