To everyone addicted to Oxy's there is hope!

[jnell291]

I recently just got off oxycontin. I will tell you a little of my story.
I started oxycontin with my bofriend a couple of years ago and thought it was no big deal. I did it because i get anxiety and it kind of made that go away. ( the medication I was on never really helped!) Well two years and about $10,000 later my life flashed before my eyes.

I had everything! I was 22 years old with a job making $1,000 a week and an awesome relationship at the beginning. We started out just doing them for fun but it turned into an everyday need. After a while if we didn't have them we would get sick.(Dope Sick)! So we kept buying them just to make it through work. I had to work and so did he! So even though we wanted to quit we would get so sick we would just go get another pill. Or we would get some methadone or suboxones from a friend but as soon as those ran out there we were snorting another pill. ( by the way i just thought about it I can BREATH!)
I became really depressed after this past summer I didn't really do much anymore. I slept, worked, and snorted pills in the bathroom at work. I can't say we didn't ever have fun but it was just fun being High not a fun that is self induced by a positive life. So this winter I lost my job, it actually had nothing to do with the drugs, but not making a thousand dollars a week really put a damper on my ability to buy pills. So I stopped paying rent,bills, etc. We left our home to stay with a friend while I was starting my new job. Mind you I had always lived on my own since 17 and have never asked for a dollar from anyone. Well my friend turned out to to be using oxy's and cocaine together. Now just what we needed huh? Well that lasted about 3 days. I ended up in a huge fight with my best-friend since I was thirteen over some drugs! Now we don't speak. That day with our clothes and three cats in the car we drove to tennessee from Ohio. I knew if we didn't get away from all of our friends and that atmosphere we were going to loose the little we had left! So that was it we used the last of our money to get here and there was no way we were getting any pills. Well we went through 10 days of pure death. I really thought I was going to die! I slept,ate, drank water and the only thing that helped at all was an herb called valarian! It actually just relaxes you a little. So after 10 days of death, (yes it was hell),I awoke a new person and haven't turned back! I feel like me again! I actually started going to church and I feel like there is so much we( me and my boyfriend), are going to accomplish now! Just being able to get back to me the real me is going to be so awesome. I can go work out again and return to my old hobbies and little things I used to like to do! There is a life past drugs and I am just getting into it but I feel better than ever!
There is hope and you can get through it I did! Pray Pray Pray!

[Phinneas]

Originally Posted by jnell291

There is a life past drugs and I am just getting into it but I feel better than ever!
There is hope and you can get through it I did! Pray Pray Pray!

Awesome, jnell! Thanks for sharing your experience and hope with us.

Keep up the positive life. It does keep on getting better and better!

[Ten Chips Down]

I'm so happy you made this separate entry.

I strongly keyed in on your post in Katie's thread and made a reply.

But never hit Submit, for I thought it a bit flippant an entry for that thread. You know. That's her thread. Here was the post, and I need to use a quote of yours from there. lol

Originally Posted by jnell291

My boyfriend and I are recently recovering from oxycontin abuse witch is like heroin. Now that is a detox!

I said:

Tell me about it! Don't have personal experience with the Oxy but do with Xanax & Klonopin. As I understand it, opiates & benzos have a lock on the worst to withdraw from.

Actually, I've heard the nod given to benzos because they say that you kick the other and you're done, PAWS not withstanding of course. But the benzo w/d can linger longer, so they say the worst is benzos--but you know--the worst is whatever the hell YOU have to endure at the moment.

Finally, there is a detox worse than either of those and it's coming off them both simultaneously. Said to be roughly akin to having your face ground off with a sand blaster.

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Jnell, you've an inspiring story of recovery set in motion. I hope you hold on and never let go. Ten days is one helluva long time, longer than I thought it took.

Yeah - welcome aboard - good narrative, too.

Ten

[LIL_Pebbles]

Welcome to SR

wow, amazing...thank you for sharing, i will lookinto that herb too. i have sniffed percocete for about 2 years str8 for the exception of 2 weks in 11/06 and on and off...i was crushing oxy cottin slow realses, i would roll it up in paper and take a hammer to it to relaese those lil realeses, put the poweder on my tounge wash it down w/ coffee, well one day i took too much and stated to nodd, i never did nodd, i felt my breathing get slow and that fliped me out, thank God. I started sniffing pills (percocete) from hearing about hill billy high, that is what you were doing, very addicting i think more than just washing them down...tens days wow, wished i could do that, On a taper for two weeks one that i did not mess up once, i felt as if i was loosing my mind, as my CNS got used to 7.5mgs i went and used....now? in batle again, while i search daily for a doctor as new ones are added for treatment on suboxone, i can get this pill on the street, but it has to be done under doctors and why? if not the dose and time lengh has to be right to make a perfect recovery...

[Ten Chips Down]

Thank you so much for sharing your struggles and I am sorry for not spotting this earlier. All caught up in my own suffering, my own world, I just never caught your story.

It truly puts things into perspective when we do this. It makes a board. But it also shows us each and every one that we are not alone with the raw challenge of getting and staying clean, whatever our DOC might be! See my siggie, it says it all.

Thanks again.

