Welcome to SR...
Great to have you here. I hope that you stick around..
I understand your frustration. The problem is that, there are so many people out there that want to get on suboxone and so few doctors that prescribe it.
Have you done a search on the internet for all the doctors in your area, and the surrounding areas that prescribe sub? There is a site on the net that does list doctors according to state. I believe it's a government website. That would be a good place to start.
Keep going to those meetings, and if you can, go to more meetings. You said you were in recovery for 3 years before, that's wonderful,,
were you using NA as a support system then? You can do this,, I know those cravings are tough, but remember that,, that's just what they are, cravings. When you have one, get up and do something, or type here at SR, something to change what you are thinking about.