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JulyBabe · 08-02-2011, 08:07 AM

Hello fellow forum readers and posters. I just wanted to say hi as I look forward to becoming an involved member of this community. I've had two attempts now at sobriety. The first one, I went 79 days. The second was shorter. Now I want to try again and will go to a meeting at 5:30 - the witching hour! I'm in my sixties but very active and have many hobbies and interests.
I've been reading the posts on the Step 1 Thread and can't believe how much I can identify with all the "bottle of wine a nighters." I can't really add anything new as it's already been said - that one glass while you cook, or the one glass on the deck to relax etc. etc. Like many others have said - it ended with an empty bottle of wine. I've lost control and I know it - life HAS become unmanageable and not happy. I'm missing my exercise class because I feel too awful, friends and family don't particularly want to be around me, I feel unmotivated, depressed and like everyone hates me. There is no spark or joy. I know from my past experience that the love of life will return, it's just hard to believe that right now.
It's very difficult to kick wine. Easy to tell myself, it's as old as time itself and people have been drinking wine forever. Or my best rationalization - it's just another food. But I know I have to stop. I really "took in" one comment that I read here - "admitting and accepting are two different things." I hope that this time around I can truly admit that I am powerless and accept that I can't drink and that I really want to be sober. I want this to be day one of many days. Thanks for reading.

***PaperDolls*** · 08-02-2011, 09:27 AM

Welcome to SR! Glad you found us.

You might consider reading in the Newcomer to Recovery section. You'll find lots of good stuff there!

Enjoy your meeting tonight!!

CaiHong · 08-03-2011, 03:45 PM

Hi July babe,
hang in there, sounds like you know the drill, I identified with"friends and family don't want to be around me" comment. I am only 8 weeks sober and already feeling the great benefits of being sober. I especially like having my mind back and being able to use it. Family are starting to respond to me more positively. From the bottom of my heart I wish you well on the road to sobriety.
LOL CaiHong

SBRSUZY · 08-08-2011, 04:29 AM

I'm new here too and have 3 and 1/2 years sober (in a row)!!!!
I am greatful for the gift of sobriety, desperation and the 12 steps of AA.
I say please in the morning and thank you at night.
One day at a time!!!
HAVE A BLESSED DAY!!!!!!!!

SBRSUZY · 08-08-2011, 04:34 AM

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Originally Posted by JulyBabe

Hello fellow forum readers and posters. I just wanted to say hi as I look forward to becoming an involved member of this community. I've had two attempts now at sobriety. The first one, I went 79 days. The second was shorter. Now I want to try again and will go to a meeting at 5:30 - the witching hour! I'm in my sixties but very active and have many hobbies and interests.
I've been reading the posts on the Step 1 Thread and can't believe how much I can identify with all the "bottle of wine a nighters." I can't really add anything new as it's already been said - that one glass while you cook, or the one glass on the deck to relax etc. etc. Like many others have said - it ended with an empty bottle of wine. I've lost control and I know it - life HAS become unmanageable and not happy. I'm missing my exercise class because I feel too awful, friends and family don't particularly want to be around me, I feel unmotivated, depressed and like everyone hates me. There is no spark or joy. I know from my past experience that the love of life will return, it's just hard to believe that right now.
It's very difficult to kick wine. Easy to tell myself, it's as old as time itself and people have been drinking wine forever. Or my best rationalization - it's just another food. But I know I have to stop. I really "took in" one comment that I read here - "admitting and accepting are two different things." I hope that this time around I can truly admit that I am powerless and accept that I can't drink and that I really want to be sober. I want this to be day one of many days. Thanks for reading.

**Dee74** · 08-08-2011, 04:49 AM

Welcome to SR SBRSUZY

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08-02-2011, 08:07 AM	#1 (permalink)
JulyBabe Member Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: MA Posts: 12	New Here but Not New Hello fellow forum readers and posters. I just wanted to say hi as I look forward to becoming an involved member of this community. I've had two attempts now at sobriety. The first one, I went 79 days. The second was shorter. Now I want to try again and will go to a meeting at 5:30 - the witching hour! I'm in my sixties but very active and have many hobbies and interests. I've been reading the posts on the Step 1 Thread and can't believe how much I can identify with all the "bottle of wine a nighters." I can't really add anything new as it's already been said - that one glass while you cook, or the one glass on the deck to relax etc. etc. Like many others have said - it ended with an empty bottle of wine. I've lost control and I know it - life HAS become unmanageable and not happy. I'm missing my exercise class because I feel too awful, friends and family don't particularly want to be around me, I feel unmotivated, depressed and like everyone hates me. There is no spark or joy. I know from my past experience that the love of life will return, it's just hard to believe that right now. It's very difficult to kick wine. Easy to tell myself, it's as old as time itself and people have been drinking wine forever. Or my best rationalization - it's just another food. But I know I have to stop. I really "took in" one comment that I read here - "admitting and accepting are two different things." I hope that this time around I can truly admit that I am powerless and accept that I can't drink and that I really want to be sober. I want this to be day one of many days. Thanks for reading.

08-02-2011, 09:27 AM	#2 (permalink)
*PaperDolls* Community Greeter Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 7,794 Blog Entries: 10	Welcome to SR! Glad you found us. You might consider reading in the Newcomer to Recovery section. You'll find lots of good stuff there! Enjoy your meeting tonight!! __________________ Advice is like snow; the softer it falls the longer it dwells upon, and the deeper it sinks into the mind. --Samuel T. Coleridg

08-08-2011, 04:49 AM	#6 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 65,648	Welcome to SR SBRSUZY D __________________

08-03-2011, 03:45 PM	#3 (permalink)
CaiHong Member Join Date: Aug 2011 Posts: 1,750	Hi July babe, hang in there, sounds like you know the drill, I identified with"friends and family don't want to be around me" comment. I am only 8 weeks sober and already feeling the great benefits of being sober. I especially like having my mind back and being able to use it. Family are starting to respond to me more positively. From the bottom of my heart I wish you well on the road to sobriety. LOL CaiHong

08-08-2011, 04:29 AM	#4 (permalink)
SBRSUZY Member Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: Lenexa, ks. Posts: 2	I'm new here too and have 3 and 1/2 years sober (in a row)!!!! I am greatful for the gift of sobriety, desperation and the 12 steps of AA. I say please in the morning and thank you at night. One day at a time!!! HAVE A BLESSED DAY!!!!!!!!

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