Ten

[racegirl2448]

[quote=LIL_Pebbles;1180407]Welcome to SR

I started sniffing pills (percocete) from hearing about hill billy high, that is what you were doing, very addicting i think more than just washing them down... [ quote= Lil_Pebbles]


I guess everyone is different cuz me personally I get more off taking my 40 Oxy and chewing it. I had 5mg percocet caps last month for breakthrough pain and tried sniffing for a few days... did not do much. Tried sniffing 1/2 of my 40mg a few times felt no difference actually I felt like I got more from chewing it. OH-WELL.... to each his own.
I start a new job Monday....will be cutting back on taking my meds instead of 3 a day like I am suppossed to I am gonna only take 2 and see how it goes. I will take my dose before work and another dose when I get home. Maybe I will actually have pills left over when I get my re-fill....that would be nice. I wish I did not have cronic pain then I would not need to take anything but life delt me with the medical problem and I got no choice right now. Just gotta cut down to the least amount that I need to control my pain.

[scarlettt]

I can relate, jnell.
I began using oxy regularly a year and a half ago to take the edge of coke. Though I had been doing blow for years, soon it had replaced it as my D.O.C. (I didn't stop coke all together, I would still party with it.... but OC's definately took over the realm of the drug I used on a daily basis)

When I first started I could get high off a mere quarter of an 80, by the time I recently stopped 9/10 days ago... I was snorting up to two 80's at one time.
This was in addition to still using coke, ketamine, Loris (Lortab 10's), Z bars (Xanax) blah...blah..blah...

Oxy is basically synthetic heroin.
It's potency when snorted or injected is comparable to that of morphine.
I too was snorting pills in the bathroom at work, or locked dirty public restrooms late at night after meeting w/ my dealer, because I couldn't wait until I made it home.
I had 6 dealers numbers programmed into my phone on speed dial, basically my whole day/night revolved around it. Everything else in my life was secondary, and I'm amazed I ever got anything done at all. I've spent thousands just in the last year alone.

I have found oxy more difficult to stop using than ANY of the other drugs I was taking...and some of them, I used for yeeeeears. Drugs have been such a focal point of my life for such a long time, if it wasn't for Soboxan and Clonidine, I'm not certain I could have stopped.

Though it's only been a short time that I've been clean and free, I already feel so different. I see things in a completely different way than I did just a month ago...

[Johneebegood]

The last time I did an oxy I shot up 10 40's in about 2 hours.. almost died.. That was in 2004... then I started mixing them with meth and coke and shooting that cocktail from hell.. It is only by the Grace of God I survived ...
There is a good life.... I found it

[LIL_Pebbles]

I'm going to try and stop using, see how long i can go without a pill, while i have plenty of them, b/f hold them...i am tired of seeing these pills, and tapering for me is a long slow agony, i am fine for 6 hours out of a day, if i can't do the CT, it is back to the taper, till i get a doctor for suboxone, but it is a drug that is pricey, my insure. in most they do not take it, then i tell them i will pay cash, cause my pill bill was high when using, why not use it to get out of this hole? meantime, i am not wanting for the sliver cloud, time is not on my side anymore and the party is over, cravings are here, but i can state i am too tired of ******* up and do it all over again...i will post my story once i am balanced...oh and wheni tell mostof the receptionists i will pay, they turn me down, come back and tell me the doctor is not talking anymore patients, this was 4 doctors! same bullshit! fact, no drama fact.

[LIL_Pebbles]

[quote=racegirl2448;1180804]

Originally Posted by LIL_Pebbles

Welcome to SR

I started sniffing pills (percocete) from hearing about hill billy high, that is what you were doing, very addicting i think more than just washing them down... [ quote= Lil_Pebbles]


I guess everyone is different cuz me personally I get more off taking my 40 Oxy and chewing it. I had 5mg percocet caps last month for breakthrough pain and tried sniffing for a few days... did not do much. Tried sniffing 1/2 of my 40mg a few times felt no difference actually I felt like I got more from chewing it. OH-WELL.... to each his own.
I start a new job Monday....will be cutting back on taking my meds instead of 3 a day like I am suppossed to I am gonna only take 2 and see how it goes. I will take my dose before work and another dose when I get home. Maybe I will actually have pills left over when I get my re-fill....that would be nice. I wish I did not have cronic pain then I would not need to take anything but life delt me with the medical problem and I got no choice right now. Just gotta cut down to the least amount that I need to control my pain.

The first time i sniffed it was a 10 mg oxy cottin, fast realease, from there i crushed and sniffed. i chwed them, i hammerd them all for the excption of IV using...I'm happy you did not get high whenyou crushed and sniffed it, it is very addicting, very and why cause it is instant gratification, i mean i would be barley awak in the am and take this crap like coffee, it would wake me up and calm me down, a nervous person and hyper by nature you see, this pill i had thugh was the perfect fix has ruinied my life for almost three years and i will still crave it, i have used and cried like a damn baby, i am very sick in addiction, i know i need to go into the hosp. i know i need a rehab program in and outpatient, it is a matter of time where i get there, i am almost there...being a agraphobic is not easy to explain, if you ever seen the movie "copy Cat" with S. Weaver in it a woman who can't leave her home while a serial killer is out to killing again and after her, there is a part in the movie where she opens her door, he is inside her home, she can't leave her home the hallway turns upside down, it gets that bad, i can leave w/ ppl i trust and then i can not travel far, i used to travel far and work on horses, i ended up escaping through them, horses that had to be re-trained ect...I can go on and on...keeping my mind off using, cravings come and go and i fight em, feels good that i have not caved inn, that i have some will power and anger at this drug....