Charmie

welcome to sr kirk.im glad you are back in the saddle too.you will find lots of help here at sr and some very wise words.keep at it,like your life depends on it,,,oh,wait,your life does depend on it! again welcome.

Kirk

Charmie, Thanks..It feels so good o be free of alcohol !! I have been examining all my excuses, and my family, and I have missed so much by not managing this disease. One of my nevers was to ignore the online help, for I knew it all, and being a Systems Engineer exonerated me from dealing with a place I can go when I am feeling down, especially during the night , after I have been to a meeting.

It feels good to ghave someone answer, Charmie..Thanks, and Bless You

CarolD

Kirk.....
Welcome to SR and more importantly
Welcome back to recovery.

When you have time....please come down to our
main Forums and share there too.

Thanks foor joining us....

Kirk

Hello CarolD..Today has been hell day..I need a bit of help to know how to get the main forums, for I am somewhat flaky. Very painful, physically this disease, and the mental torture to me and those around me plays such an exacting toll on their lives. The Powerlessness made me so self-absorbed, self will run riot, selfish, just self-self. One Day at a Time. Everyone was always correct 40 years ago when they said that this gtes nothing but more difficult if I pick up. I didn't drink that much. The controlled drinking is what it was all about. Then without any indication , slap !! I woke up last Monday, and thought death was at my doorstep.

I had quintuple bypass surgery in 2000. I am a diabetic of 32 years from pancreatitis, and I still thought in my addict mind that I could chase the beer, not the hard, but beer. Nope !!

Thank you for welcoming me in your group here. I am on disability,and this really helps me when I am home. I hope I make it to 57 this Dec. All this intelligence I have is completely useless and void if I even come close to hurting my mind, body, and spirit by just picking up one drink. I had my first drink at 4. I have a picture of my grandfather giving me a glass of the brown stuff. What a way to start a life. Thank God for moments of clarity, the only glimmer of hope in the total insanity-primeivel actions of alcohol.

I will look for the main forum.

Thanks for reading my posts, and everything here means something to me..

Dawnmha

That is such a good idea, I have been tempted since I have quit drinking and that just puts it in front of your face. I think writing things down often gives them more affirmation than thinking them alone, plus how can you forget how bad it was when it's right in front of your face. Thank you, I am going to do that.

Dawn

Twinsen

Your list needs to be changed to since I did not take that sip of alcohol what happened. and so do I.

1) My daughter praised me for my strength.. she now believes im the strongest man alive for getting through it.

2) I told my friends I am going on without them to a reality that is sober.

3) I will wake up in the morning without the headache and feeling terrible.

4) add on as you wish.

CarolD

Welcome to SR Twinsen .....

I hope you will come to our Newcomers Forum
start a thread and introduce yourself there.

Glad to see a new member ..

Spawn

this list is good,..it's your "remember when"

My other favourite slogan is "keep it simple" sometimes the "why's" are like trying to figure out which came first the chicken or the egg.

I'm an alcoholic and I'm cool with that,....maybe I was born this way who know's?

All I know is "it really doesn't matter to me why?"