My time with step one - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

EbonyG · 07-30-2011, 03:38 PM

Over the past year and a half i have been struggling with staying sober, i went 10 months in a program and slipped right after i left. I have never really done the steps per say, but i went through the same process. I have gone all the way to step 11.

I know i am powerless over alchohol and i have a problem. I accept this. I have been sober this round for one week today, and at times it is hard, really hard. But i nned this for myself and for my relationship and any tips to work through the stressful times is very welcome.

Thank you

DayTrader · 07-30-2011, 04:53 PM

Step 1, for me, was only "workable" with an experienced AA member....one on on.....away from a meeting.....and over several conversations. I couldn't, on my own, see the second part of step 1 - my life's unmanageable. Being honest......I had a hard time with admitting I was powerless over alcohol too.

What 1 means to me today is two important things:
1. When it comes to booze, I lose - period. I can't choose to stay away from it and carry that choice out (under my own power / will) & I can't drink it safely - ever.
2. Even when I can get some "clean time" scraped together.....my life progressively gets "heavier." My life, run on my will and based upon my desires even when I'm NOT drinking rarely if ever truly works out. I get moments of happiness but rarely anything that's lasting.

......not exactly statements of hope. Step 1 isn't a "feel good" step for me, that's for sure.....and I don't believe it's supposed to be. It's simply an admission of my reality - a reality that I've spent a lifetime trying to hide from everyone....including MYSELF.

CarolD · 07-31-2011, 08:05 PM

welcome to SR.....

thanks for joining with us

CaiHong · 08-03-2011, 05:56 PM

I should get up from the computer and go about my business but I really love reading the posts everyone of them speaks to me.

Last night I watched "Torchwood" it is a sci fi TV show , basically somthing has happened and no one on Earth can die. In a bar there is a bowl full of AA chips,because people can't die they have begun drinking again with impunity.

I thought this was such rubbish, such a mirepresentation of what AA is all about, given that option I would certainly stay sober so I could enjoy a long life, not drink and be more miserable for an even longer life. (well it would seem that way and suicide would not be an option) My point being, you are here because you are not happy, alcohol doesn't make you happy anymore.
You know what to do, I am writing because I want to in my own way say I feel for you and I hope that you can get back on the road and find your way.
LOL
Cai Hong

07-30-2011, 03:38 PM	#1 (permalink)
EbonyG Member Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: Gainsville Florida Posts: 8	My time with step one Over the past year and a half i have been struggling with staying sober, i went 10 months in a program and slipped right after i left. I have never really done the steps per say, but i went through the same process. I have gone all the way to step 11. I know i am powerless over alchohol and i have a problem. I accept this. I have been sober this round for one week today, and at times it is hard, really hard. But i nned this for myself and for my relationship and any tips to work through the stressful times is very welcome. Thank you

07-30-2011, 04:53 PM	#2 (permalink)
DayTrader 12-Step Recovered Alcoholic Join Date: May 2010 Posts: 4,672	Step 1, for me, was only "workable" with an experienced AA member....one on on.....away from a meeting.....and over several conversations. I couldn't, on my own, see the second part of step 1 - my life's unmanageable. Being honest......I had a hard time with admitting I was powerless over alcohol too. What 1 means to me today is two important things: 1. When it comes to booze, I lose - period. I can't choose to stay away from it and carry that choice out (under my own power / will) & I can't drink it safely - ever. 2. Even when I can get some "clean time" scraped together.....my life progressively gets "heavier." My life, run on my will and based upon my desires even when I'm NOT drinking rarely if ever truly works out. I get moments of happiness but rarely anything that's lasting. ......not exactly statements of hope. Step 1 isn't a "feel good" step for me, that's for sure.....and I don't believe it's supposed to be. It's simply an admission of my reality - a reality that I've spent a lifetime trying to hide from everyone....including MYSELF. __________________ "We can't solve our problems using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them." - Albert Einstein /-all BB quotes-1st. Edition-\

07-31-2011, 08:05 PM	#3 (permalink)
CarolD Forward we go...side by side Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 37,601	welcome to SR..... thanks for joining with us __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

08-03-2011, 05:56 PM	#4 (permalink)
CaiHong Member Join Date: Aug 2011 Posts: 1,741	I should get up from the computer and go about my business but I really love reading the posts everyone of them speaks to me. Last night I watched "Torchwood" it is a sci fi TV show , basically somthing has happened and no one on Earth can die. In a bar there is a bowl full of AA chips,because people can't die they have begun drinking again with impunity. I thought this was such rubbish, such a mirepresentation of what AA is all about, given that option I would certainly stay sober so I could enjoy a long life, not drink and be more miserable for an even longer life. (well it would seem that way and suicide would not be an option) My point being, you are here because you are not happy, alcohol doesn't make you happy anymore. You know what to do, I am writing because I want to in my own way say I feel for you and I hope that you can get back on the road and find your way. LOL Cai Hong

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