I sometimes hate Sunday nights

[elsa]

Well here it is Sunday night again and I am struggling to see how I am going to make it through the week again. I know I am supposed to just deal with one day at a time, but I can't seem to help myself. Between work, family, home, child, husband, boss I am feeling very overwhelmed. I can't see getting through tonight let alone the next 5 days. I need to call my sponsor but I am struggling with the energy to even do that. I just want to feel physically well enough as well as mentally and emotionally well enough to get my daughter off to school, get showered and dressed for work, drive to work and begin my day. Why do I feel this way? How can I talk myself into doing it? Does anyone else feel this overwhelmed with life in general?

Elise

[mikiglen]

most of the time
have you ever read my threads?
you just do what you have to do. one foot in front of the other, one task at a time
get out of the bed
check
stumble to the coffee pot
check
get in shower
check
wake up kids
check
and on and on
one thing at a time
as you jump each hurdle, you will get stronger and more determined to make the next one
pm me anytime

[brians]

Good idea Mikiglen. Call your sponsor Elise. Keep posting you are helping yourself and others. Mothers in this program are remarkable. Home; children and work. WOW! God bless them!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kj0975]

I also hate Sunday nights. I have never been able to sleep on Sundays and for some reason I always get a pit in my stomach. Dont know what it is about these Sundays. You have alot on your plate and I know it gets hard sometimes. I think we all fantasize about how great pills made us feel. The problem is they also made our lives unmanageable which is why we chose to stop in the first place. I feel you though I do it too. I am the queen of relapse and I cant say it wont happen again. All I can do it put one foot in front of the other. Today is over and I made it again. Hopefully tomorrow I can say the same thing. Just one minute one sencond one day at a time. You will get through it!

[Bozo]

Originally Posted by elsa

Well here it is Sunday night again and I am struggling to see how I am going to make it through the week again. I know I am supposed to just deal with one day at a time, but I can't seem to help myself. Between work, family, home, child, husband, boss I am feeling very overwhelmed. I can't see getting through tonight let alone the next 5 days. I need to call my sponsor but I am struggling with the energy to even do that. I just want to feel physically well enough as well as mentally and emotionally well enough to get my daughter off to school, get showered and dressed for work, drive to work and begin my day. Why do I feel this way? How can I talk myself into doing it? Does anyone else feel this overwhelmed with life in general?

Elise

I am easily overwhelmed when under a tremendous amount of pressure, I just have to try to change my way of thinking about it and somehow, someway find an optimistic outlook.

Life is difficult, no doubt about it. Zoloft has helped somewhat with the feelings of being overwhelmed, when I am in your situation, the first thing I do is slow down, easy does it. Good luck this too shall pass.

[ccgirl]

Elsa, I used to feel the same way. Do you work outside the home M-F? If so, do you hate your job? That could be one issue. You also sound depressed. Just take one step at a time and do your own personal best. It's all you have. I hope you feel better soon.

[mikiglen]

another thing i do, like i've mentioned, is when i am in a bad place, i just shut my mind down
i consciously make an effort to stop thinking altogether (it's not that hard, lol). i switch to autopilot. instead of looking at the dirty bottles, and i need to work, and the baby is fussing, and i want a pill, and how am i gonna make it, and can i call my doctor (sense the frenzy building up?)...i shut my mind down
i look at the task i am doing (i have gone to it on autopilot), and simply wash the bottles, don't think. when it's done, i shuffle over to baby and pick him up (coo to him, but don't think). when he's quiet, i sit down to work. i make one call and think only about that one call. when it's done, hang up. next call.
sometimes i can go without thinking for hours, sometimes just minutes before i have to shut it down again.
i hope this makes some sort of sense

[Sugah]

Misti's last post is very, very important for those of us who have a tendency to "spin." The "one day at a time," as it's been explained to me, is an emotional thing. And it can be broken down as small as we need to. Emotionally, we can only deal with the present -- right now, not tomorrow, not next week. Easier said than done sometimes.

But with practice, we get better at it. By doing what needs to be done and getting through it in one piece, we have successes behind us to remind us that it can be done. Will be done. And we can do it.

Also...when you call your sponsor, please remember you're helping her as much (sometimes more) than she's helping you.

Peace & Love,
Sugah