Fatigue anyone???? or is it depression???

[northbelle]

I just can't "get it together".
I have not been looking for a job or cleaning the house.
The laundry pile is huge.
I need to look for a job,,,and I am just really down and tired. i started Zoloft about a week ago. No change. I just keep going to the meeting and staying sober and I hope that this will change. I MAKE myself get out of the house but it isn't easy. Should I be feeling this down? Anyone else ever been here? It makes me want to use just to feel better. I mean I sure don't wnat to feel this crummy all the time. You think it is just the disease of addiction, depression??? What the heck..I am sick of it.
I go out and take a walk and come home and take a nap. Don't feel like eating...Didn't even have it in me to get the kid out the door to school this morning. I am very very LONELY!!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH..
Thanx for letting me share my stuff. Hope I don't trigger anyone. I just had to say how I felt to someone who cares..
love north

[Ten Chips Down]

Yup, I care. I'm delighted to see you actually began an AD!

Don't let anyone spook you off it -- they are the greatest things to have happened to me, believe it.

Are you on the usual starting regimen of 50 mg? Or did the doctor start you at 100 mg? Just curious--they're both effective!

However, one week isn't nearly long enough to see results. Give it another and you might start to notice a lil' change.

Give it four to six weeks and you'll definitely know if it's gonna work.

I went to Celexa only months ago and its effects are downright miraculous. Not trying to hype antidepressants. But I am being honest with my personal experience.

The fact is I was spared much grief coming off Klonopin because I had a good, established level of Celexa (couple of months) in my system at that time. Oh it was quite rough-going but there was never any of the "bereavement" they sometimes talk about, or any other overwhelming down-times. Ha!

"I have not been looking for a job or cleaning the house. The laundry pile is huge. I need to look for a job,,,and I am just really down and tired."

North looking for frickin' employment is the bigget frickin' headache I've ever had in my life, barring being an addict. Ha! And cleaning the house? That's the PITS when you're not in a... well, a hey, everyody! i know what! let, why let's go start cleaning house!! yes! yes! lol

You are very strong. You've got a young kid, you've got the felony rap, you're my age (lol), you're out of work, and you're to handle ALL THAT smack in the middle of young recovery. Feeling blah and unmotivated are VERY natural--I feel the "unmotivated" part all time. (I'm almost immune anymore to feeling really depressed. Hey--I'm just saying how it is for me.) But you are my hero.

Again, you got the brain-damage to deal with (usually short-term of course)... often some kind of bodily damage to deal with... Your nerves are all thoe'd off kilter. Your danged feelings are all of sudden something with a mind of their own.

Girl it ain't easy but it's worth it.

"You think it is just the disease of addiction, depression???"

Oh of course. Depression is land which comes... right along with addiction's territory lol. Totally natural and short-lived. Since all of this sh*t is temporary, natural, and only for a relative "day," it is incumbent up you to out-last it. This means packing on the days, man. Doing the same today that you did yesterday--of which most important is not using. Cave in and it's won again. And it's going to kick your butt if you let it win.

"I am very very LONELY!!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH.."

Aww. But that's my life theme-song you can't have it. lol Listen now. You give that Z some time, eh? You'll be all right. When you become as happy as I, you won't be able to keep it in. You may even live to irritate others. In a sober state! Now THAT'S livin' large. (big smile)

Hugs,
Ten

[northbelle]

Hey ten!
THANK YOU..I really needed that. I will read it again in the morning for inspiration.
YOU ROCK!!
Maybe I will be alright. I know you are right. Sometimes it just seems so EASY for some people. They quit using and feel good. I , on the other hand, am NOT one of them!! It is rough sometimes for me. And as long as I know I am not alone in this ..I can keep going.
love north

[northbelle]

Oh , i take 50 mgs of zoloft. It worked in the past when I had two years clean. When I first got clean from heroin. I am definitely not giving up hope on the meds. Darn right I have brain damage!!LOL
love north

[leeside]

Many times I was in such a position and it looks like I could have many more yet and I would have liked to hear someone say to stick it out. So I am going to say to you to "stick it out", because I have and I have been glad I did and you'll be glad you did.