My Story.

[Juana]

Hallo everybody, I am Marianna, an addict, from Greece. I am clean for 16 months counting, after a few relapses. I wanted, but I couldn't surrender... My relapses were very short, with no physical consequences, but still very painfull... They helped me see that I can't control drugs, I can't control alcohol, I do not know everything, I need to learn to listen.... I need to learn to feel and be honest... oh, God, honest!!
My story is similar to many other stories... I ended up living on derelict houses and on the streets for 4 whole years, ended up half paralyzed, 35 kilos, dying... And got help just cause I couldn't resist it anymore... Since that day my life has changed completely...
I would be a liar if I said I am in love with life, with myself or with anybody else. I would be a liar if I said things are pink. And about racognizing, accepting feelings and that... well, seems I need some time!!!
BUT I have a job, the first proper job in my life. I recently rent a flat. I do services, I have friends, I have fun... a relationship that is mutual and balanced, a sponsor that I feel lucky for... I have self-respect, dignity... I believe, I have hope and faith (who? me!) and I have that feeling there's so much more ahead...
I am grateful I am not alone anymore! Thank you all!