Step 1 - Kat - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Kat4184 · 01-25-2012, 09:46 PM

We admitted we were powerless over alcohol -that our lives had become unmanageable.

My name is Kat, I'm 30 years old and I'm an alcoholic, and yes, my life has become unmanagable. To me the word unmanagable means that my life isn't my own anymore. I feel like I've been kind of floating along on this run away ride. I feel like I haven't been in control of my life for quite some time. A really, really, really long time. I want my life back. I want my spirit back. I want to be happy without being dependent on something else that is a temporary happiness (or seems to be while we're high). I want to be o.k. without drinking, and I know that I am powerless over alcohol. Everytime that I have thought that I could keep myself in check - EVERY. SINGLE. TIME., I have been proved wrong, and something horrible has happened. I have disrespected myself and those around me, and I want to be in control of myself. I don't like feeling out of control. It's a scary place to be. The only thing that I can do in order to be in control of my life is to quit drinking. If I continue to go about my life in this way, I will lose everything. Alcohol will take over and continue it's tight grip on me, and I will LOSE EVERYTHING. I have way too much at stake to have that be a possibility. I'm ready to be strong and happy again.

Kat

Sapling · 01-26-2012, 02:31 AM

What are your feelings about step 2?

Kat4184 · 01-26-2012, 11:13 AM

My feelings about step 2 are that it gives me hope. By myself, I am powerless... we've already witnessed that on multiple occassions. While I haven't always believed in "God", I have come accross spirituality a few years back, and it was strong. I don't think I'm ready for step 2, but I am ready to start exploring and feeling it.

susanlauren · 01-26-2012, 03:33 PM

Kat,
Step one is the PROBLEM. There is no hope or solution in powerlessness and unmanageability. Are you going to AA? Do you have a sponsor? Do you have someone who can take you through the steps? The solution is found in the remaining eleven steps of AA's twelve step program. Recovery works best when we have an experienced guide to help us on our journey. I found a sponsor was indispensable to working the AA program.
Susan

silkylock · 02-14-2012, 03:22 PM

Step1. When I've learned that my unmanagability came from repeating those same addictive behaviors; expecting different results. I began to recognize my powerlessness. So i surrendered, I surrendered my thought, my feelings and obsessions all for a new way of looking at life. Now that i've done this, I recognize that even with out a drink or a drug. I could be whipped up in a mentally obsession that only and act of providence can remove from me. This is bigger than the drink and the drug.

sugarbear1 · 02-14-2012, 07:05 PM

The steps, as written, are a summary or overview of what we did as we worked the 12 steps. susanlauren said it quite well.

Welcome! Glad you are here!!

01-25-2012, 09:46 PM	#1 (permalink)
Kat4184 Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Posts: 85	Step 1 - Kat We admitted we were powerless over alcohol -that our lives had become unmanageable. My name is Kat, I'm 30 years old and I'm an alcoholic, and yes, my life has become unmanagable. To me the word unmanagable means that my life isn't my own anymore. I feel like I've been kind of floating along on this run away ride. I feel like I haven't been in control of my life for quite some time. A really, really, really long time. I want my life back. I want my spirit back. I want to be happy without being dependent on something else that is a temporary happiness (or seems to be while we're high). I want to be o.k. without drinking, and I know that I am powerless over alcohol. Everytime that I have thought that I could keep myself in check - EVERY. SINGLE. TIME., I have been proved wrong, and something horrible has happened. I have disrespected myself and those around me, and I want to be in control of myself. I don't like feeling out of control. It's a scary place to be. The only thing that I can do in order to be in control of my life is to quit drinking. If I continue to go about my life in this way, I will lose everything. Alcohol will take over and continue it's tight grip on me, and I will LOSE EVERYTHING. I have way too much at stake to have that be a possibility. I'm ready to be strong and happy again. Kat

02-14-2012, 07:05 PM	#6 (permalink)
sugarbear1 ~sb Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: MD Posts: 9,754	The steps, as written, are a summary or overview of what we did as we worked the 12 steps. susanlauren said it quite well. Welcome! Glad you are here!! __________________ Someday everything will all make sense. For now, laugh at confusion, smile through tears, & remind yourself that everything happens for a reason. All Big Book quotes are from the first edition. Linked with the permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

01-26-2012, 02:31 AM	#2 (permalink)
Sapling AA Member Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Between Meetings Posts: 9,004	What are your feelings about step 2?

01-26-2012, 11:13 AM	#3 (permalink)
Kat4184 Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Posts: 85	My feelings about step 2 are that it gives me hope. By myself, I am powerless... we've already witnessed that on multiple occassions. While I haven't always believed in "God", I have come accross spirituality a few years back, and it was strong. I don't think I'm ready for step 2, but I am ready to start exploring and feeling it.

01-26-2012, 03:33 PM	#4 (permalink)
susanlauren Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Columbus, Ohio Posts: 648	Kat, Step one is the PROBLEM. There is no hope or solution in powerlessness and unmanageability. Are you going to AA? Do you have a sponsor? Do you have someone who can take you through the steps? The solution is found in the remaining eleven steps of AA's twelve step program. Recovery works best when we have an experienced guide to help us on our journey. I found a sponsor was indispensable to working the AA program. Susan

02-14-2012, 03:22 PM	#5 (permalink)
silkylock Member Join Date: Feb 2012 Location: New York Posts: 4 Blog Entries: 1	Step1. When I've learned that my unmanagability came from repeating those same addictive behaviors; expecting different results. I began to recognize my powerlessness. So i surrendered, I surrendered my thought, my feelings and obsessions all for a new way of looking at life. Now that i've done this, I recognize that even with out a drink or a drug. I could be whipped up in a mentally obsession that only and act of providence can remove from me. This is bigger than the drink and the drug.

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