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spiritualone · 09-06-2009, 07:20 PM

we admittted that we were alcoholic and that are lives had become unmanageable.

Unmanageable?

My life was crazy, my life was destroyed, my life was tormented,
my life was over. My life was absolutely insane. Like they talk about in the second step.

I couldn't drink and i couldn't not drink. If i drank i was sick, if i didn't drink i was sick. I had stolen some of my uncles morphine
( he was dying from cancer ) it's pretty bad when you steal a dying mans drugs. I was so paranoid that there was a gap about an inch at the bottom of the front door. I use to identify people by their shoes. I pretty much was a shut in. I didn't even go to my families for thanksgiving or christmas. And the reason for that was because i was so ashamed of myself because i had beat the **** out of my daughter. That is the very worst thing i did when i was drinking. I just wanted to die.

Unmanageable???????

freya · 09-06-2009, 07:46 PM

Wow! That's a very open and honest first share...and very appropriately & powerfully Step One focused.

Welcome to SR -- I look forward to reading more from you!

freya

Cubile75 · 09-06-2009, 08:36 PM

How are you now?

Mark

09-06-2009, 07:20 PM	#1 (permalink)
spiritualone Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Butte Montana Posts: 2 Blog Entries: 9	unmanageable? we admittted that we were alcoholic and that are lives had become unmanageable. Unmanageable? My life was crazy, my life was destroyed, my life was tormented, my life was over. My life was absolutely insane. Like they talk about in the second step. I couldn't drink and i couldn't not drink. If i drank i was sick, if i didn't drink i was sick. I had stolen some of my uncles morphine ( he was dying from cancer ) it's pretty bad when you steal a dying mans drugs. I was so paranoid that there was a gap about an inch at the bottom of the front door. I use to identify people by their shoes. I pretty much was a shut in. I didn't even go to my families for thanksgiving or christmas. And the reason for that was because i was so ashamed of myself because i had beat the **** out of my daughter. That is the very worst thing i did when i was drinking. I just wanted to die. Unmanageable???????

09-06-2009, 07:46 PM	#2 (permalink)
freya ...all this, and brains, too! Join Date: May 2004 Location: Rochester, NY Posts: 1,143	Wow! That's a very open and honest first share...and very appropriately & powerfully Step One focused. Welcome to SR -- I look forward to reading more from you! freya __________________ I never did give anybody hell; I just told the truth and they thought it was hell. -- Harry S. Truman

09-06-2009, 08:36 PM	#3 (permalink)
Cubile75 September 14, 2008 Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: East of Eden Posts: 2,298	How are you now? Mark __________________ My drinkin' days are over. No more nights in the carousel. My buddies say they're gonna miss me, but they can go to hell. I never knew what time it was until closing time came 'round My drinkin' days are over but I'm still trouble bound. Slaid Cleaves

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