dsmaxis10

I;m totally powerless over drinking and my life unmanageable. I"m coming home back to AA. Haven"t been to a meeting since July. Gonna sit at first step table. I had four years sober in AA and relapsed because I quit helping others for the last year and a half of the four years. I did complete all my amends but I rested on my laurels and headed towards four years of relapsing habitually.

sg1970

Welcome back

aasharon90

Welcome back as you continue to
listen, learn, absorb and apply to
your life and recovery, building a
strong solid foundation to live upon
as you move forward.

stevieg46

Well done you know the score and what to do and what not to do .

Stevie recovered 12 03 2006

Gottalife

So glad to hear that dsm. Come join us in the fellowship of the spirit.

tomsteve

good on ya!! very glad and greatful you made it back!

August252015

Glad you are back! Make it your last time.

48heath

Welcome back home.

wildchild69

Welcome back! Thanks for posting. Doesn't matter how many times we fall down, it's how many times we get back up......but let's just get back up and stay up.....I'm done falling down!

Berrybean

So, so glad you made it back. Keep all the legs of the stool firmly in place. Recovery. Unity. Service. You can do this.

BB

dsmaxis10

I went to my first meeting since July don't think I had a chance to get threw the day sober without some unity with fellow alcoholics.

Mountainmanbob

You remind me of me for I also stopped going to AA and helping others and also forgot to be grateful for my sobriety and then returned to my old evil ways.
Welcome back.
M-Bob

dsmaxis10

Day 2 Have you ever planned this is gonna be your last drink and go out for a week or two. That's what happened to me I drank an IPA for the first time and it was gonna be my last drunk. But it hooked me on Ale for a week. I didn't think I could get a day I went to my second meeting in six months and said I'm gonna go to a meeting everyday why not I'm on disability nothing much to do anyways isolate myself that's the norm. Well at night the cravings were out of control I couldn't take it so I dropped to my knees and cried out to GOD and the cravings went away. So that's what I'm gonna do now go to a meeting and pray on my knees. Well I need to get some numbers to talk to people know I wasn't delivered from alcoholism GOD gave me Grace to get threw the day. Gonna start looking for a sponsor get some numbers and see if I can identify with someone. I know it's day two but I cried after I went to the liquor store by my house to buy a pop and just bought a pop. Alcohol looked different like poison. It's like what the hell was I thinking the last four years insanity. Speaking of insanity we did step 2 meeting I went to today. Well I want to be restored to sanity it's not gonna happen sitting at home consulting alone with an idiot.

dsmaxis10

Day two it got hard at night I was about to give in. Then George called me and we did some meditations together and I felt a lot better.

tomsteve

"Have you ever planned this is gonna be your last drink and go out for a week or two?"

only a few hundred times
until i surrendered and got into the action of recovery.

dsmaxis10

Day three got some numbers made some calls,

BixBees505

Dsmaxis...we are pulling for you, and you can do this. Glad you are breaking out of the isolation. So important!

dsmaxis10

Woke up like a crazed madman wanting to to drink but God had better plans. 2:45 am can't buy ale thank God. 4 Days getting a sponsor today.

PhoenixJ

Prayers to you

dsmaxis10

Couldn"t make it to my home group well it's my home group now. Schizophrenia real bad today thank God I can draw on past mistakes. This will pass so that's great. Physical cravings are gone but I"m worried about the mental obsession lasting a long time. I know Dr. Bob had cravings real bad for two and a half years. Stayed sober by getting involved in AA service. Well I'm mentally ill but I can chair meetings and make coffee. I did that for two years at my favorite group when I first started out. The format is we would start at the front of the book and pick words and do connectors page to page. I got one in two years these four people new there big book three still sober six years later one dead. He's the only person to come in and say he had a danny old time on Saint Patty's day. R.I .P. Steve . Anyways S.O.S. is gonna be my home group it stands for share our strength.