Just Completed My First Fifth Step...... - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Squizz · 04-06-2012, 01:37 PM

And I feel strangely confident. I don't feel like such a bad person. Thankfully, I have a great sponsor, who walked me through it. I guess what this has taught me, is that I'm not a bad person. I'm just a sick person. I shared everything I felt bad about, and my sponsor simply said: "Matt, you haven't told me anything out of the ordinary. You're just like me and anyone else in AA."

More than anything though, those feelings of "terminal uniqueness" have already started to subside. For the first time, I feel like a true member of Alcoholics Anonymous, and not an outsider looking in.

I'm not stupid enough to say I'll never drink again. But I will say this much: If I keep doing what I'm doing, and work through the remainder of the steps, and practice AA's principles in all my affairs..........I'll never have to drink or do drugs again.

Thank you SR, and thanks to all the wonderful people of Alcoholics Anonymous.

It's only taken six years of going in and out, but I finally feel as if I can move forward with the rest of the program, and help other alcoholics in the process.

I have never felt this secure in myself, or in my recovery as I do right now. And I owe it all to you people. Thank you.

langkah · 04-06-2012, 02:01 PM

Excellent, Squizz. Great to hear this.

heath480 · 04-06-2012, 02:11 PM

Good news squizz,wish you well on your journey in recovery.

Tommyh · 04-06-2012, 05:08 PM

thats great!
best wishes on your journey

Squizz · 04-06-2012, 07:36 PM

Thank you for the kind replies. At tonight's meeting, I didn't feel out of place one bit. I actually felt like I belonged there. And it felt great, I gotta' admit.

stairs · 04-06-2012, 07:58 PM

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Squizz: I'm not stupid enough to say I'll never drink again. But I will say this much: If I keep doing what I'm doing, and work through the remainder of the steps, and practice AA's principles in all my affairs..........I'll never have to drink or do drugs again.

This is so good to read, Squizz. Thank you for posting it!

Gottalife · 04-13-2012, 03:23 AM

Nice post Squizz. Describes my experience exactly. About this time I began to feel the presence of my HP (God) for the first time. As I read page 75 I began to realise that what the book was telling me was true, and it inspired me to carry on with the rest of the steps with a new faith and enthusiasm. You are going to walk through that arch a free man! Ain't it great?

04-06-2012, 01:37 PM	#1 (permalink)
Squizz Member Join Date: Feb 2010 Posts: 404 Blog Entries: 3	Just Completed My First Fifth Step...... And I feel strangely confident. I don't feel like such a bad person. Thankfully, I have a great sponsor, who walked me through it. I guess what this has taught me, is that I'm not a bad person. I'm just a sick person. I shared everything I felt bad about, and my sponsor simply said: "Matt, you haven't told me anything out of the ordinary. You're just like me and anyone else in AA." More than anything though, those feelings of "terminal uniqueness" have already started to subside. For the first time, I feel like a true member of Alcoholics Anonymous, and not an outsider looking in. I'm not stupid enough to say I'll never drink again. But I will say this much: If I keep doing what I'm doing, and work through the remainder of the steps, and practice AA's principles in all my affairs..........I'll never have to drink or do drugs again. Thank you SR, and thanks to all the wonderful people of Alcoholics Anonymous. It's only taken six years of going in and out, but I finally feel as if I can move forward with the rest of the program, and help other alcoholics in the process. I have never felt this secure in myself, or in my recovery as I do right now. And I owe it all to you people. Thank you. __________________ "if youre a shy geek who needs advice on talking to hot babes without getting nervous then a hunk like me can teach you, dont resort to boozing" -Anonymous "My drug? Proving people wrong." -Bernard Hopkins

04-06-2012, 02:11 PM	#3 (permalink)
heath480 AA member Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: United Kingdom. Posts: 1,655	Good news squizz,wish you well on your journey in recovery. __________________ Sobriety Date 23rd May 2003. Sobriety delivers everything Alcohol promised.

04-06-2012, 07:36 PM	#5 (permalink)
Squizz Member Join Date: Feb 2010 Posts: 404 Blog Entries: 3	Thank you for the kind replies. At tonight's meeting, I didn't feel out of place one bit. I actually felt like I belonged there. And it felt great, I gotta' admit. __________________ "if youre a shy geek who needs advice on talking to hot babes without getting nervous then a hunk like me can teach you, dont resort to boozing" -Anonymous "My drug? Proving people wrong." -Bernard Hopkins

04-13-2012, 03:23 AM	#7 (permalink)
Gottalife AA MEMBER Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: New Zealand Posts: 594	Nice post Squizz. Describes my experience exactly. About this time I began to feel the presence of my HP (God) for the first time. As I read page 75 I began to realise that what the book was telling me was true, and it inspired me to carry on with the rest of the steps with a new faith and enthusiasm. You are going to walk through that arch a free man! Ain't it great? __________________ God bless, Mike. It is in the trying that we succeed All BB quotes from 1st Edition.

04-06-2012, 02:01 PM	#2 (permalink)
langkah Member Join Date: Oct 2011 Posts: 1,141	Excellent, Squizz. Great to hear this.

04-06-2012, 05:08 PM	#4 (permalink)
Tommyh Member Join Date: Mar 2003 Posts: 18,977	thats great! best wishes on your journey

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